Don't Leave Me Behind || Namj...

By HavinAFullOnGayPanic

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Seokjin's sudden death from a road accident was something nobody could get over. "He is dead. He isn't coming... More

Prologue. Supposed To
Intro. Warnings+ Aesthetics
Chapter One. White Lies
Chapter Two. Don't Leave Me
Chapter Three. Part One. Film Out
Chapter Three. Part Two. Falling Apart
Chapter Four. Smooth Like Butter
Chapter Five. Unpredictable Fate
Chapter Six. Your Everything
Chapter Seven. Sacrificing Love
Chapter Eight. Serendipity
Chapter Nine. Safe With You
Chapter Ten. Life Goes On
Chapter Eleven. Stuck With You
Chapter Twelve. The Baby Clothes
Chapter Thirteen. Spring Day
Chapter Fourteen. Things I Do For You
Chapter Fifteen. A Shoulder To Lean On
Chapter Sixteen. RM
Chapter Seventeen. Euphoria
Chapter Eighteen. Fear Of Rejection
Chapter Nineteen. I'm Sorry
Chapter Twenty. Unchanged Words
Chapter Twenty-One. Warmth
Chapter Twenty-Two. Your Beautiful Heart
Chapter Twenty-Three. You Never Walk Alone
Chapter Twenty- Four. My Angel
Chapter Twenty- Five. Lost In You
Chapter Twenty- Six. My Stalker
Chapter Twenty- Seven. When I'm With You
Chapter Twenty- Eight. Can't Be Angry With You
Chapter Twenty-Nine. Namjoon Or RM
Chapter Thirty. I'd Rather Suffer With You
Chapter Thirty- Two. Irresistible Temptation
Chapter Thirty- Three. While These Moments Last
Chapter Thirty- Four. You And Me
Chapter Thirty- Five. The Love Triangle
Chapter Thirty- Six. Can't Hold Back Any Longer
Chapter Thirty- Seven. Your Lips On Mine
Chapter Thirty- Eight. Your Embrace
Chapter Thirty- Nine. Heartbreak
Chapter Forty. One-Sided Love
Chapter Forty- One. Feeling Your Pain
Chapter Forty- Two. Just Between Us
Chapter Forty- Three. I'll Still Hold You Tight
Chapter Forty- Four. Every Moment Together
Chapter Forty- Five. I'm Water To Your Fire
Chapter Forty- Six. Your Existence Is My Best Gift
Chapter Forty- Seven. I Trust You
Chapter Forty- Eight. Sinful Innocence
Chapter Forty- Nine. I'll Hold On
Chapter Fifty. Blood, Sweat And Tears
Chapter Fifty- One. Stay Alive
Chapter Fifty- Two. Hope
Chapter Fifty- Three. I'll Be Waiting For You
Chapter Fifty- Four. I Can't Lose You Again
Chapter Fifty- Five. Their Hyung
Chapter Fifty- Six. When The World Fell Apart
Chapter Fifty- Seven. You're My Everything
Chapter Fifty- Eight. Beautiful
Chapter Fifty- Nine. Moving On From The Past
Chapter Sixty. Craving Your Touch
Chapter Sixty- One. I've Lost You Forever
Chapter Sixty- Two. My Home
Chapter Sixty- Three. You're The One Who Left Me
Chapter Sixty- Four. Pain And Love
Chapter Sixty- Five. I'm Nothing Without You [M]
Chapter Sixty- Six. Just For You, I Can
Chapter Sixty- Seven. Don't You Love Me Anymore?
Chapter Sixty- Eight. Lonely
Chapter Sixty- Nine. Still So Vivid
Chapter Seventy. I Can Never Really Forget You
Chapter Seventy- One. Another Night Without You
Chapter Seventy- Two. Winter's Nearing End
Chapter Seventy- Three. Three Hearts Entwined
Chapter Seventy- Four. When We Fell Apart Again
Chapter Seventy- Five. The Truth Untold
Chapter Seventy- Six. Lights
Chapter Seventy- Seven. My Only Cure
Chapter Seventy- Eight. Just Your Imagination
Chapter Seventy- Nine. The Last Time I'll Go Away
Chapter Eighty. Gray Clouds And Indigo Skies
Chapter Eighty- One. I'll Never Leave You Behind
Epilogue. Part One. Growing Old Together
Epilogue. Part Two. Our Undefeated Love
Special Chapter. The Moon Pendant

Chapter Thirty- One. Loving Your Flaws

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By HavinAFullOnGayPanic

Warnings: Swearing, etc.

