Bag Day- celebration of the day you were born, slang for birthday.
"You can't raise a man, He's already grown, what you gonna do? You wonder why he acts like a boy it's cause he wasn't raised right before you! Girl, you ain't never gonna change nobody if he don't wanna, you can't make nobody!! You can't raise a man, no, no!!!" I yelled at top of my lungs, singing in the mirror. Niggas ain't shit and that's just that on that! Nah I'm pissed at that bitch ass boy. He always doing stupid shit and think it's okay. He sitting right in the bedroom and I don't give a fuck. "I don't need a nigga for nothin'! Single and poppin' and a rich bitch stunnin'!" I walked out of the bathroom and down the hall.
My birthday in a couple minutes and I'm spending it being pissed off at him. I asked him what tomorrow was and he said he didn't know, while having his fatass head in his phone. That was a double hell naw. Matter fact. I walked into the room and he was still just scrolling away on his phone. "You can leave and lose my number. I don't even know why you still here. I hate bitch ass niggas." I shook my head, tightening my robe. He just ignored me and didn't bulge. Oh okay. I yanked the phone from his hand and threw it across the room. He looked up at me and didn't say anything. He wanna see Senia show her ass in this room and she don't mind doing that at all. You don't ever forget someone's birthday. Especially someone you 'care about.'
Like he was serious as a heart attack when he said he didn't know. I know everything about this man, down to his fucking social security number. 239-1- nevermind but you get the point. That's crazy. Single looking good tho. "You got five seconds to go pick my phone up." He rested his hand under his chin. "No, you don't tell me what to do and I'm not getting it. You get it and get out." "Man I don't even know what you mad about! You always fucking b- okay man I'm gone before I say some hurtful shit to your hoe ass." He stood up suddenly and walked out of the room. I put my hand on my chest and gasped. Hoe!? Little ole me? I got yo hoe. I heard the front door slam after a couple seconds and I frowned. I swear, he cut off forreal this time. I don't need him in my life anymore if he can't pay attention and cherish me like he should. It's plenty of men in this world that would treat me better than he has been lately.
I gave him my all...I changed my ways. That's why I never used to let my guard down because fuck shit like this always happen. OOOO I'm so pissed. I looked at the time. 11:59PM. I don't even wanna do shit no more. I sat down on the floor and put my head in my hands, getting teary eyed. I just wish god would let me be happy for once in my life.
I miss my mom.....
I wish she was here to celebrate with me man..I wish heaven had visiting hours...I don't have a genie so I don't know why I keep wishin. My phone dinged and I just ignored it. Then it dinged again. Who the fuck. I sniffed and reached over.
James
Happy birthday even though you ghosted me. I hope you have a good day and turn up lol.
EVEN FIVE SECOND MAN REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY!! Chris is done. Over with.
James
Ft me right quick.
Then the phone started ringing. I just stared at it for a couple second. Yes?...No..Yess.......Alright. I pressed the green and held the phone towards the ceiling. "I didn't get to text you back but thanks..." I made sure I cleared. "No problem. Let me see yo twenty four year old face!" He laughed. I couldn't help but smile and slowly put my face into the camera. I could see his face and he was laying down. "It look good on you youngin'. Just wait until you get my age, you won't even realize that shit." He chuckled. "You not even that much older, shut up."
"Who you talking too?" Chris said, scaring the hell out of me. When the fuc- He was holding onto a bouquet of flowers that spelled out my name with two gift bags full of stuff. My mouth dropped and I started getting emotional. Wait oh shit! "Uh I'll call you back." I hung up the phone and dropped it, jumping up. "Nah man who the fuck was that nigga? I'll drop all this shit right now if you don't tell me and tell me fast." "A friend just wishing me happy birthday. What's the big deal?" I frowned. "Cause you don't have any friends that I know of." "He's a friend from class. Are you done bitching so that I can apologize." He just stayed quiet and gave me a 'yeah right' expression. "I'm sorry for blowing up like that, I just thought you genuinely forgot about me and my birthday.." I looked away, slightly embarrassed.
I'm always making an ass of myself when I'm mad. I need to grow up sometimes...a lot of the times. "Senia I don't know where you keep pulling that shit from but I don't like it, look-" He walked fully into the room and sat the bags on the bed and held the flowers in his hand still. "I fucking love you. I fucking adore you. I may not show it sometimes but don't ever in your mind doubt my love for you. I love you to the moon and back baby." He leaned down and planted a light peck on my lips. I smiled and blushed, looking up at him. "I love you more Chris. Can you marry me already, geez." I joked, laughing. At least halfway joking. "Yeah Baby. Give us some more time. I'll marry you so I can put some babies in them guts. Now look at the stuff I got you." He smiled cocky like and held the flower out towards me. I rolled my eyes and took the flowers, sniffing them.
