a new home || sleepyboisinc

- N I N E T Y S I X -

~ tommys pov ~

normally i would feel bad for saying something like that to anyone but for some reason i didn't, maybe because i was finally accepting the truth. they weren't my family and never will be, i mean i could think of them as family but they will never actually be my family although it would be nice i've already said too many things and i'm not surprised they haven't kicked me out yet.

i sat in 'my' bedroom, i didn't actually class it as 'my' bedroom, it's more of a room that i was staying in that was designed for and i had no choice whether i could stay in it or not. i didn't know what to do, i could try sneak out again and risk schlatt catching me but what's the worst he could do? hit me? trust me. i've had worse.

i decided to text phil, he would have no clue what i had said yet unless schlatt or wilbur had already told him which i doubt they would have because i'm sure phil has better things to do at the hospital like watching and waiting for his child to wake up or whatever.

phil 👨‍👦

when can i come and visit?

not sure yet mate, technos not
awake yet why don't you ask
schlatt

please phil i want to come see
him and schlatt wont take me

i'll talk to schlatt and see
but i don't know yet because
i don't want to overwhelm
techno when he wakes up

yeah i get that but can i not atleast
wait there in the waiting room and
if he doesn't want to see me then
it's fine

i'll ring schlatt if you
want to come here that
desperately, not
much is going on here
tho

i don't care i just want to be
there just in case

alright i'll talk to you
later tommy

bye

i put my phone down and after a few minutes i hear schlatt calling me downstairs but unfortunately it wasn't for us to go the hospital, he just wanted to know what i wanted for tea.

"hello? tommy what do you want?" he waves his hand in front of my face.

"i want to go see techno" is what i wanted to say but instead of causing an argument i just said "i'm not hungry"

"well you've gotta eat something, how about a ham sandwich for now?"

"no i'm not hungry"

"alright well if you aren't gonna eat anything now i'll get you something later"

"can i go upstairs now?"

"yeah, let me know if you want anything"

"okay" i nod before going back up the stairs.

not far behind me i hear wilbur walking up the stairs as well, he must have been as sick of this as i was. i mean techno is his twin brother who he's spent almost everyday with and he can't even see him while he's in hospital, i couldn't imagine how wilbur was feeling, i hadn't even known techno that long and was missing him.

before i get to the room wilbur stops me by asking "do you want to come in my room? it's not the greatest being alone right now"

"um sure" i nod avoiding eye contact.

i head into wilburs room and see it looks like it usually does but a bit more messy than usual which is surprising as i've never seen it like this before.

"my rooms a bit messy i know but i've got a lot more to worry about"

"it's fine don't worry"

after a few moments of silence wilbur speaks up "how are you feeling about techno?"

i shrug "i don't know, i just want to go see him"

"so do i but there's no way you're getting passed schlatt"

"well i message phil and he said he's gonna ring schlatt"

"i think being at the hospital will make it worse tommy, it's best we stay here and try not to think about it"

"so what do we do to not think about it?"

"i'll play a song for us"

"okay" i smile as my mood was uplifted slightly.