IMPORTANT⚠
Group members: Old uncle Yoongles 🙀, Baby bro 🐻, Bro-in-law 💪, Jamless kid ☺, Sunshine hyung 🌄

[A/N: these are what Namjoon had saved the boys' numbers as in his contacts]

Sexy brain 🔥
Guys...
Sorry if I interrupted ur date but Jin's at my place rn
That bastard beat him up again

Old uncle Yoongles 🙀
WHAT

Jamless kid ☺
No :(
He doesn't deserve this

Baby bro 🐻
Poor hyung
Is he okay?

Bro-in-law 💪
Wtf is wrong with that man??!!
Who tf treats their own son like this?!

Sunshine hyung 🌄
if Joon never told us we'd have never known this

Sexy brain 🔥
That's not the point rn
I asked him to move in w/ me but he's hesitant

Baby bro 🐻
Awww that's so sweet

Old uncle Yoongles 🙀
Yeah it'd be great if he stays w/ us

Sexy brain 🔥
But he doesn't want to
Yet

Bro-in-law 💪
He should tho
For his own safety

Jamless kid ☺
Yeah
His so called father's beatings will get out of hand one day
And... I can't lose hyung
Ever

Sunshine hyung 🌄
He's so hard-working and selfless
We should at least keep him safe and take care of him when he needs help
He won't ever ask so we need to take the matter in our own hands

Sexy brain 🔥
He wanted some time
That's fine but...
He's so sad and I can't see him like this

Sunshine hyung 🌄
Take him out somewhere

Sexy brain 🔥
Like a datee?!?!?!?! 😶

Sunshine hyung 🌄
That's upto u 2 ig...

Jamless kid ☺
You should take him shopping!
He absolutely loves shopping tho he doesn't get much of a chance...

Bro-in-law 💪
And he likes food so...

Baby bro 🐻
So we're planning a date 4 jin and joon hyung too? Aww

Old uncle Yoongles 🙀
They could join us and it'd be a triple date...

Sunshine hyung 🌄
While my single ass will just chill at home eating Doritos and watching Netflix 😔

Jamless kid ☺
Awww dont fret Hobi hyung
We're gonna go on a special hang-out with u someday

Sunshine hyung 🌄
You're too sweet Minnie 😢💜

Sexy brain 🔥
I'll get goin then
I'll be busy so don't bother calling 😉

Old uncle Yoongles 🙀
Ewwww

Jamless kid ☺
Istg if u touch my hyung you- 😠

Sexy brain 🔥
I can't promise anything bye 😚

You're offline

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"Prince~ wake up~" Namjoon sang, sitting on the floor in front of Jin's sleeping figure, arms crossed on the bed as he rested his chin on top, watching the older.

Jin didn't budge, his eyes closed and lips parted as he snored quietly, lying on his stomach and his back moving up and down with every soft breath he took. His arms were on both sides of his head, cuddling with the pillow, unconscious of the pair of dragon eyes on his sprawling figure.

Namjoon chuckled at the other's cuteness, poking his puffed out cheek. "Prince~"

"Mmh," Jin whined a little, eyebrows furrowing in his sleep as the other continued to disturb him.

"C'mon, sweetheart~ you need to wake up~" Namjoon said with a pout, shaking Jin gently by the shoulder.

"Mm... what's goin' on?" Jin mumbled softly, stirring awake and slapping the other's hand away, snuggling back into the pillows with a sigh.

