Bent- dishonest; corrupt behavior.
From Senia's POV
He tossed me into my wheelchair and grabbed phone and keys. "I'm leaving and don't fucking worry about where I'm going neither." He stormed out of the room. I silently started to sob while fixing myself in my chair. He hurt me physically and emotionally.
I can admit, today I have been a bitch due to my cycle. It's not his fault and I shouldn't have taken my anger out on him. It's just be didn't come home last night and that made me fucking sad! He didn't even keep in touch with me to let me know he was alright which pissed me off. Made me think he was out doing some shit he wasn't supposed to be doing. But I know he would never do anything like that. I need to relax and stop putting pressure on him or else I'll run him off. Ugh I'm so stupid! I rolled myself over to the full body mirror we have and looked at my arms and torso area. I have a couple bruises near my forearms and one on my rib cage. I'm always bringing negative shit to myself. I'm ready to go to bed.
I put myself into the bed and curled up right under the covers. I don't know who I'm kidding, I'm not about to sleep until he's next to me. I need to fix this....
"This is Christopher Brown and ill return your call if you leave a detailed voicemail. Bless up." The line beeped. I hung up the phone for the tenth time and redialed again. He got me fucked up and I'll light this motherfuckin house on fire so he don't have no where to come back too. He blowing it big time. "Chris this the last voicemail I'm leaving before I blow this fucking house up! You playing these dumbass games like you don't know who I am! You better be in my face in the next twenty minutes or it's straight static from there, period." I hung the phone up and tossed my phone across the bed. My blood pressure doesn't need to be this high. I better calm down before I have a heart attack. I took a couple deep breathes and closed my eyes, speaking with myself. A couple minutes passed and I heard the front door open. My eyes shot right open and I started at the bedroom door. He better have tears running down his face or something.
Senia, nothing is going to get fixed if you're acting like a psychotic bitch. Calm down and do it now. The door slowly creaked open and his head appeared from behind it. I just stared at him. "...I'm glad the house is still up." He laughed nervously. I blinked a couple times before sitting up in my spot and crossing my arms. "Where you go and why wasn't you answering the phone?" He opened the door completely and walked inside, looking at me with a nervous look. Yeah he better be scared. "I went around the corner to clear my head...I'm sorry for putting my hands on you. I need to learn down to control my anger more because you don't deserve none of this." He walked over to the bed and sat next to me, turning my direction. I looked away from him and down at the sheets, starting to mess with the back of my shirt. I'm such a bitch.
"No I did deserve it. I've been a bitch all day and I know I've been pushing your buttons. On top of that, I put my hands on you first so I asked for it. I wish I could make it up too you." I sighed and looked over at my legs. I can't ride no dick like this! I be needing so bad too. Lord, why my legs? Why!? "No it's okay. I know what your going through isn't easy and you don't know how to cope with your emotions sometimes. Just give me a kiss and I'll accept your apology." He started cheesing hard and moving closer to me. I playfully rolled my eyes while laughing and leaning in towards him. He puckered his lips and I gave them a bunch of pecks. I love this man so much. Now that I know he safe, I can go to bed. I have therapy tomorrow and I'm already exhausted from today's session.
"Come lay with me." I moved the covers back and got under them. He got up and turned the light off behind stripping down to his underwear. He made a couple groaning noises like something was hurting but I didn't ask. "Damn back." He mumbled under his breath and I felt the bed sink next me. I can only sleep in his arms or with him next to me. Other than that I'll be laying here like a crackhead. "I love you." He whispered and I felt his lips against my forehead. "I love you more." I closed my eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep.
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"Good morning Doc." I gave a small smile as we entered the therapy room. "Good morning beautiful. Good morning Chris. Ready for today's session?" She stood from her seat and approached us. I nodded and let out a deep sigh. I'm tired and I don't feel like doing this. My head is hurting and my arms are sore. I watched as Doc went into a closet and pulled out a portable balancing beam and a pair of gloves. Out the corner of my eyes, I seen Chris walk to his usual spot but his eyes were focused on the ground while Jenna's eyes were on him. What she looking at him for? "Good morning Chris. Hi Senia." She smirked as she walked towards me and leaned down, giving me a kiss on the cheek. "Morning." I looked at her funny as she stood back up straight and kept a smile on her face. "You look nice today. Glowing actually." I studied her face and she really did have a glow. She's a really beautiful girl like Jesus. "Thanks, you know that vitamin D something serious." We both busted out laughing. Doc just looked at us, shaking her head and Chris was staring out the window. I wonder what's wrong with him. "Settle down girls. It time to get to work!" She clapped her hands together. Oh lord.
