Warning: SPG :)
-VANN-
"Hey, are you okay?"
Napatingin ako sa babaeng katabi ko. Her name was Ashley, the Aussie girl I met earlier at the restaurant.
Myca and Kuya were all over each other and I didn't want to look like a pathetic third wheel, so I hooked up with her.
"Yes, Ash. I'm fine. Are you done with the dare?"
Narito kami sa isang night party dito sa Boracay. People were having a wild night. There were pairs shamelessly making out, while others were drinking like crazy.
Ash was dared to have body shots and she was more than willing to oblige.
"Yup! Easy as fuck," she said smiling before taking the seat beside me. "You don't look like you're having fun, Vann."
"What are you saying? Of course, I am," sabi ko at hinawakan ko ang hita niya.
"Then, do you want to go somewhere else? Somewhere more private?" she teasingly said. She held my hand which was on her thigh and guided it further up.
I would have gone with her and had a fun night if it weren't for the voice nagging in my head.
"Vann, k-kailangan ko ng tulong mo. Please, tulungan mo ko."
Pikit-matang inalis ko yung kamay ko mula sa pagkakahawak niya bago tumayo.
"Sorry, Ash. I just remembered I have something important to do," I said and left some cash to pay for the drinks.
I left her who was now probably thinking what a jerk I was.
Naglakad ako paalis sa lugar na iyon at tinahak ang daan pabalik ng hotel habang bumabalik sa alaala ko ang pag-uusap namin ni Myca.
"Now, tell me... what happened, ate? Why were you crying? Bakit ka nasa ospital? At bakit hindi mo kasama si Kuya?"
Lumipas ang ilang sandali na hindi siya nagsasalita. Nang akmang tatanungin ko ulit siya, doon siya mahinang sumagot.
"I need to leave, Vann. Kailangan ko nang umalis sa bahay niyo," sabi niyang gumagaralgal ang boses.
I felt like I was punched in the gut. I knew that one day she will have to leave but I didn't think it would be this soon.
"B-bakit biglaan? May nangyari ba?"
She bit her lip and put her hands on her face and started crying.
"N-nasa ospital ang Daddy ko, Vann. Siya yung pinuntahan ko sa ospital," aniya at tahimik na umiyak.
"Si Mommy yung nakausap ko. She begged for me to go home. Nagmakaawa sa akin ang Mom ko, Vann. She never once did that. Ang babaeng walang kahit na sinong yinuyukuan maliban sa Dad ko, nagmakaawa sa akin na anak niya."
She held her chest as she gasped for breath.
I looked away. I can't bear to see her cry. Ang sakit makita.
"What are your plans now? Are you going back?"
Atubiling tumango siya.
"I can't let them suffer any longer. Masyado na akong naging masamang anak. I was just a selfish brat who thought about nothing but herself."
"Pa'no si Kuya? Pa'no kayo?"
Pa'no ako?
Nag-uunahang pumatak ang mga luha sa mga mata niya.
"I love your brother. God knows how much I love him. But he doesn't deserve me, Vann. He deserves so much more. He was honest from the start while I was a lying bitch. He gave me his heart, and all I gave him were lies."
Nagpapanting ang tenga ko sa sinasabi niya sa sarili niya.
"Will you stop talking so lowly of yourself, Myca? Walang sinuman sa amin ang mag-iisip na ganyan ka."
She smiled.
"Kasi pareho kayong mabait. Saksakan kayo ng bait."
"Why don't you just tell Kuya? I'm sure he can help you and even if he can't, I know he will find ways to help you. Just don't leave without telling him, ate."
Bakit kailangan niyang gawing komplikado ang mga bagay-bagay? Hindi naman bata si Kuya para hindi siya maintindihan.
"I can't do that to him. Pinagsinungalingan ko na nga siya, tapos magpapatulong pa ako sa problemang ako rin ang gumawa? Masyado nang maraming pinagdaanan si Vince at ayaw ko nang dumagdag pa sa aalalahanin niya. I know he can help me... Pero hanggang kelan? Thousands of our employees are at stake. My dad's health is deteriorating. I have no choice, Vann. Kung alam mo lang ga'no kasakit ang piliin ang isang bagay na labag sa kalooban ko. Pero I need to grow up. I need to sort things out myself."
Napakatigas ng ulo ng babaeng ito talaga.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil wala akong magawa. It's times like this that I hate being born later than them, that I was still a fucking useless student.
I sighed and held her trembling hands.
"Sigurado ka na ba diyan? Kasi kahit anong piliin mo, masasaktan si Kuya, Myca. And I'm afraid he might hate you, like really hate you."
Nabahiran ng magkakasunod na patak ng luha niya ang mga kamay ko.
"I know. And I deserve that, but that's the price I have to pay."
"I'd rather break his heart and my own heart than break countless of hearts because of my selfishness. I don't want any family to suffer because of me. I don't want my own family to get hurt any further."