Why do I trip so much? I don't understand humans as an whole. We could given the world right in front of us and we still have either something negative to say or something to complain about. I just wish I knew how to control my emotions and chill out sometimes. I'm such a hot head. That's my next goal, work on acting my fucking age.
Both of the gift bags consisted of some of my favorite things like socks, sport head bands, a pair of gym shoes I've been dying to have, and some other little things. The more expensive things like a pair of earrings, a necklace with the letters "C" on it (he's so corny), and my favorite perfume by Christian Dior. It's the only perfume I'll ever use in my life. My favorite gift out of all of them though was a brand new skate board! Call me weird, fuck you, but I absolutely love busting my ass on skateboards. I don't really know how to ride them but the shit is fun.
After I seen everything, I thanked him with a warming hug and a passionate kiss. Only he can make my day better...and worst at times but whatever. "It's my job to keep a smile on your face. Which brings me to your last present." He reached in his back pocket and pulled out a small red box.
He better not.
He better fucking not!!!!!!!!!
I'll cry right now.
I took a couple steps away from him as he held the box out in front of me and cleared his throat. "Look." He slowly opened the box and it held two necklaces with a lockets on them. He pulled the first one out and sat the box down, opening the locker afterwards. It was my all time favorite picture of me and him.
In the picture we were on like our third date. We were outside of Texas Roadhouse. I was holding onto his face while kissing his ear and he was smiling. The picture showed exactly how our relationship was going at the time. We were genuinely happy even tho we wasn't together at the time. It was about spending time with each other and taking the time to know one another before putting a title on something..
"This your favorite picture of us so I decided to frame it. This is my unique way of giving you a promise. Instead of it being a ring, it's a locket that you should never take off unless extreme measures. So if we ever get into it, this better not come off of your neck at all." I held my hair while he explained and put it on me. A tear dropped from my eye while smiling because this is really thoughtful. "Thank you baby...I promise I won't." I held my pinky out. He came back in front of me and hooked pinky's, chuckling. "Now this one." He picked the necklace out of the box and opened the locket.
My hand immediately went to my mouth and my eyes started streaming.
The last picture me and my mother took together....selfie style with the both of us smiling and my arm was around her shoulder.
"This should never come off your neck either. I'm sad I didn't get to fully meet her like I should've before her passing but I know she did everything she could in her power to help you become the beautiful woman you are today. Without her, you wouldn't be in my presence and be my girlfriend. So I appreciate her." I just lost it. I fell down on the floor and bawled like a baby.
This was a thoughtful gift and I appreciate it oh so much. He bent down and rubbed my back, kissing my hair. "I love you." He wrapped his arm around me. I just cried. I miss her so much, I'm close to going crazy if I don't get to visit her soon. But that won't happen....I need to get my shit together. I sniffed multiple times while wiping my face. Happy thoughts only. Happy thoughts.
"I really love the thought and effort you made for this gift....both lockets mean the world to me and I swear they'll never come off of me. Give me a kiss." I grabbed his face and pecked his lips multiple times, smiling. He pulled both of us off the floor and started putting my things back into the bags. "Now that we got that out the way, it's time do something to lighten this sad ass mood."
And I know exactly what that is.
"I'll be back." He walked out of the room and closed the door behind him. I took this as an opportunity to go get myself all dolled up. I brought a lingerie set awhile ago that I haven't wore and tonight is the night. It's a neon green color that pairs well with my skin tone. A see through bra and underwear that went to the middle of my mid area. I left my hair down and framed it more to my face so I could have a more sexy look. If I don't say so myself, I think I look pretty fuckable. If I wasn't me I would definitely bend this over.
A couple knocks on the bathroom brought me out of my thoughts. "Senia what you doing?" "Give me a second." I made sure everything was in place. Hair, check. Moisturized, check. Smell good, duh. Ugh my eyes are puffy. Whatever. I opened the bathroom door and slowly walked out, trying not to laugh. I'm too goofy for this. He was sitting on the bed, let's take a smart guess. He looked up but back down then back up. "Damn..you..I..turn around." He put it down next to him and licked his lips. I smirked and turned around, putting my hand on hip and looking back at him. "That's all my work. Come closer." I was pulled backwards and my ass was literally in his face. "Nooo I been had this before you so don't cap. ALL ME BABY!" I smacked my own ass and started whining my hips. "Yeah, Okay." I felt another smack before I was pulled down in his lap. I chuckled and looked back at him. "Look what I got." He pulled something from behind him and then put it in front of me. It was a fifth of black hennessy and my eyes lit up.
After the first couple shots, I started feeling myself. Everything became blurry and I only remember certain parts. From the bed to the floor to the bathroom and back to the bed while music was blasting throughout the whole house. My senses enhanced times 20 and my stamina increased to its max high. I felt like a fucking rabbit.
One hell of a night is what it was and I must say, if I wasn't pregnant forreal last time, I most definitely am now.
Nah I'm kiddin...at least I think.