"I'm not going back Chris." I slide down in the passenger seat and pulled my hair in front of my face. "You are. You're working closer to your goal. So shut up." I sucked my teeth and mocked him quietly. She absolutely kicked my ass today and I'm over it. I had to balance myself up on the balance beam and stand for 5 minutes in each position she demonstrated. It was pretty fucking tough but I managed to get through it. But whole time, Chris was acting all disconnected and I wanna know what's up with that. "Yo, what's wrong with you baby?" I turned my head in his direction and waited for his answer. "Nothing baby. Just a little tired that's all." He looked over at me and gave me a small smile. I twisted my lips up at him and tilted my head. "Mhm. Let me find out something else wrong." I sat up in my seat and went into my bag, searching for my lip gloss.
Nothing is never in the place I put it I swear. My lips dry as hell too. Nope..Nope...Aha here we go. I applied a couple coats to my lips before tossing it back inside and resting against the seat. He turned onto his street and we pulled up in front of his house. Once he cut the car off, I unbuckled my seat belt and turned myself so that I was facing his direction. He looked over at me with a confused face. "Chris, I know when you're not right. What is it? Is it about me being a bitch yesterday? Is it because we can't have sex?" I raised my eyebrows. He looked away for a split second before looking back at me. "No no no. I'm not worried about no sex or anything like that. I'm just tired and stressed over some business stuff. It's not you, I promise." He reached over and grabbed my hand. "I know you lying about the sex part cause I want some but okay. Whateverrrr you say." I leaned closer to him and pressed my lips against his, giving him a nice, slow kiss, sloppy kiss. He matched my pace and movements as the air started to become thinner and thinner and my hormones skyrocketed. I pulled away from him and kept my eyes closed, taking a deep breathe so I can calm myself down. But then I felt a hand wrap around my throat his grip tighten so that I could still breath but I feel that shit. "Who said I didn't want no more kisses?" He whispered in his aggressive, raspy tone. Panties probably looking like the ocean right now. "Baby stooop teasing me." I whined in my bratty voice and put my hand on his wrist. He moved his hand and chuckled before give my lips a couple more pecks before sitting back. "You know we can't fuck and you touching all on me like that dang." I sat back in my seat and dusted myself off. "You can surely still get this dick. Crippled and all baby, crippled and all." He looked over at me and winked, flashing a smile. I don't know if I should smack him or take him up on the offer. "Boy help me out the car so I can go to sleep." I opened the passenger door and grabbed my phone and purse.
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"This bitch still ain't dead!?" Echoed through my head a million times as I made my way through what seems to be a forest. How did I get here? Hey! I'm walking! But wait....where's my feet? How am I walking without feet!? "Shut up!" Something flew into my face and knocked me out.
I woke up in a small room with 4 walls and no windows. It felt like I was suffocating because of how hot the air was. The sweat rolling down my body made my skin crawl. I tried moving my hands up to my face but they were chained behind my back. Where am I?
"Ahhh I see you've made it thus far." A deep voice spoke from behind me. "Who are you and where am I?" I spoke in my panicked tone. "I'm here to tell you that you are about to be faced with some challenges and it is entirely up to you to decide your fate. I want you to know to walk by fate, not by sight. Don't make decisions with your mind, make them with your heart. Not everyone is capable of receiving second chances at small things or even life. You better make the most of it and choose wisely, or else you'll live with the decision you make for the rest of your life." The room then blew up in white smoke and then fire appeared.
"Senia!!! Calm down!" A tight hold was being held on me. I started panting hard and gasping for air. Sweat rolled down my back and the room was pitch black. What did that dream mean? What challenges? I'm confused..I'm scared...Am I going to hell? Oh my god oh my god! "I n-need to shower." My voice shook as I tried to pry myself out of his grip but it didn't work. "You need to calm down before anything. Tell me what happened." He rubbed my back slowly and laid his head on top of mine. I swallowed hard and put my hands together, slightly shaking still. "It was dark a-and some man was talking....he told me I will have some challenges and I need to choose wisely..I don't know what it means..then flames and smoke and everything." I shook my head fast and buried my face in his shoulder.
When I was young, I used to have extremely horrible nightmare disorder. It's basically when you have really vivid nightmares back to back in one nights sleep. My mom would always hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay...I really hope that's not what this is. "Don't worry about that..just relax." He laid back and pulled the covers over us, not letting me go.
A couple more seconds and I could've known.