Double or Nothing

If

"If I don't pick up the phone like I used to (for you)
Don't you take it personal
If I don't do all the things that I used to do (to you)
I ain't mad at you
If you get to feeling stressed up in your chest
Thinking that you about to lose"
(Baby its true)

As I lay in my bed, I think to myself how did I get myself in to this bull shit. I inhaled and take a deep breath letting music take full control of what i was feeling in that very moment. I keep wondering if I knew what I've knew now I wouldn't never been in this predicament in the first place. Just 3 months ago everything was so cool between Jay & I. We were really living our best life. He's really my Bestfriend, every time I'm with him I feel like i can be myself around him. More then anything i feel safe and protected. He made me feel like the most beautiful woman ever. When we're in a room full of people I honesty don't feel like no one in the room but us. Last but not least he knows how to please every inch of my body. His soul connects with my heart. I'm afraid to admit I let my heart got in to deep. If maybe he wasn't having problems with opening up to me more we would still be together. I just feel like maybe he's hiding something. What if everything we had wasn't true? What if he don't love me? Is this lust or love? What If I'm over reacting. As I lay in my soft King size cozy bed, I felt cold tears starting to stream down my face. Nothing but what if's ran through my mind as I cried myself to sleep.

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