Soon after the two returned to the villa, Uncle Li, who drove Lisa to them, also returned. As soon as he entered the door, he hurried over to see Jungkook, only to find that Jungkook was sitting quietly in the dining room for dinner.
"Second Young Master, are you okay?" Uncle Li asked worriedly.
"He's okay." Lisa nodded her head gently.
"How could it happen so suddenly?" After a sigh of relief, Uncle Li asked. Before, Jungkook had never had an issue before commuting to work or being in the car.
"I made an appointment with Jungkook at six o'clock in the evening. He was stuck in a traffic jam, and he was anxious, so... it's all my fault." Lisa blamed herself.
"How can I blame you?" Uncle Li didn't expect Jungkook to suddenly get upset because he failed to return home on time, but this matter shouldn't be the Second Young Lady's fault, the fault is... Where is the fault?
Was the fault because Second Young Master was being too persistent, didn't know how to change, or cared too much about Grandma Jeon's final request? If you have to place blame, the only fault can only be because of Second Young Master's condition. Uncle Li looked at Lisa, who blamed herself, and suddenly felt uncomfortable. Second Young Master and Second Young Master's wife were both young and good, they were the perfect couple. But how could Second Young Master...
"Fortunately, there's nothing wrong with Kook, he was just anxious. Uncle Li can you call dad and mom and let them know so they won't worry about it." Lisa asked Uncle Li with a smile. She knew that Uncle Li must have reported to others about Jungkook's issue.
"Okay." When Uncle Li made a phone call, the master and madam were already on their way back. After listening to Eldest Young Master for a while, they no longer heard anything else he said and immediately had intentions to return.
After Jiyong and Sandara returned home, Jungkook had recovered as usual, with a calm mood and a rosy complexion. Their hearts relaxed and they comforted Lisa again. They weren't reproachful, but instead told her a few words. They reminded her that Jungkook's autism causes him to be stubborn and inflexible. He strongly focuses on the time, so Lisa should try to not be specific on the time when she wants to meet with Jungkook. Because in the event of an accident that makes it impossible to meet at the appointed time, Jungkook will become irritable.
"Lisa, mom and dad say this to you to remind you in good faith, we aren't trying to say you were at fault. Kook is just like this, so you must be shocked. It's not your fault. You must not take it to heart." Sandara was worried that Lisa would think too much about it.
"I know. I haven't been with Kook for long and didn't know many of his habits. It's good for you to mention it to me. I'll pay attention to it from now on." Lisa understood Sandara's meaning in her heart. She didn't think much about it, but Jungkook suffered today, so she couldn't help but blame herself.
"It's fine if you understand."
"Dad, Mom, I'll go upstairs to check on Kook." Lisa was worried about Jungkook and went back to the bedroom.
After Lisa left, Sandara was still worried. She looked at her husband and anxiously said: "You say, does Lisa feel that Kook is too troublesome?"
Jiyong pondered for a moment and replied, "Lisa didn't say anything, so I can't make a wild guess."
"Aren't you worried? If Lisa feels that Kook is troublesome and wants to leave..."
"We promised Lisa's parents, if Lisa wants to leave, we won't stop her." Jiyong reminded Sandara, although he didn't want Lisa to leave.
"I'm... afraid of Kook's sorrow." If Lisa really wanted to leave, Sandara wouldn't stop or stand in the way, but as long as she thought of Jungkook, she couldn't bear it.
"Don't think about it, and..." Jiyong said, "Let's talk as little as possible about Kook and Lisa."
"You also think that I just reminded Lisa deliberately, do you think Lisa will think too much about it?" Sandara was worried.
"No. I just think that when Lisa married into our family, our family care too much about Kook. Basically, we treat them too differently, like we don't treat Lisa as well as Jungkook and it can lead to an misunderstanding which can harm their interpersonal relationships After a long time, there will be misunderstandings. I think it's also time for them to move out. This way, some misunderstandings can be avoided in advance." Jiyong suggested.
"What if Kook has another fit?" Sandara was upset.