Are you for real? Most rich kids I know won't even blink choosing their own happiness instead of others... pero ikaw... bakit naiiba ka talaga? Bakit binibigyan mo lalo kami ng dahilan para hindi ka pakawalan?
I heaved a deep sigh.
"Alright then... In what way do you need my help?"
Nabalik ako sa kasalukuyan nang batiin ako ng receptionist ng hotel.
I hurriedly went to the elevator and walked to my room. I need to do my part.
Para kay Myca. Para kay Kuya.
At para sa sarili ko.
-MYCA-
"What do you think you're doing, Mine?" tanong ni Vince na hindi alam kung paano tatakpan ang harapan niya.
"What? Diba sinabi mo na I should feel free to join you because you left the door unlocked? Nagiging masunurin lang naman ako, Mine."
"But that was a joke!"
"Sorry, Mine. Slow ako kaya hindi ko naintindihan yung joke do'n," nangingiting sabi ko.
I closed the bathroom door and locked it before I took a step towards the bath.
Mabilis na binuksan ko iyon at agad na pumasok bago pa mahawakan iyon ni Vince.
My eyes instantly wandered to his nudity.
Pinipigilan kong matawa sa itsura niya. He looked so masculine yet so cute! Tinatakpan pa rin niya kasi si Vinci. Yep, I am calling his 'friend' Vinci!
"Damot mo naman, Mine. Remove your hands and let me see Vinci!"
Nanlaki yung mga mata niya.
"Who the fuck is Vinci?"
"Edi yan! Yung tinatakpan mo. Si baby Vinci."
"God, Mine, did you seriously give my thing a name?!"
Napangisi ako.
"Yes. At ako lang ang tatawag sa kanya ng ganyan, maliwanag?" sabi ko at inalis ang pagkakatali ng top ko bago tuluyang inalis yon.
I saw how his Adam's apple moved up and down.
"No woman's crazy enough to name a man's dick, Myca. It's just you," he said almost breathless as he stared at my chest.
Mabuti na lang pala at uminom ako kahit isang beer lang kanina kaya ngayon pakiramdam ko nawala ang inhibisyon ko sa katawan.
Lumapit akong lalo sakanya at hinawakan ang mukha niya.
I tiptoed and kissed him gently on the lips as the cold shower poured over us.
Walang kasimbilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
Vince groaned and pushed me to the wall as he deepened the kiss.
Bawat buka ng bibig niya, nahahaluan ng tubig yung halik namin, making wet kisses and sound.
Hinawakan niya yung leeg ko at mas pinalalim pa ang halik. Pakiramdam ko mauubusan ako ng hininga pero pilit ko pa ring tinugon ang bawat hagod ng labi niya sa labi ko, ang dila niya sa dila ko.
Natigilan ako nang maramdaman ko ang isang kamay niya na sinasapo ang isang dibdib ko. He gave it a gentle squeeze which earned him a moan from me.
Unti-unting bumagal yung halik niya at pagkatapos ay idinikit niya ang noo niya sa noo ko.
Halos maduling ako sa pagtititigan namin.
His eyes were burning. At kahit na malamig ang tubig na pumapatak samin, ramdam ko ang init ng katawan niya.
Para siyang nilalagnat.
"Myca... Mine... I'll ask you this one last time... Are you sure about this?"
Pa'no ako makakasagot nang matino kung nararamdaman ko ang pagtaas-baba ng kamay niya sa tagiliran ko?
"I'm 101% sure. Take me. Make me yours completely, Vince."
Nakita ko kung pa'no napatid ang pagtitimpi niya. Pinatay niya yung shower at pagkatapos ay pinangko ako at may pagmamadaling hinalikan ako habang naglalakad siya palabas ng bathroom.
Saglit na natigil ang halikan namin nang marahang ibinaba niya ako sa kama.
Napalunok ako nang makita ko ang kabuuan ng kahubdan niya.
Hindi makatarungan ang ganda ng katawan niya. It was as if he was sculpted by the greatest sculptor.
Napatingin ako kay Vinci.
Kung dati, may boxers na nakaharang kaya hindi ko na-confirm ang hinala ko.
Ngayon confirmed na ng mga mata ko.
Si Vinci ay isang daks. Super daks, if there was such a thing.
Napatingin ako kay Vince nang tumikhim siya.
"Scared?" tanong niya habang marahang tinatabihan ako sa kama.
I licked my lips at matapang na tinitigan siya.
"Nope. Excited," sagot ko.
Tumawa siya sa sagot ko bago siya bumangon at pumaibabaw sa akin.
He looked at me – his eyes burning with love and passion – for me. Just for me.
"God, you're damn beautiful, Myca," sabi niya habang pinapasadahan ako ng tingin bago marahang hinalikan ako.