"I'll take you somewhere if you get up." Namjoon grinned, watching in awe as Jin fluttered his pretty fawn eyes open sleepily before closing them again and rubbing them with his sweater paws.

"Where?" Jin asked tiredly, looking over at Namjoon with half-open eyes, face slightly puffy from napping.

"That's a surprise," Namjoon sing-songed, poking the older's soft unmarked cheek again.

"Yah, stop!" Jin grumbled, swatting the other's hand away moodily before throwing off the blanket, hoisting himself up onto a sitting position, stretching his arms and yawning.

"Had a nice nap?" Namjoon asked, getting up and sitting beside the dark-haired beauty.

"Mhm." Jin nodded at him, eyes drooping a bit.

Namjoon grinned and ruffled his already messy hair, making him whine half-heartedly in protest. "Go get ready, then. We'll go on my bike."

"Do I need to change?" Jin asked, tilting his head a little.

"That's not necessary. You can just wash your face while I wait here, and then we can leave."

"Okay." Jin nodded without any sign of rebellion as he slipped out of bed and stood up. Luckily, his clothes hadn't wrinkled much since he'd been sleeping in the same position the whole time.

"Do you have some spare make-up, Joon?" Jin asked quietly as he walked towards the bathroom. "I can't go out with these." He smiled weakly as he pointed at his bruises.

"Yeah, there's some in the cabinet," Namjoon smiled warmly at him though his heart ached for him.

"Okay, thanks~" Jin gave him a thankful smile before entering the bathroom, shutting the door after him.

While Jin was in the bathroom, Namjoon got ready in the bedroom, just slipping into a black hoodie and a baseball cap, pulling on the hood over his head. He took out a red scarf and a beanie as well before shutting his closet and sitting down on his bed to wait for the older.

Just as Namjoon was putting on his black fingerless leather gloves, Jin came out of the bathroom. His bruises were concealed with makeup, and he'd used a bit of Namjoon's strawberry lip balm, his plush lips red. Pretty...

"Do I look okay?" Jin asked nervously, noticing the younger staring.

"Stunning," Namjoon said shortly with a look full of admiration as he approached him with his scarf and beanie.

"I know. What're you doing?"

However, Jin remained still, letting Namjoon wrap the thick woollen scarf around his neck before pulling on the beanie over his fluffy hair. His cheeks felt warm at the attention he was getting. Nobody had ever done this for him...

"It's going to be cold outside," Namjoon explained as he stood back and blushed because of how adorable Jin looked. "I want to make sure you stay warm enough and don't get sick."

Jin mentally cursed as a crystal tear trickled down his cheek. He quickly wiped it away before abruptly hugging Namjoon, snuggling his head in his chest. The younger was a little bewildered, but he tried to comfort the other, gently patting his covered head.

"Sorry," Jin whispered, looking up at the other with a quivering smile. "I'm just so... grateful. Nobody's ever taken care of me like you do."

Namjoon smiled as well, gently stroking his cheek. "I'm just trying to treat you like the prince you are. Now, wanna get going?"

Jin nodded, entwining their hands. Namjoon's leather-clad hands felt comforting, and his fingers were warm, entangled with his own, as the younger led him downstairs, grabbing their phones and keys on the way.

They turned off all the lights in the house and locked the door before heading to the garage, where Yoongi's van, Namjoon's car and bike were parked. Namjoon helped Jin put on one of his helmets before helping him get onto his bike behind him, before they set off into the night.

Jin held onto Namjoon tightly as they sped down the road, arms wrapped tightly around his waist, chest resting flat against the younger's muscular back and his sweater flapping against the wind behind him. He was so comfortable that he could've easily fallen asleep just like that.

It was cold like Namjoon had predicted, but he was what kept Jin warm.

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"Wait! We're at a shopping mall?!"

Jin looked up at the huge lighted shopping mall with wide and excited eyes as Namjoon helped him get off the bike.