"Can you make Kook calm down in the car with a phone call?" Jiyong asked his wife.
No, Sandara knew that all they could do before was prevent Jungkook from harming himself until he calmed down.
When Lisa returned to the bedroom, Jungkook was sitting at his desk writing something.
"Kook, it's almost time to take a bath and rest." Jungkook had just returned to his emotional baseline (Baseline means your typical 'normal'/clear state of mind) and Lisa thought he should rest early.
After Jungkook finished the last stroke, he left the desk obediently, took the pajamas Lisa handed him, and went to the bathroom to take a shower.
When the sound of water came from the bathroom, Lisa walked to the desk with curiosity to see what Jungkook was writing. It was a loose-leaf notebook. Jungkook didn't close the notebook, so the notebook was spread out on the desk. On the white paper, Jungkook wrote densely with beautiful handwriting: it was six o'clock, and I wanted to go home. I think he's writing an apology or the reason why he had an onset....basically he grew as a person because before he never really explained himself but keeping in mind that Lisa said they were now married and she wanted to help him, he decided to try to explain why this incident occur to her so they can understand and prevent this from happening in the future.
With this one glance, the tears that Lisa endured this entire time, instantly fell. Suddenly, she couldn't even contain herself and cried.
"I've washed." Lisa was stupefied for too long. She didn't know when Jungkook had finished washing and had already stood beside Lisa.
"Okay, then I'll wash too." Lisa turned to leave but was suddenly pulled by Jungkook.
"You're crying." Jungkook frowned, and asked with some remorse, "Is it because I didn't come home on time today?"
"No." Lisa wiped and dried her tears as if she could cover up the fact that she had cried for a long time.
"Why are you crying then?" Jungkook wondered.
"I really didn't cry."
"Crying." Jungkook's tone was firm, his eyes were bright and had an expression that he clearly saw.
"..." At this time, Lisa eagerly wanted to be left alone for a while, to sort out the bad emotions in her heart, but Jungkook couldn't understand that or understand her words, instead he was persistent and asked why she was crying. Lisa didn't know how to answer because there were too may emotions that piled within her together and she couldn't say why exactly she was crying. She just felt tired and sad.
"I don't want to say, okay?" Lisa's voice pleaded with a hint.
Jungkook froze, struggling for a while, and suddenly leaned over and embraced Lisa. He gently coaxed in her ear: "Don't cry, hug."
"Wuwu ..." Lisa's accumulated emotions burst from her heart. She wanted to sort it out by taking a bath but released it once Jungkook coaxed her like a child, it was as if a floodgate has opened.
"I just want to cry. Why do you keep asking, keep asking?"
"Don't ask, don't ask." Jungkook clumsily patted Lisa's back.
After this venting session, Lisa's mood was much better. After washing, she and Jungkook laid in bed early. Before they went to sleep, Jungkook looked at Lisa and had an expression as if he wanted to say something and couldn't sleep.
"What do you want to say?" Lisa was helpless.
"I want to say." Jungkook immediately sat up from the quilt excitedly. "I won't ask you things that you don't want me to ask, so in the future, can you stop crying?"
"...No!" Lisa thought and wanted to cry again, "If I want to cry, I'll cry. Why can't I cry?"
"Then... then you can do whatever you like." Jungkook lay back down innocently. Grandma is right, women's thoughts are really complicated.
The next morning.
At the breakfast table, Lisa's mental state was obviously not very good. The other members of the Jeon family saw her and knew what was going on. They didn't speak openly. For a while, the atmosphere at the table was somewhat depressing.
After breakfast, Lisa sent Jungkook to the door. Today Kai was also going to the company, so Jungkook took the car with Kai to directly go to the company without having to wait for a driver to pick him up.
"I will be back at six o'clock today." Before entering the car, Jungkook assured Lisa again very seriously.
When Lisa heard this, the smile on her face froze. Again? Is it necessary to come back every day at that time in the future?
"I will arrange for the driver to bring Kook back by six o'clock." Kai suddenly glanced at Lisa, who had frozen, and said that.