The kiss was gentle at first hanggang sa lumalim iyon at naging mapusok. He was kissing every corner of my mouth, running his tongue over my teeth and sucking my own tongue over and over.
Napapikit ako nang bumaba yung halik niya sa leeg ko, dumidila, kumakagat, sumisipsip.
Ramdam ko ang paglalim ng hininga ko nang bumaba pa siya papunta sa dibdib ko. He licked the droplets of water on my body like they were there to give me more pleasure.
Napahawak ako sa buhok niya nang sapuin niya yung isang dibdib ko habang walang tigil na hinahalikan ang kabila.
"Uh-hm... M-mine..." anas ko at hindi mapigilang mapaungol. Hindi ako mapakali.
Pakiramdam ko nawawalan ako ng lakas pero ayaw ko namang huminto siya kasi sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam.
Tumaas muli ang mukha niya at masuyong hinalikan ako sa labi.
Bumilis ang lalo ang tibok ng puso ko nang maramdaman ko na marahan niyang tinanggal yung tali ng pang-ibaba ko.
Oh my God. Mami-meet na niya si Mikee!
Tumigil siya sandali sa paghalik sa akin at tiningnan ako.
Sobrang pungay na ng mata niya. Like he was drunk from desire.
"May I?" tanong niya na tinutukoy ay kung pwede na niyang tuluyang alisin iyon.
Marahang tumango ako.
In one swift move, he was able to get rid of the tiny piece of clothing left on my body.
I was as naked as him. At ni hindi ako makaramdam ng hiya dahil nakikita ko kung pano ako tingnan ni Vince - tinging puno ng paghanga, ng pagmamahal.
He was looking at me like I was a precious jewel.
I heard his low growl when he touched me there and felt how damp I was for him.
"Fuck, Mine. You're almost ready," bulong niya sa tenga ko bago ako muling hinalikan sa labi.
His kisses became more urgent, more demanding as his fingers started to touch me there mercilessly.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ko ibabaling yung ulo ko. I was gripping the sheets and my toes were curling as waves of pleasure overcame me.
Muling bumaba yung halik niya papunta sa tiyan ko at yung mga ungol ko kanina ay napalitan ng mahihinang tawa.
"Aha! So may kiliti ka rin dito huh, Mine?" nangingiting sabi niya bago hinalikan ako muli sa may pusod.
"May kiliti ka rin naman sa tagiliran ah? Kaya nga bagay tayo diba?" natatawang sabi ko.
Natigil ako sa pagtawa nang mula sa tiyan ay napunta sa loob ng mga hita ko ang mga halik niya.
"V-vince... please..."
Hindi ko alam kung para saan ang pagmamakaawa ko. Kung para ba huminto siya o para ba ituloy niya ang gusto niyang gawin.
His kisses went deeper and when his lips touched my lips down there, I was a goner.
Naramdaman ko kung pa'no manginig yung katawan ko dahil sa sarap na naranasan ko pero patuloy lang siya sa paghalik sa akin doon.
Hinawakan niya ang dalawang hita ko at inilagay 'yon sa magkabilang balikat niya. And in doing so, I became more exposed to him.
He kissed it the way he would kiss my lips – with fervor, with heat, with urgency.
And when I came the second time, he got up slowly at parang may kinukuha sa bedside table.
At nang makita ko kung ano yun, pinigilan ko yung kamay niya.
"I want to feel you inside me, Mine. Skin to skin. Nothing in between."
Binitawan niya yung hawak niya bago ako kinubabawan nang mabilis.
Hinawakan niya yung mukha ko at marahang hinaplos.
"Kahit wala pang nangyari sa atin ngayon, papakasalan kita. Mahal na mahal kita, Myca. Thank you for coming into my life," madamdaming sabi niya.
Kasabay ng paghalik niya sa akin ay ang marahang pagpasok niya sa kaibuturan ko.
Naramdaman ko ang mga luhang naglandas sa mukha ko.
Akala ni Vince, umiiyak ako dahil nasaktan ako sa pagpasok niya.
Pero mas masakit pa doon ang nararamdaman ko.
Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit habang gumagalaw siya sa itaas ko. Hindi ko na kailangang sabihing maging gentle siya because he was beyond gentle.
He kept on muttering sweet words in my ears to distract me from pain. If he only knew...
Knowing that this was the first and maybe the last time that I will experience how to be loved by him fully hurts beyond words could ever express.
I want to choose this man. I want to choose us. But fate had something else in mind.
"Masaya akong nakilala kita, Vince. Mahal na mahal kita," sabi ko at mariing hinalikan ko siya sa labi.
Gustong-gusto rin kitang pakasalan. Gustong-gusto kong maging Misis mo at magkaroon ng maliliit na Vince.
And as we reached our climax... I only had one thought in mind.
He took me to heaven, but I'll be giving him hell.