"Yeah- you surprised?" Namjoon chuckled fondly as they walked down the parking lot to get in, Jin literally bouncing like a little kid as he held his hand.

"I guess." Jin shrugged, smiling. "I don't remember ever shopping together with my family or friends, except for your birthday decorations. I usually go on my own so it's kinda lonely... hehe."

"Oh, okay. You have me now."

Jin just giggled as they stepped onto the up escalator. Once they'd reached the upper floor and stepped onto the ground, the older was firing questions at Namjoon, who found his childlike curiosity too endearing to be tired of.

"Yah, Joon, do you think we'd get swallowed up if we don't move away from the escalator when we reach the top?"

Namjoon blinked. "Uh... I don't know."

Jin huffed, unamused. "Really? I thought you were supposed to be the smart one."

"Well, I do have a lot of theories if you wanna bore the hell out of yourself hearing them." Namjoon smirked, nudging him gently.

"No, thank you." Jin looked away, feeling his face heat up at the sudden contact.

Namjoon smiled at his bashful prince, dragging him into a clothes' shop. Jin looked around at the place, mouth slightly open at all the beautiful, fashionable clothes on display. Jin looked at the one nearest to him in awe, flipping over the price tag. It was really expensive. Jin quickly brought his hand away, feeling like such a nice thing didn't deserve to be touched by someone like him.

Namjoon noticed the longing in Jin's eyes before he turned away, a sad pout on his face.

"Let's get going, Joon," Jin said, tugging at the other's jacket sleeve.

"What? Aren't you going to pick anything?" Namjoon said, smiling at him encouragingly. "There are a lot of pretty clothes here like you. Though I must admit nothing can compare to your beauty."

"Yeah... well, I, um..." Jin looked down as he played with the sleeves of his sweater, extremely embarrassed. How was he going to tell Namjoon he couldn't afford such expensive things?

Namjoon knew about his situation, and that was why he wanted to spoil him with things he never had, because a sweetheart like Jin deserved every good thing in the world. He picked the shirt and handed it to Jin, who took it hesitantly in his hands, melting at the soft smoothness of the pretty midnight blue fabric.

"Go and try this one on, though I already know you'll look handsome in it," Namjoon said with a warm smile, an arm latched around the others' shoulders. "I'll get you everything you want."

"But, Joon-" Jin was cut off by a forefinger placed over his lips.

"Shh, don't argue with me, Jinnie, because I'm not changing my mind. So pick everything you like."

Jin huffed in reluctance, nodding. "Fine."

He did like all the lovely clothes, but he felt guilty of letting Namjoon buy all these for him, because he didn't think he could ever pay him back. Namjoon seemed to immediately understand what was going on in the older's head, so he pulled him close to him to reassure him.

"I'll get you everything you wish for, and I do what I say. You should as well get used to that."

"I can't pay you back for your kindness, so I can't help but feel bad," Jin whispered sadly, fingers clutching on the shirt he was holding loosely. "I feel like I'm just using you for your money."

Namjoon sighed, shaking his head. "You've already done enough for me by coming to my life and looking after me and the boys without thinking about yourself because you care about us so much. The least I can do is make you happy too."

"You don't have to." Jin was smiling softly now, a pink hue on his cheeks. "We should get something less expensive, Joon. You shouldn't waste your money on me."

"I've got all the money I want to waste," Namjoon answered with a wink and a sly smirk. "Don't forget that I'm the nephew of the man who's the CEO of the most successful business empire in Bangtan. Besides, I won't call it a waste. I'm just spoiling my hyung."

Jin rolled his eyes, and then frowned. "Ugh, rich people are so full of themselves. Stupid people." He pouted.

"Yahhh, we're not that bad," Namjoon whined from behind Jin's shoulder as the dark-haired now happily looked through all the elegantly designed shirts on display.

A pink flowy top with wings embroidered in gold on both sides of the chest caught Jin's attention and he picked it up, admiring it, but after seeing the price, he put it back in it's place. What he liked next was a similar white top but without embroidery but decorated with pearly white beads. He checked the tag. Too pricey as well. He also put it back in it's original place.