Lisa glanced at Kai, and understood the other party's meaning, smiled, and thanked him.
"...Let's leave." Kai didn't say anymore, opened the door to leave.
Lisa's expression was very familiar now. It can be said that every once in a while, his face and parents' face will look like that. That's the feeling of responsibility, pressure, fatigue and heartache. That's the feeling when you get when you really realize that it's not easy to take care of Jungkook and, only those who really care about Jungkook, would carry this expression. He hoped that Lisa could find a way to relieve that pressure and he also respected Lisa, who was having a hard time making peace with herself.
"Wait a moment." At this moment, Lisa suddenly called Kai.
Kai's motion of getting in the car was paused, and he looked over again.
"That, the driver who sent Kook back yesterday, Sir Ma. It seems that he was accidentally hurt by Kook yesterday because he wanted to stop him from hitting the door." Lisa found the injury on the driver's face, but she was only looking after Jungkook at the time, so she didn't have time to ask.
"...I see." Kai paused for a moment, then nodded that he knows what to do. Yesterday, thanks to the driver's cleverness, he locked the car. If he didn't, Jungkook might have run out of the car and the consequences would have been unimaginable.
Haiyuan Road.
Tzuyu drove to work in a spirited manner. Before the car entered the parking lot, she saw Lisa's Audi from afar. She wondered why Lisa arrived earlier than her this morning but found that Lisa was sitting dazed in the driver's seat and the car was still running.
What's this girl doing?
"What are you doing?" Tzuyu powered off her car and couldn't help but walk over to knock on the window.
"Tzuyu?" Lisa returned to her senses and looked back.
"Dang, a big pair of panda eyes. Are you indulging too much through the night or are you worried about our sales volume for our shoes the entire night?" Tzuyu couldn't help but joke.
"Because of Kook." Lisa replied weakly.
"Because......" Tzuyu's face changed abruptly. Looking at Lisa's eyes, she suddenly saw a "yellow". (The word yellow in Chinese is often a.s.sociate with p.o.r.n or s.e.x light.) "It's overindulgence ah. You finally became a genuine married woman..."
"Tzuyu, I'm going out, I have something to do and will be back in the afternoon." Lisa ignored Tzuyu, as if she suddenly made a decision. She reversed her car and left.
"..." Tzuyu, who was left behind and was bathed in a large amount of exhaust said, "What's the matter ah?"
After leaving the studio, Lisa went directly to Yuncheng University. She decided to talk to Professor Feng.
Since it was sudden, Lisa could only try her luck and go to Professor Feng's office. She was then told that Professor Feng had class in the morning, so she went to the large classroom where Professor Feng had the class and quietly listened in the large classroom. She didn't get up from her seat until all the students who went to the podium to ask Professor Feng some questions left. She left her seat and smiled at Professor Feng.
"Is something wrong with Kook?" On the tree-lined avenue of Yuncheng University, the two were walking while talking about Jungkook.
"Did you see?"
"Even if you don't see, if you consider the time, it was almost time for you to come back and see me?" Professor Feng said.
"What do you mean?" Lisa was puzzled.
"It's not easy to get along with people with autism. Although Kook has adjusted very well, there are still many differences he has compared to ordinary people. Normal couples will have problems with each other over time, let alone you and Kook." Professor Feng said, "You came later than I expected."
Lisa smiled bitterly.
"But you still came to me, I'm very happy." Facing Lisa's surprised eyes, Professor Feng smiled, "This proves that you don't intend to give up on Kook. You came to me, you want Kook to change for the better, right? "
"Yes." This is what Lisa thought.
"Let's go to my office for a cup of tea and see what I can do for you." Professor Feng smiled comfortably and led Lisa to his office.
In the office, Lisa told Professor Feng about the situation in detail of Jungkook before and after his personal crisis. Professor Feng listened carefully before he said.
"Usually, people with autism have self-established trajectory and once its disrupted, or they think they fail their task, or they can't complete it in their time frame, it will be difficult for them to calm down in a short amount of time."
