Clarke POV
Lexa wakes me up to screaming at about 2:30 in the morning today. It's the third night in a row that this has happened. She wakes up sweating and screaming. She won't tell me why, no matter how hard I beg.
I sit up with her and she just closes her eyes tight then opens them again. Lexa runs her hand through her hair and then looks at me.
"I'm sorry I woke you... go back to sleep, Klark." Lexa puts her hand on my thigh and I shake my head. I lean over to place a gentle kiss on her temple, then reach over to the night stand.
I grab my phone and pull up Taylor Swift concert highlights, "Baby... come watch this with me to calm down..." I say with a sleepy voice.
"You sounds so tired it's okay..." Lexa shakes her head and I grab her arm and pull her down so her head is laying on my chest. She wraps her arms around me as I press play.
Her heart rate is beating so fast. What could the dream be? What is keeping my girl up at night? And how do I make it stop?
After a few minutes Lexa is finally asleep. I turn off my phone and try not to move too much while I put my phone on the nightstand.
While I stroke Lexa's hair I hear her mumble in her sleep, "I love you, Klark... I love you... I... I love you, Klark..." She keeps repeating this and I smile. She is fully asleep and won't stop mumbling that she loves me.
"I love you too." I quietly respond as I close my eyes and listen the her mumble until I'm asleep.
***
I am in the kitchen getting Lexa an apple, me a glass of water, Luna some coke, and Raven a tool that she forgot on the counter. After my arms are completely full I walk back into the living room.
I divi out the items then yawn, "Not much sleep last night?" Raven asks me while she plays with her tool. I just shake my head and look at Lexa who has pity in her eyes.
"I just need some cuddles." I say then I crawl in Ravens lap. She was surprised at first but then wrapped her arms around me.
"I am going to pretend not to be hurt by that." Lexa shakes her head then bites into her apple.
"Clarke I was about to cuddle with my girlfriend." Luna says poking my arm.
"Too bad." Raven and I say at the same time and then Raven kisses my head.
"Like you said in chapter 48 ... sisters before kissers." I point out and Luna gets very confused.
"Chapter?" Luna asks and Raven just reaches her hand over to her girlfriend to pat her on the top of her head.
"You'll understand one day, baby." Raven blows the other girl a kiss and we laugh.
"Well if you don't mind I'll take my girlfriend back, cause none of you can stop me." Lexa says as she picks me up off Raven. I keep a grasp on Raven and Raven holds me tight. Lexa frowns when she can't get me off of her.
"No!" Raven calls out.
"Give her back!" Lexa pours.
"Baby you can't just take Clarke..." Luna says as she slowly puts a hand on Ravens arm in an attempt to loosen her grip around me.
"Touch my arm and you will be sleeping on the couch." Raven glares at Luna who quickly removed her hand.
Lexa smirks as if she has a plan, then she picks up Ravens make shift tool, "I'll smash it."
"No you won't! Clarke tell your whipped girlfriend not to." Raven smirks back.
"Don't smash any of Raven's things." I mumble while closing my eyes and putting my head on Ravens shoulder. Lexa just frowns cause now she can't break the tool.
"Lexa!" Aden calls out as he walks into the living room.
"Hey bubba." Lexa puts the tool down.
"You are you sad?" Aden asks and Lexa picks him up.
"Raven won't give me back my girlfriend... I just want a hug." Lexa explains.
"Lemme try." Aden nods. Lexa shrugs and puts him on the couch. Aden crawls over and taps my shoulder, "Can I have a hug?" He asks and I smile and nod.
I crawl off Raven and pull Aden into my lap. Lexa's jaw drops. Raven turns to Luna with a smile, "Hey baby... wanna cuddle."
"I'm scared to say no..." Luna responds and Raven crawls into her lap. Lexa scratch's the back of her head as she studied the position I am in.
Aden is on my lap with his harms around my neck and my arms are around him. Lexa gets an idea and so she easily scoops me up, bridle style, and then lays back on the couch with Aden and I on top of her.
"This can't be comfortable." I say to her and she shakes her head no. I laugh and we get into a comfortable position. All five of us cuddle on the couch for hours.
***
Raven put Aden in his room for a nap and hen went to the kitchen to get us some snacks. Nothing could go wrong. Really. It's simple. Nothing could go wrong.
We all jump up from the couch when we hear a crash in the kitchen. Quickly we all run into the next room to see Raven on the floor holding her foot. Her eyes are squeezed shut.
Luna kneels down next to her girlfriend and studies her, "Babe... what happened?" Luna asks, really worried.
"I stubbed my toe!" Raven almost yells and the rest of us sigh with relief, "Don't be relieved! I'm dying... i'm dying." Raven let's put a gasp after she finished the sentence.
"Raven your fine... your toe doesn't even look bruised." Lexa rolls her eyes tom where she is standing.
"I'm not fine! I think imma die." Raven let's out an exaggerated sigh.
"All we wanted was potato chips." I roll my eyes too and grab the bag of chips off the counter.
"Okay you know what. Screw all of you. None of you care that you might have had to cut off my leg and I probably wouldn't have been able to walk the same." Raven says while sitting up.
"You are right Raven... if you're leg got cut off... or- or even paralyzed you would be able to walk the same..." Lexa runs her hand through her hair, "But you stubbed your toe. Now get up. I was taking a nap." Lexa walks back into the living room and I followed after her.
Luna's POV
I let out a sigh of relief when I realize Raven is okay. While Clexa and Raven are arguing I am lost in thought. Did no one else see the knife that fell behind her? Did no one else get worried that it could have been more than a stubbed toe?
"They are going to be so made at me." Raven laughs and smiles at me when Clexa leave the room, "Baby what's wrong?" She asks after she sees my expression.
I just point at the knife that is on the floor, "This could have been so much worse... If that.. hit your head or if it did land on your thigh and you would be able to walk... it would ruin you and I can't... I can let you go back to not loving everything about yourself." I explain. I don't even explain. This all just comes out from past thoughts.
Raven has always hated herself. I don't know why. She is perfect. But when she met me she hated her weight. She hated her smile and her eyes. She hated the way she looked in sweatpants. She hated her breath even though it's perfect. She hated her laugh and she hated the thought of being judged.
When we got together I made sure that she never felt that why again. I mean with her mother she never felt truly loved. She never felt like she had a family and I never wanted her to feel that way.
If she lost her leg... everything she loved to do and everything that she thinks defines her would be gone. She would have been broken. She would have thought she lost everything.
"Luna... I'm okay... and I do love myself. Thanks to you... I never thought I would find someone who loves me so much that I start loving myself..." Raven whispers to my then she plants a soft kiss on my lips.
"I don't ever want to see you broken." I respond.
"You won't. Because when I am here. With you. I am so happy." Raven crawls into my lap and hugs me. I hold her as close as I can. I feel like if she isn't close to me she could get hurt.
"Why are you guys on my kitchen floor?" My mom asks as she walks into the kitchen, "And why do you have a knife next to you..... did you guys have a fight?"
"No mom... Raven stubbed her toe." I explain while Raven gets off my lap and helps me up.
"That doesn't explain the knife."
Hey guys... sorry for the wimpy updated, i just wanted to get something out there. a little seamech for your hearts. i hope you are all safe!