Just as he was about to do the same with a baby blue and white striped shirt, Namjoon took it from him along with all the other clothes on the display in front of them and handed them to Jin, who was surprised by the sudden action, all the clothes he was holding creating a small hill in his arms, making only his head and big doe eyes visible in sight. The purple-haired male thought it was one of the most adorable things he'd seen of Jin.

Namjoon knew that if he let Jin make his own choices, he'll end up getting nothing even though he'd his favorites. He understood that the older needed a little more time to get used to him getting expensive things for him.

"We're taking all of them, but before that, make sure that they fit you perfectly," Namjoon told Jin in a decided way, and before the latter could protest, he ushered an assistant to show them the way to the changing room.

"Namjoon~" Jin whined, trying for the last time to make the other stop getting so many things for him, all in vain.

"Hush, change into every one of them and show me how they look on you," Namjoon said as he placed the clothes on the stool in the changing room for Jin before stepping out.

He loved seeing how Jin looked so shy but happy at being treated like this. It couldn't be clearer that someone had never gone to this level to just make him smile before Namjoon.

"I hate youuu," Jin said, his cheeks puffed out as he went in and shut the door in his face.

"Love you too~" Namjoon whispered to himself with a soft snicker, as he waited outside with hands in his pockets.

He looked around at the area, watching the other shoppers going through the clothes of their own choices, when suddenly, he felt eyes burpurple-haired to him from his right. He turned his head in that direction, immediately freezing at what he saw.

It was Chanyeol and Baekhyun. They were staring at him from where they were standing, a few rows of clothes away. More particularly, only Chanyeol did.

Namjoon had been feeling a bit uncomfortable ever since he'd entered the shop, and now he understood why. The two had seen him and Jin the very moment they'd arrived here.

Anger pricking his senses when he remembered that Chanyeol was the reason behind Jin's hatred towards himself and a long time of pain and sadness, he tore his eyes away from him, not wanting to let himself lose his head and cause a commotion. He knew that it'd upset Jin if he found out.

He'd just ignore those two and make sure Jin doesn't notice they were there...

"Kim Namjoon, isn't it?" A masculine voice spoke from just beside him moments later.

Namjoon didn't have to look to know who it was. "Park Chanyeol, one of the ex-students of Bangtan High?"

Chanyeol nodded in response, not having known that Namjoon already knew him.

"What do you want?" The younger inquired through gritted teeth, avoiding eye contact.

"Oh, I just thought we needed to talk about something," Chanyeol answered quietly. "Somewhere a little more private."

Namjoon wanted to refuse the offer, but for some reason, he shrugged, following the older into a corner of the shop near the changing room. Baekhyun remained in his corner, looking through clothes as he waited for his boyfriend to speak with the purple-haired male.

"So?" Namjoon said coldly, standing before the wall and facing Jin's ex-best friend and ex-crush. "What is it you wanna talk about?"

"Well, I'd seen you at Jeon Jungkook's party last month," Chanyeol began with a raised eyebrow. "You're pretty close to Kim Seokjin, huh?"

"What if I am?" Namjoon said, rather rudely. He was irritated by the tone the other was using to talk about Jin.

Chanyeol tsked. "That's not how you speak to someone your senior, kid. I'm just here to look out for you."

"I wonder how," the other said sarcastically, but Chanyeol didn't notice.

"Look, as much as it might seem impossible to accept, stay away from Seokjin. He's not the charming guy he pretends to be, all right? It might seem unbelievable but I'd been in my last year at Bangtan with him, and I learnt about his true disgusting character the hard way."

Namjoon chuckled humorlessly. "Jin? Disgusting? Tch. The only person I find disgusting is you, Park Chanyeol."

"Sorry to break it to you, kid." Chanyeol shrugged carelessly. "But Jin isn't the right person for you. He's just a gold-digger going after your money and not your love. Just like he'd gone after my boyfriend because he couldn't get what he wanted- me."