"I know that's why Kook was upset yesterday." Lisa pointed out.
"No, you misunderstood what I meant." Professor Feng smiled. "Yesterday, Kook didn't return home, but you calmed him down."
"Is there anything wrong with that?" Lisa asked.
"No, it's very good, very good." Professor Feng said it twice in a row, and his voice was a little excited, "I didn't know that versatility was a universal feature of autistic patients, but you let Kook learn to adapt yesterday."
"Adapt?" Lisa froze.
"Yes." Professor Feng said, "We always think that autism is like a glass cover, which separates autistic patients from normal people, but once we break through this glass cover and they can communicate smoothly, there's not much difference between autistic patients and ordinary people. In theory, what normal people can do, they can do as well."
"The way you handled the situation was a very successful situation. When Kook couldn't come home in time, you offered to take the initiative to find him, he understood and accepted, then he calmed down. Although, this is due to your good communication skills and Kook's high acceptance of what you communicated. At that moment, you let Kook realize that there was another possibility to solve his one issue. This is almost the same as common sense for ordinary people, and it's particularly difficult for autistic patients, especially those with emotional processing issues. If you can make Kook realize this independently, he will slowly learn how to adapt."
"Self-awareness? How can I do that?" Lisa frowned.
"Don't worry. Don't be too stressed. Didn't I just say this requires good communication?" Professor Feng comforted with a smile, "So, you have done a good job now, as long as you stay with him like this, he will naturally develop it slowly. "
"I see. I will." Lisa promised.
"After talking about Kook, let's talk about you." Professor Feng suddenly said.
"Me?" Lisa froze.
"Actually, family members of autistic people need psychological counseling more than autistic people in these situations." Professor Feng said in a meaningful way, "In fact, autistic people can live in their own world; they may not feel pressured. But the pressure is still with their family members. In a skilled homethink group home for those in the US, more than half of the parents give up on rehabilitation treatment for their children every year. And occasionally, some parents leave their children with autism at the door of a skilled facility."
"I don't want to give up." Lisa hurriedly explained.
"Don't get excited. I just want to tell you, if you feel tired, feel sad, even if you ever want to give up, that's normal. Don't be too harsh on yourself, don't give yourself too much pressure. When you want to talk, you can come to my place anytime." Professor Feng said.
Lisa understood the meaning behind Professor Feng's words. Professor Feng was afraid that she would be trapped in a huge circle that she can't give up on Jungkook and was responsible for him. She was taken away by this kind of self-virtue and finally crushed by this kind of pressure. He could see that she wasn't in a good state of mind today and was counseling her in order to relieve that pressure.
However, where would she be kidnapped by virtue? She never even thought that she had any noble sentiment. If so, she would have accepted Jungkook's proposal in her last life.
What she was doing now, was because she wanted to do it.
It has nothing to do with virtue or responsibility.
She had experienced a world without Jungkook and doesn't yearn for it. In contrast, she cherishes the present more.
"Thank you, Professor Feng. I understand what you mean. I won't be trapped inside." Lisa replied.
Whether there was joy or sadness, it was the future where she was willing to transverse with Jungkook. Her life was too short, how could she easily let go?
..........
Short Theatre:
When Jungkook was a boy, he wasn't able to communicate and sometimes made his grandma cry.
Little Lisa saw grandma cry one day and couldn't help running over with concern.
Lisa: Grandma why are you crying?
Grandma: It's nothing, Grandma just a little tired.
Lisa: Are you angry with Jungkook Oppa?
Grandma: Yes, I'm so angry that I want to throw him out.
Lisa: Grandma, that won't work. My mother told me that children can be taught, not thrown away.
Grandma: Your Jungkook Oppa is too difficult to teach.
Lisa: Don't worry Grandma, I'll help you.
So Lisa ran to the study and talked to Jungkook all afternoon.
She didn't let him flip pages.
The teenager Jungkook, who wasn't able to read and was scolded the whole afternoon was rarely dipressed.
So, Grandma Jeon was instantly cured.