So this oneshot is a song one. The sing is 'Again by Araki'. Bryan will be thinking about his past and try to fight against it. He will also think about icey boi Jakey. Now onto the oneshot.
Bryan POV
Today would of been me and Jakey's 2 year anniversary. I really miss him but I was an idiot in my past. This kinda reminds me of a song. I start to sing. "I haven't been myself lately, I don't blame you for not wanting to stay." I thought about how I pushed him away when I was controlled by the rose. "Saying things that I don't mean, Not meaning what I say. When it's good, it's so good, When it's bad, it's SO BAD." I remember telling him how I don't love him. I didn't mean it. "Maybe I REALLY have gone mad!What am I supposed to say, when I end up driving everyone away?" I started to think what if Riccaro hates me for what I did. "Cause, I am on fire, A crying, burning liar, Seeing nothing, nothing, but myself, And I'm the one with the lighter Every inch of me is charred, God, what happened to my heart?" I started to think how I killed so many innocent people. "I'm about to fall apart, again, again And you're never coming back. And I'm not okay with that, and I should've never let myself get attached." I use to follow Jakey around. I always wanted his attention but he didn't like that. "What's done is done, And nothing's gonna change. I should be moving on, But I still feel the same. And it's like every day is a fight for my life." I remember how I tried to fight for control but I lost. I know it's in the past but I can't help it. "to get some self control, And when you've forgotten who I am, it just feels, it just feels....I'm nobody at all." I don't have a purpose do I. My purpose was to have a happy life with Jakey. "I lost myself hitting the ground, I tried to scream and made no sound. I should have known, It was no use to try and run from the cycle of abuse, the cycle of abuse." As I was fighting for control I remember screaming for help. "I am on fire, A crying, burning liar, Seeing nothing, nothing, but myself, And I'm the one with the lighter Every inch of me is charred, God, what happened to my heart?" I lied to everyone. I told them I was over the past but I still am not. "I'm about to fall apart, again, again And you're never coming back, And I'm not okay with that, and I should've never let myself get." I started to cry but continued to sing. "And you're never coming back, And I'm not okay with that, and I should've never let myself get attached, again, again again, again again, again again, again again, again
again, again again, again again, again." I just realized I have so many new crushes and all of them will end up with them not liking me. The cycle will just keep repeating.
Hope you enjoyed and see you in the next oneshot.