Y/N POV.
One Week Later.....
One week. Its been one week that I kept myself locked up in my house avoiding the world and people in general. I just had to leave London. I couldn't be there anymore and I sure as hell couldn't see her anymore.
It hurt to much.
I turned off my phone and left it somewhere in my room while I watched sad movies, listened to sad music, wrote some depressing music and ate food. I knew I looked like absolute crap but I didn't care. I honestly had no reason to care anymore.
I know everyone is probably thinking that I'm being a little dramatic, but how would you feel after the one person you cared about chose someone else over you? It would sting like a bitch and everyone knows it would.
She started hanging out with him again and I knew that I probably had million of messages from her, the girls and the guys, but I didn't want to turn on my phone and face all those headlines. I didn't have it in me to see her happy while I sat in my house depressed and eating my feeling away.
My thoughts were cut off by someone knocking on the door making me ignore it and sit in the same position and turn the music louder. I heard the door open and close making me me groan and turn down the music down a little.
Y/n:"I told everyone to leave me alone! What the fuck is so hard to understand about that?!"I asked annoyed making a certain blonde with Hazel eyes stand in front me.
Hailey:"Y/n"Her features softened once she looked at me making me roll my eyes and sit up a little while I changed the song.
Y/n:"I see the pity in your face....stop looking at me like I'm broken. I know I am, but try not to make me so damn aware of it"I said rather annoyed making her take the remote from me and turn the music off"Hailey"I said looking at her making her look back at me with the same expression.
Hailey:"Sit and shut up"She said throwing the remote at me. I sat there and sighed throwing my head back as she opened the curtains and windows making me groan and cover my eyes"This place smells and feels like death"She said making me groan even more.
Y/n:"No shit Sherlock, It was intended to feel and smell like that"I said making her walk in front of me and stand there with crossed arms.
Hailey:"Whats going on with you?"She asked making me sit forward and smile at her.
Y/n:"You look rather pissed off today....did I mention that pissed off looks good on you?"I questioned making her sigh.
Hailey:"You missed meetings, you missed photoshoots and you haven't talked to anyone since London. You haven't even been seen from your last concert....everyone thinks that you're dead"She said making me wake up and walk to the kitchen pouring myself a drink.
Y/n:"I thought I was to, but here I am....living, breathing....its all so unnecessary"I said making her pull the glass from my lips and throw in down the sink"That was expensive"I said looking at the blonde making her roll her eyes.
Hailey:"You never answer my question"She said making me sigh.
Y/n:"How do you expect me to be Hailey? I'm sad, depressed, hurt, broken, lost, confused. I am everything you could describe in the book that can remotely relate to sadness"I said looking at her making her frown"But other then the fact that the move of my life is with someone else I'm walking on sunshine, I'm seeing the world in rainbows and praying for world peace"I said walking away from her.
Hailey:"You do know you don't have to pretend with me right?"She said making me let out a bitter laugh.
Y/n:"Dont we all pretend though? We live in a world where all we do is pretend....we pretend to be happy and we pretend that it doesn't hurt. We pretend that it doesn't fucking kill you, but in reality it does. It kills you and you wait....you wait for it to stop hurting but it doesn't! It doesn't stop hurting because it always going to hurt, no matter what!"I said as my eyes got glassy"I can't pretend Hailey because it hurts, its hurts so much and I don't know what to do about it"I said making her walk over to me and pull me into a hug"I-I cant-"
Hailey:"I know, its okay...I'm here"She said making me hug her back just as tight"Its okay"She said kissing the side of my head and sighing"Its going to be okay"She mumbled making me hold her tighter and hold in my tears.
Y/n:"I'm sorry I snapped at you and acted rude"I mumbled making her pull away and cup my face sending me a small smile.
Hailey:"Its okay, why dont you go clean up and stuff"She said suggested while she looked around"I'll clean up and make you something to eat"She said making me nod.
I walked upstairs to my room that looked liked a mess making me sigh. I had a shower and walked out to see it clean and clothes laid out in the bed making me put it on and walk downstairs to see the house spotless. I walked towards the kitchen and saw her cooking making me take a seat in the stool.
Y/n:"Thank you for cleaning up my mess and cooking"I mumbled playing with my fingers avoiding eye contact. She walked up to me and picked my face up sighing.
Hailey:"Its okay, have you been eating take out for a week?"She asked making me nod.
Y/n:"I didn't really want to go out or have anyone come over....so I got take out and made my life easier, but I'm guessing that, that wasn't the best call"I said making her frown.
