#AMAHLE
My grandmother recovered very well and luckily it was not that serious. Yes she had an appendix but thats not what was making her sick, what made her sick was flu and summer flu is the worst but she was fine now. Doctors check for everything even those you would have not thought of, Gran never mentioned having pains in the abdomen but turns out she did but she just never told us. For a doctor she sure hated Hospitals offwhich i dont even know why. She and I were sitting in her room, she had recovered and her new helper Asekho was starting work tomorrow morning which was Monday.
Me: why do you hate hospitals so much gran?
Her: what makes you think that Hlehle?
Me: because Hlehle you never mentioned anything about having appendix pains
Her: I dont like looking all weak and vulnerable Hlehle
Me: Hlehle you old, you allowed to
Her: not me. I was once a Doctor, I know how to deal with all these things without going there
Me: seee what i mean? You hate hospitals
Her: and you picked all that up from?
Me: you called the hospital "There"
Her: oh, i didnt notice
Me: so why do you hate it?
Her: Having been a doctor for so many years, i've seen too many people die in that place and I dont want to be part of the list
Me: but granny you wont be
Her: Nosihle didnt think she would be part of the list but
Me: There was nothing you could have done to save her Gran. That woman did a number on her
Her: still i feel like i didnt try hard enough Hlehle
Me: Whats done is done Gran and grandma Nosi is at a better place
Her: yeah i guess
Me: lets go out
Her: excuse me?
Me: you heard me. Lets dress up and go to Ohbrigado
Her: your mom has me under house arrest
Me: yeah she said to look after you and I will be looking after you
Her: you're a bad influence
Me: hahaha i am your granddaughter after all
Her: wheres Nathi?
Me: I think she's in her room, let me go check
Her: you mom had better not catch us
Me: relax, I got dad taking care of her
Her: how?
Me: well Dad needs help with planning the funeral and who better than mom?
Her: and what about Daniel?
Me: He suggested that she goes and help my father out
Her: its sad that his parents left so terribly
Me: yeah it is
Her: how are your siblings taking it?
Me: Not good. Nathi has it really bad, shes barely eating or talking to anyone
Her: well she was closest to them than me. She needs this night out more than me. Go with her instead
Me: we not leaving you to be depressed in this house all alone, now dress up while i go check on my sister woman.
Her: hey you! I will hit you little girl
Me: love you too Hlehle
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#NATHI
Losing both my grandparents at the same time was not cool at all. These people practically raised me when Bomi walked out on us, you see when she left with Mahle those years ago they moved to PE to help dad raise us to the people we are today so having my second parents gone was not going to be easy. Their death got to me real bad, I wasnt eating and i was barely social. My life was on a stand still, my phone was a phone but it was off. Mahle has tried to get me to eat but still nothing and Alu was in PE with Bomi, Dad and Daniel, Bomi suggested I stay here with Mahle and Gran til the new helper gets here tomorrow so as soon as she gets here i was going to be on my way to PE. I had a car of my own which Dad bought for me as a graduation present, it was a red mini cooper. I was alone in my room lost in thoughts when i heard a knock on the door. I kept quiet but the person let themselves in meaning it could only be Amahle Ngesi.
Her: Ana
Me: ....
Her: Lets go out, you, me and gran
Me: where to?
Her: Ohbrigado
Me: i dont know if i'm up for a club
Her: trust me you need it. You've been locked up in here since last week and you barely eat let alone get out of the room. I feel like i've lost my sister
Me: maybe you have
Her: dont talk like that please. I know its not easy losing the people you love but one thing i know is that they wouldnt want you doing this to yourself
Me: you barely even knew them
Her: i deserve that but come on Nathi please
Me: Mahle why did you leave? And dont tell me shiit about Dad cheating on Bomi
Her: but it is about that
Me: I'm not stupid, you think i dont know how much that house scared you when and if you visited? What happened in that house Mahle
Her: something i've moved on from
Me: Our Grandparents last saw you in Zanzibar for holidays and they wouldnt have seen you had they not been there. This thing that happened must have been big for you to also disown your Grandparents
Her: the woman they suggested to our parents to hire molested me ok. She made me do things no child was suppose to do or even witness at that age, she made me stick my tiny fingers in vagina and sometimes made me
Wait hold up. Pause. Rewind. Mahle was molested? How did I not see this? How come no one told me? I was now in tears and disbelief but she was not crying at all instead she was chilled as if she was over it
Me: No Mahle thats not true. She would ne.....
Her: she kept doing this for years Anathi. I was young and i didnt know anything
Me: No Amahle thats not true.
