Under The Twilight Sky (KOV #3)

Love Drunk

Ngayong naalala ko ang mga sinabi niya sa'kin kanina, nag tatampo ako pero kaylangan kong kumalma dahil baka masakal ko siya mamaya. Ayokong dumating sa punto na magkikita-kita kami sa korte tapos ako ang suspect sa kaso, I can't imagine myself wearing an orange t-shirt tapos may naka tatak na 'inmate' sa likod.

Maya-maya pa ng kaunti, mayroong kumatok sa pintuan ng opisina ko. It's Atty. Freya Del Luna, she smiled at me then immediately went to my direction. May dala siyang mga macarrons, agad niya akong inabutan ng red velvet flavor dahil alam niyang paborito ko ang mga iyon.

"Nag tatampo ka pa rin ba kay Atty. Chavez?". She asked.

I sighed heavily. "Gusto ko lang naman makatulong atsaka nag aalala kase ako sa kaniya, masama ba yon?". I replied then asked her a question.

Naupo siya sa upuan na nasa harapan ko, tipid siyang tumawa habang pinag mamasdan ako ng maigi. She's not taking her eyes off of me which is making me a bit uncomfortable but I can still handle it, I guess?

"Lauren, you're terrified. Why?". Muli niyang tanong.

"Ako? Takot? Saan naman?".

"You're terrified that he might leave you too because that's what you did to him before, you got sick and tired of everyone's shits so you decided to take a break from everything including Jared himself".

"Siguro nga tama ka, takot akong mawala ulit siya".

At this point, I can't deny how I really feel about everything. Oo, natatakot akong mawala si Jared sa'kin. Natatakot ako na baka iwan niya rin ako dahil iyon ang ginawa ko sa kaniya noon, ni hindi ko nga siya hinayaang mag paliwanag o nilingon sa huling pag kakataon.

Kung kinaya kong gawin yon noon sa kaniya, walang imposible na maaari at kaya niya ring ibalik iyon sa'kin. I can do it so why can't he? bakit siya hindi diba?

"Lauren, my job may be related to law and stuff but I was once a psychology student".

Hindi ko alam kung bakit niya ito ikinukwento sa'kin pero sigurado akong maski sina Jared at Atty. Owen ay hindi ito alam dahil masekretong babae si Atty. Freya, she doesn't really share her feelings, thoughts or anything about herself. She rarely does that for sure.

"The reason why I chose this profession is because I couldn't defend my father, he was accused of doing something ridiculous. They said that he was a rapist of a ten year old girl with a mental problem".

"I was just fifteen years old at that time, I thought that I already knew everything, that I understand how the world works but I was wrong".

"I studied psychology because of that girl, she's still alive and well until now but my father? He's no longer around".

Habang pinakikinggan ko ang kwento niya, nararamdaman ko rin na nasasaktan pa rin siya dahil sa mga nang yari. Ang hustisya sa bansang ito ay para lang sa mayayaman, kung wala kang pera? Wala ka ring kapangyarihan o karapatan na makamit ang hustisya.

I saw a tear fell from her eye as she continues to tell me her story and her past. "He committed suicide inside the prison cell because he doesn't want to be a burden to my mother and to everyone around him".

"His lawyer wasn't able to help him because that girl's family are rich and powerful, they knew that my father didn't raped her but they still insisted so he ended up having an unfair punishment".