Jules and Xolo were best friends since childhood until they had a major fall out, They both are trying to go their separate ways in life. Will they ever find their way back and possibly even become more?
I am currently making my morning coffee , taking my cup and packing it with ice before pouring in the hot caffeine. It feels like I'm just going through the motions because all that's consuming my mind is Xolo. He is the only thing that's been on my mind all night and all morning.
For the first time in a month, Xolo is not here, him and his mom went home last night to start packing for Atlanta tomorrow. Carmelita also needed time to figure out and set up the whole hotel situation. I'm still figuring out how to feel about him leaving tomorrow for God knows how many months to film. I'm happy for him because this is all that he's been wanting but it kinda hurts to know that I won't see him for months right after we just had a moment.
I know that I could possibly get the role of Elizabeth Moskowitz but that won't be for another month , the audition is next week and let's say that I don't get it , I really wouldn't see him for months.
We finally kissed and now he has to leave. When we kissed , it felt like everything I've been wanting for years was finally coming true. It felt like we finally got on the same page on how we feel about each other. He finally saw me in a way that was more than just a bestfriend..
It felt like it was the first step into possibly developing a relationship, a new beginning. I thought that we would become something more after this. That kiss brought me so much hope and happiness and now he has to leave tomorrow and I don't even know when he's coming back. where does that leave us ? Where do we stand ? And why hasn't he talked to me about it yet.
And why did he even kiss me in the first place when he already knew he was leaving in 2 days? Why didn't he tell me that before he kissed me?
What if he doesn't care or like me enough or at all to even wanna become anything. What if the kiss was just an in the moment thing? He was so excited and happy and in the moment that he kissed me when maybe he wasn't even meaning to or planning to. It was also night time when people are just more bold and maybe he regrets it now that it's the morning.
Maybe that's why he's not talking to me about where we stand or where things will go with us now that he's leaving. Relax , Jules he is probably just busy packing, he literally leaves tomorrow. Yea , he's just busy packing. He'll talk to me later or come over later.
Maybe he needs help ? what if I go over and help and then I can see how he acts around me and how he feels and maybe we'll talk about everything. Okay , yeah I'm gonna ask him if he needs helps.
I took my coffee and quickly went to sit at the island table , pulling out my phone.
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Hopefully he says yes, I would actually help him plus I'm gonna go crazy , thinking about this whole thing if I don't see him. I rather just calm my mind and see him, see how he feels , and hopefully talk about everything after. ———————————————————————————— Xolo's POV I can't believe this is even my life right now but I am currently in my room at home , packing for Atlanta. I leave tomorrow at 10 in the morning . I actually got the role ! I actually fucking got it. I'm so excited to start filming and to start meeting everyone. I did not expect this at all , it feels like a dream. I'm definitely nervous but I am more excited than anything.