"He's not with me because of my money."

"Guess you won't believe what he did to my Baek, then," Chanyeol hissed, beginning to get annoyed.

Namjoon looked at him with derision, shaking his head. "You're fucking dim. You really thought Jin wouldn't tell me about that? Do you know how much he'd cried the night he met you and you spoke to him harshly? Do you know how much he's been beating himself up because he regretted hurting you and your boyfriend?"

Chanyeol was too stunned by what Namjoon said to be able speak. The younger scoffed in disbelief. This guy didn't even have a fucking idea about what Jin had gone through, and came to the conclusion that he was plain selfish and didn't care about anything but himself.

"You don't know anything... you don't care about anything," Namjoon spat. "You said that Jin only cared about my money, huh? He never even let me spend a fucking cent on him with him knowing it. Today's the first time I've forced him to let me spoil him because he deserves it. He's been so selfless and looked after me and the other boys like his own family because he's got none."

Namjoon's voice cracked, and he cleared his throat as Chanyeol stared at him, looking like he'd not been expecting the conversation to go the way it was.

"Listen, I know what Jin hyung had done to you and your boyfriend," Namjoon continued, his eyes so emotionless it was frightening. "Jin told me everything. Without even trying to hide anything.

Even the other boys know about you two. But we understood that he'd changed, and he even confessed regretting his past actions. And we respect him even more for being so truthful. His honesty is what makes him even more loveable to me.

I know it's hard for you to forgive him after what he did to Baekhyun. I understand because I love Jin as much as you love your boyfriend, and if anyone hurt my hyung like the way he hurt him, I'd have hated them too.

It's okay if you hate him, but fucking leave him alone because he'd suffered enough. Just cut him out of your life and don't come saying shit to him. He's been punished enough. I don't care if you're older than me, so don't think you'll get away with it if you hurt Jin again. Now excuse me."

Namjoon stomped away from him and towards the changing room, the door being slightly open. The purple-haired man caught the cute sight of Jin's fawn eyes peeking through the crack when he reached the door.

"Joon!" Jin said, opening the door wider to reveal his whole face, a relieved smile on his pretty features. "Where'd you gone?"

"Sorry, I was in the washroom, my prince," Namjoon lied, catching sight of Chanyeol joining Baekhyun and leaving together, a wary look on his face as he talked to the latter.

"Joon, what're you looking at?"

"Oh, sorry. It's nothing."

Namjoon quickly looked away and stared down at Jin, seeing him standing inside the room in the pink top with some white pants that were along with it. The younger immediately forgot all about his anger towards Chanyeol, his breath taken away by how angelic Jin looked.

"How do I look?" Jin asked, his voice slightly pitched higher as he felt nervous under the other's sharp eyes gazing up and down his figure. His cheeks were beginning to burn red.

"Gorgeous," Namjoon said hoarsely, meeting the other's beautiful sparkling eyes. "Twirl for me."

Jin didn't even feel like protesting as he did what he was told to do in the center of the small changing room, Namjoon's large frame covering the door so that only he could see him like this. The younger watched the soft material of the pink top swish around Jin's waist as he slowly turned around on his spot, blushing furiously as he met the younger's intense eyes again.

Jin hugged himself, extremely flustered. It was as if Namjoon was undressing him with his eyes alone.

"I'll change into another one," Jin said, noticing that the younger was still staring at him shamelessly. "And s-stop checking me out, pervert!" He squeaked out.

Namjoon immediately snapped out of his daze, and it was his time to turn red in the face at realizing what he was doing.

"S-sorry," he stuttered, letting himself be pushed out by the smaller male. "You just look so-" Jin shut the door in his face.

"-beautiful..." Namjoon finished, staring at the closed door.

With flushed cheeks and dilated pupils, Namjoon hid his face in his hand.

Fuck.

Kim Seokjin was so handsome.

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Namjoon's so whipped and... *clears throat* damn.

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