𝑀𝑆.𝑂𝐿𝑆𝐸𝑁 [𝑊𝐿𝑊]

Lucid dreams - 30

The moon or the stars ,my love will forever be for you, here or not you'll always be mine

Kendra's POV•

It's been two weeks since i became free of my mothers grip,i made it alive,two weeks and i made the love of my life to be a part of a life i never expected to live or wetness,tomorrow is my last time writing my name on a test paper for the year it meant i was free

Is it a dream or did i hit my head somewhere either way it feels marvelous, for once in my life i can say i have things under control,im not exactly sure how im going to move on,though im sure of one thing,that i'll make the most of it

I met Emani so we can catch up on a lot when i say a lot it means boys dates and heartbreaks add disappointments of a handful of things ,and yet she didn't seem fazed by any of it,i was happy she was doing great,she's already applying to multiple job interviews and had herself a couple of company's dying to have her,i mean who wouldn't , Emani had the looks,got the brains for it, not to mention her perfect figure,her character and god her sweetness can melt stones

If i said im Shocked it's an understatement for my situation,as i sat there across from my mother as she finished some paperwork,lately she's been acting weird all of a sudden,i feel her warmth we've been meeting quite regularly for the time being,she specifically asks me to come spend time with her,and its getting under my skin,my gut tells me something is wrong

She looks up at me with a smile that seemed to lingerie on her face these days,im shocked she has a nice smile that blows sparks in my heart,am i wrong to feel mad at her for putting me through something that will go to the grave with me,soon enough she's sitting inches from me,her hand resting on my knee squeezing gently like always

"Kendra...baby look at me will you"her tone is sweet and warm,i shut my eyes close for a second before meeting her gaze to find her knitted brows"i want to apologize for everything,iv'e been wondering if you would accept me back into your life nothing more or less than a mother"she paused searching my eyes for any clue before she continued"im aware that your not my blood or out of my uterus,but as far as i know you are my daughter you'll always be,and nothing will change that"her eyes swam with tears,and i knew her words were genuine and true

I breath a sigh"I know but an apology wont wipe out years of scars and traumas,i cant promise you but i'll try to forgive you"i place my hand on hers and she smiles tucking her blonde hair back her left ear clearing her throat

"Can i get a hug at least,monsters like me need them"i scoffed taking her in,she did care for me although she always acted like as if she was stone cold,but she wasn't,growing up i used to feel her presence in my room observing me sleep,sometimes kissing me goodnight others stroking my nappy curls gently,until i caught her on night inviting her to cuddle with me until i fell asleep,but she had to go do something

"You are my mother,at least you didnt leave me to die on the streets,yes you turned me to something unchangeable,yet i love you mom,i'll always do,though i need time away"i said calmly leaving the tears trail down my cheeks,she hummed in my shoulder and i just breathed in her too familiar scent to remember

We both decided on having lunch how we used to do before,and i took it as a new chapter with her,i cant be mad at her forever she is important to me

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It's like a disease plaguing my whole system one by one consuming every single pure piece in me,it was my sickening desire if you well,and it was /will haunt me to my last second here...