"What's are you doing here ?,"My manger says .
"To see Jungkook ,"She replied .
"You can't see Jungkook ,"My manger tells her .
"Why , I'm only a friend ,"She says .
"Friend or not you should stay away from Jungkook I know you like him and he likes you he signed a contract and is leaving after he gets out of here anyways so it best of you just leave now,"He tells her .
She looks up at me with sadness in her eye . As my stupid mouth stayed shut .
"Sorry,"She bows kill my soul .
The door shuts and Jimin and Taehyung stare over at me .
I threw away my food and sat there silently . A period of time went by and Taehyung , Jimin and my manager left .
"Ill be back tomorrow ,"My manager says .
They walk out together and the light turns off as visting hours where coming to an end . I went on my phone laying down and texting halla .
Me ~ I miss you
Halla ~ Me too
I hear the door open again and I look over seeing a nurse . I sigh and looked at my phone again .
Me ~ Are you gonna visit me ?
Halla ~ I cant with you manager around
Me ~ Ill make him leave somehow okay ?
Halla ~ Okay
Me ~ Goodnight
Halla ~ Goodnight
I turned my phone off and closed my eyes . I tried to sleep , but my eyes couldnt stay shut . I glared at a wall until my weary eyes fell shut and I drifted into a dream , one I never wanted to leave . Where it was just me and Halla , and no one else but us .
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When I woke up I looked around and saw my manager sleeping in a chair . I closed my eyes again and just went back to sleep . When I opened my eyes again he was gone . I got up yawning . I opened my room door and two men stood there .
"We cant allow you to leave unless under doctors orders ,"One of them say .
I close the door and walk back into my room . I sat there rubbing my eye , I looked out my window seeing gray skies . Day by day goes by as I haven't texted halla one time. I pick up my phone weakly , and dial halla number . I hear her voice echo through the phone as she say my name and I don't say word . Rain from my eyes fell onto my phone as I end the call and laid back down . A slap of reality and all of hallas words hit me hard . In order to succeeded I have to let go . In order for me to keep halla , I must let go .
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After the day they operated on me , I was moved into a shared room with a young boy . There mother was with him alseep by his side . I had a day left in the hospital the day after I left here to hongkong . I knew I need a way to see halla , I needed some way .
Later that night I herd crying , coming from the side of me . I got out of bed and saw the little boy crying and holding his knees .
"Hey whats wrong,"I ask him ,
"My .. Omma ...* cries* is gone,"He cried .
"I bet she'll be back tomrow ,"I say .
"No , shes gone forever , they took her away from me ,"He sniffled .
"Who did,"I ask .
"The police,"He cried harder . "Its not her fault it mine , it my fault that i'm alive , omma i'm sorry."He keeps crying . I give him a hug and he cries onto my shoulder for a while . A flash back of the same women I saw not to long ago played in my head .
"Its gonna be okay , don't worry and just sleep ,"I tell the boy .
He lays down and closes his eyes . I watch him until he falls asleep .
I go and lay down in my bed and tried to sleep too , but his words stuck in my head .
Halla pov ~
After that day I left the hospital , and jungkook texted me about finding a way to see him . I haven't herd anything for 4 days straight . I know yesterday was his surgery and today is his last day in the hospital . After that he leaves to Hong Kong . After Yujins vocal cords need to recover The Arks been taking a small break . I went out and started to work , and look at collages to apply for . My life took one big roller coast ride and right know I've gotten to a flat part .
I gave an ice coffee to the women and want back over to my phone and checked my messages . I still haven't gotten anything . I turned my phone off and put it in my bag and started to work . After work I went and cough a bus . I turned my phone back on and it was 8:45 pm . I saw two text messages from jungkook . I quickly read them .
Jungkook ~ Sorry for not contacting you (sent at 6:15 )
Jungkook ~ But can you come see me I miss you ( sent at 6:16)
I quickly got off the bus and got onto a taxi over to the hospital . I looked at phone seeing visiting hours where gonna end soon . There was a crash which slowed me down by 10 minutes making my time even shorter . I held my phone tightly and keep looking at the time as we got closer and closer . I was there and quickly got out of the car running into the hosptial . I run over to the desk.
"Can I still see Jeon Jung Kook ?,"I ask.
"Im sorry , but visting hours end in 5 minutes ,"They tell me .
"Please can I just see him for those 5 minutes ,"I bag .
"Um I guess as long you check out on time,"She tells me .
I sign my name and the time and go and find his room . I kept wondering around lost and wasting my time .By the time I got to his room I had a minute left . I walked inside and there he sat . We made eye contact , as it was 9:15 and visiting hours where over . I quickly ran over to him and hugged him . He looks at me and kisses me until the door opens . I stood there and saw his manager walk over . I left the room and started to walk back . The few minutes I saw him no words came out of mouth , but rather actions . I signed out and left the hospital as rain started to come down . Rain , sweet cold clear rain , that poured against my skin . I walked and walked until I couldn't walk any more . As I waited for a bus tears fell rapidly out of my eyes , as I started to cry loud with no one around .
The bus came and I got up getting on all wet and cold . I sat down shivering and cold .Was that really are goodbye . I closed my eyes until i got off the bus walking back to my dorm room . I went and took and hot shower . When I came out I laid in my bed staring at my phone . I reread the messages jungkook sent me . If only .. I dint turn my phone off if only I waited a little longer , if only . The game of what if played in my head as I drifted to sleep .
Jungkooks POV ~
My manager walk outside again , and I drop my phone and it slides over across . I was about to grab it when I see that little boy come over and give it to me .
"Are you okay,"The little boy asks me .
"Yeah ,"I lie to him
"Mr I told you about my mom why cant you tell me whats wrong ?,"He says .
I smile at him and take a deep breath .
"I cant see someone I love for a really long time,"I tell the boy.
"Was it the pretty girl that you kissed earlier,"He says .
I nodded my head yes .
"My mom told me before she left that love always finds its way , no matter how long it my take it will always,"He tells me . I smile at him and he smiles in return .
Halla pov ~
When I woke up breathing hard my phone still in my hand I looked at the time . I was to late , he was .. gone.
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A-N ~ T^T i'm crying anyone else ?
Well thanks for reading this sad chapter
until next time
"See yah ,"
~ Moon