Wish you were gay||Billie Eilish

What is that supposed to mean

Y/N POV

I woke up to my phone non stop ringing. I roll over to grab it from my night stand

iMessage

Billie
I'm sorry
Please let me help you
Let me fix this
I know you want to be independent, but I just wanna take care of you
Please y/n dont ignore me
Let me know you're okay

I left all of her messages on read. I want her to know that I'm mad. I want her to know that I truly want a career of my own and she can't supply for me all the time. Once in a while is fine, but all the time? No.

Well since I'm already up, I might as well get ready. I go to my closet and pick out a lazy outfit. I don't need to take a shower because I took one last night. I throw on some grey sweatpants and an oversized crew neck. I then make my way to the kitchen where everyone is

"Morning" I said to everyone

"It's the afternoon already" my dad laughed

"Actually it's eleven thirty am which is still morning" I said

"touché" he laughed at me

"Is everything okay?" My dad asked

"Yea, why wouldn't it be?" I asked taking a bite out of my toast

"Billie didn't spend the night" my dad said

"We got into a mild argument" I said

"About the live?" My dad asked

I looked at him confused

"Mom told me because I was concerned" he said

"Yea Kind of" I said

"So tell me what happened" he said

"Some people were being mean on the live and I told Billie I wanted a career of my own, but she said she'll support me, and I said I didn't want that, then it just blew up into an argument" I explained

"I'm sure She was only trying to help" my dad said

"Yea, but I want to do things on my own. I can't always depend on people" I said

"I get where you're coming from, but all she wants to do is help you" my dad said

"I know" I just simply said feeling defeated

"Maybe you should talk to her" he said

"No. I want to give us both time to cool off so we don't get into another argument" i said

"Okay, well when you're ready, go talk to her" he said

"Okay. Thanks dad" I said

"You're welcome. Don't let a simple thing ruin a good relationship" he said

"I know. I won't" I said

"Good" he said back

I reflect on what my dad said. He's right. He's always right. I let out a deep sigh that I feel like I've been holding forever. I basically run up the stairs to my room to get my shoes on.

"I'll be back" I said

"Where you going?" My mom asked

"To talk to Billie" I said

"Okay" she said

With that, I walked out the front door and walked across the street to Billies. Once im there, I bring my hand to a fist to knock.

"Y/n, come in" Maggie said opening the door

"Thanks, is Billie here?" I asked

"Yea, she's in her room. She's been there all morning" she said

"Thanks, I'm just gonna go talk to her" I said

"Okay" she said

I walked down the hall to Billies room. Her door was closed and she was playing music. I knocked on her door, not wanting to invade her privacy

"Fin, I said go the fuck away" she said

"It's me actually" I said from outside the door

"Oh shit" she said

I heard shuffling around in there until she came and opened the door.

"Hey" she said

"Hey can we talk?" I asked

"Yea" she said letting me in her room

"What's up?" She asked

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have gotten mad at you like that. You were only trying to help and I just blew up in your face, which wasn't okay" I said

"I'm sorry for saying the things that I said. I know you want a career of your own and that's totally okay. But it doesn't have to be modeling. You can do other things. I mean, just because I'm famous doesn't mean you have to be" she awkwardly laughed

"Wait what? What is that supposed to mean?" I asked

"What? Just that you don't have to be in the spotlight because I am" she said

"I've always wanted to model since I was little" I said

"Well you never told me" she said

"I didn't know I had to run it by you" I said

"I didn't say that" she said

"So you want to be the only famous one in the relationship?" I asked

I'll admit, that wasn't necessary, but you know, heat in the moment thing

"I didn't say that either" she said

"You kind of did" I said

"Uhh no I didn't. I just don't want fame to put pressure on you" she said

I looked at her while she talked. Eye contact and all

"I can't do this right now Billie" i said

"Y/n what the fuck. I didn't even mean it like that. Let's just talk and work this out" she said

"Then how did you mean it?" I asked

"Not like that" she said

"So what is it supposed to mean then?" I asked

"I-" she started

"I'll talk you you later Billie

With that, I walked out of her house after saying goodbye to Maggie