Her: and when mom walked out on Dad these very same grandparents blamed her for not being there enough for her husband and me so excuse me for not being in their life like you guys were
Me: they would never do that. They adored Bomi
Her: you think? Your grandparents didnt like my mother
Come to think of it only granddad liked her because grandma bad mouthed her every chance she got and she would remind me not to get too close to her because step mothers were all evil and stuff and come to think of it, she was the reason i didnt like Bomi much.
Me: ok i hear you and maybe you right they didnt like her bu...
Her: look i wasnt here for this ok. I was just here to ask if you interested in joining us or not
Me: bu...
Her: yes or no Anathi.... please
Me: no...... yes fine i will join you but...
Her: we are not talking about this Nathi, it happened years ago and i'm over it
Me: why didnt you tell me Mahle?
Her: it happened years ago ok
Me: but why didnt you atleast mention something to me?
Her: you loved her. I didnt want it to seem as though i was jealous of your friendship
Me: but sis....
Her: Ana its over ok. She apologised and i forgave her, now please let it go
Me: am i the only one who did not know this?
Her: pretty much
Me: why?
Her: because we all know how much you loved her and how crushed you were when she left
Me: oh
Its true, i loved that woman but now that i know that she did this to my little sister she needed to know how i feel about what she did. This woman was a witch. She was hell possessed to do such to a child who did not know anything
Her: get dressed then and you driving because mom left with the i8 keys
Me: Mahle wa....
She was already out of my room and i'm assuming she didnt want anymore questions from me about something she has clearly moved past from.
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#MBALI
Fast forward to February.
So Sandiso told me about what happened at the wedding, Sisa finding out about me and shiit and honestly he was f*cked. Not to sound wrong or anything i just didnt feel the same about him anymore. You see when I went back to Joburg mid January before Sandiso came back yesterday, I met this drop dead yum-yum white guy named Charles Hopkins and it turns out he was a transfer student from Gulliard to do his final year here because his parents moved back to SA. Charles and I just clicked from the word go and we had a lot in common, he had those Charlie Puth voices so you can imagine how he and I were insync and how Sandiso was just out of the picture. I mean yeah sure maybe last year i wanted to be more than a sex buddy but this year i'm not about that life, meeting Charles gave me that thing i've always craved for and he accepted me with all my flaws. meaning he knew everything i've done, both good and bad. It was valentines Day and Sandiso came by the flat, I wasnt working today and Ash was with her Boyfriend and I was seeing mine Later on because he had some stuff to sort out.
Him: Hey beautiful flower
He said hugging me
Me: hi
He tried kissing me but i backed away
Him: ok and then?
Me: what?
Him: why you acting weird?
Me: We need to talk
Him: ok? after this
He said pulling me in for a kiss
Me: stop it! We seriously need to talk Sandiso
Him: ok fine
I led the way to our lounge and offered him to sit while i sat on a single couch next to his.
Him: so much distance between us
Me: it'll all make sense when we done here
Him: ok. I'm all ears
Me: Sandiso i am in love *He attempted to speak but i didnt allow him* I am in love with Charles, he's a guy I met when i was helping out at school with the walk-ins a...
Him: wait. What? I lost someone who loved me dearly because of you
Was he really blaming me for his infedility? Seriously now?
Me: NO No No bhuti i am not to blame here for you being unfaithful to yet another girl who loved you. I take full responsibilty for coming between you and Mahle but you and Sisanda? Nigga thats all on you, you came on to me this time around not the other way. I didnt seduce you or lead you on you did that to me, i told this would end badly but you being you you decided that it was something you wanted to do and you didnt care even if it meant hurting Sisanda in the process. Its time you learnt to take responsibilty for your actions and seeing that everything has consequences especially where breaking someone's heart is concerned
He looked at me for sometime, probably processing what i had just said to him
Him: you right. I'm sorry Mbali.
He got up and walked to the door
Him: I wish you happiness and everything your heart desires
Me: thank you Sandiso
As he was walking out he bumped into Charles.
Charles: Hi i'm Charles Hopkins
Him: Sandiso Langa. Bye Entle
And with that he was gone.
Boo: and what was that about?
Me: argh dont mind him
Him: so i got done earlier than expected
Me: I see. So what are you suggesting?
Him: that you and I go out for lunch and maybe watch movies and just be a couple and do what normal couples do on Valentines
Me: who said that they do that?
Him: I dont know... Movies I guess
Me: hahaha you watch them way too much for your own good
Him: i'm getting tips ok
Me: hahaha come help me pick out an outfit
We went to my room to pick out an outfit for the movies. We havent had sex and he hasnt hinted it too, I just want to do things right with this one.