Hailey:"We all gave you your space Y/n and I understand that this is hard, but this isn't you"She said making me put my face in my hands and groan.
Y/n:"I know, I know it isn't but I can't deal Hailey. Its like my brain is on complete shut down mode....I feel like the world is to much for me right now"I said making her sigh.
Hailey:"You think that, but it isn't"She said sending me a reassuring smile making me huff.
She dished out for me and placed a bowl in front of me while she sat next to me and started eating.
Hailey:"I made your favourite so eat up....you need actual food"She said making me grab my fork and start eating. Actual food tasted so good right now and I loved it. I finished it and sat there quietly while Hailey cleaned up the dishes.
Y/n:"Did I miss anything?"I asked making her face me and shake her head.
Hailey:"Not really, everyone's worried about you...including your fans"She said making me groan"You've skipped shows, meet and greets and people are asking questions and your family are losing their minds"She said making me bite my lip"And sending a text saying 'I'm fine, just give me space' isn't really assuring"She said.
Y/n:"I know"I said not really knowing what to say. She walked over to me and handed me some papers.
Hailey:"I found these on floor....new music?"She asked making me look at the lyrics and sigh.
Y/n:"Yeah"I said looking at her"Do you think you can call the guys over?"I asked making her nod and smile.
Hailey:"Of course! I'll calk them over and give you all your space-"
Y/n:"No! You stay"I said making her look at me"Don't leave me"I said making her nod.
Hailey:"Okay, I'll call them and in the mean time you can tell me about your music"She said making me nod.
She called the guys and then we made our way to my studio and started talking. She asked me certain questions about how I've been holding up etc, but changed the subject after a few minutes. We talked until the guys came over making them pull me into a group hug.
Y/n:"Okay guys, I missed you to"I said patting their backs a little as they let go.
Kyle:"You fucking gave us heart attacks"He said making me shrug.
Y/n:"I'm sorry, but I did tell y'all to give me space"I said making them nod"Can we please not talk about depressing factors in my life and talk about the one thing that makes life worth living for me?"I asked making them nod.
Zayn:"I agree, what do you have?"He asked making me send him a grateful smile.
Y/n:"Well, since I've been stuck in this house for a week, I decided to be productive. I wrote pages and pages of music"I said handing them the pages"And I wanted to make it come to life...and the only people I can trust with doing that is y'all and Kanye"I said making them nod.
Taco:"Okay, but where's Kanye?"He asked and as soon as he said that Kanye walked in.
Y/n:"Speck of the devil"I said laughing a little. He pulled me into a hug and sighed.
Kanye:"How you holding up?"He asked making me shrug.
Y/n:"Like crap, but lets not focus on that! Lets focus on some music....that always makes me happy"I said making them nod"Oh and Hailey will be approving everything"I said making her look at me wide eyed.
Hailey:"Huh? I dont even know what to do or how to approve it"She said making us all laugh.
Travis:"Relax Hails, all you have to do is listen to the song and tell us what you think and if you feel that it needs changes"He said making her look at me.
Hailey:"Once again, I don't know anything"She said taking a seat on the chair next to Zayn while I leaned against the wall.
Y/n:"Once again, you don't have to...its simple so just relax"I said making her nod.
Kanye:"Oh and Y/n, are we going to talk about your dates for the-"
Y/n:"Not right now"I said quickly cutting him off"We can discuss that later...but for now lets just focus on this"I said making everyone eye me but agree.
We spent the entire day coming up with beats, sorting out the lyrics and recording the songs and it was going well. I talked to Kris and asked if she could somehow save all the things I missed and she said she could which was a good thing.
I had a interview with Ellen tomorrow and then I had a concert that Zayn was doing so I could hopefully redeem myself and make it up to the fans.
Kyle:"All this stuff is pretty deep"He said making me shrug as we listened to the songs.
Y/n:"It is, but since its approved I think its okay"I said making them nod.
Kanye:"Release dates?"He asked making me show him my phone.
Y/n:"I already talked to management and they love it since I've been dead recently so they think that this would be good along with the other things I have planned. They already started promoting it"I said making everyone pull out their phones.
Taco:"No shit, you're releasing three songs! Are you sure?"He asked making me nod.
Y/n:"I am, its time that I focus on myself and my career a little more along with my friends and family"I said making them eye me but nod.
Hailey:"Well, good luck with that because people are already losing their shit"She said making me laugh a little.
Y/n:"Anyways....wanna go out for dinner? My treat"I said making them all agree"You can invite the others....I don't mind. It can be a family thing"I said.
Travis:"Okay, I'm sure everyone will be happy about that"
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