Ten
"Bakit mo ginawa yon, Chan?" His palm is warm on my nape.
"...I will always want to do that." Him.
"I love you, Ana."
We were looking straightly on our eyes. I felt both excitement, confusion and fear inside my chest. Something that's both tearing and fulfilling.
"Aalis ako. I just need to say these. I promise I'll leave."
Wala akong naiintindhan sa sinasabi nya dahil parang wala akong naririnig at wala rin akong masabi.
"...because I can't unlove you..."
He kissed me again.
Longer than the first one.
One...
Two...
Three...
I lost count of how many seconds those were.
I felt my lips wet.
Felt it moving with his.
I did not argue with his arms arking around my lines.
Mali ito.
I only heard breathings as we parted. I felt his forehead with mine. And I saw his lashes never moved as he never opened his eyes.
"Hindi tayo magso-sorry na nangyare to, diba?"
He asked me when all I can say was 'Yes'.
Hinalikan nya ako ulit nang tumango ako.
~ [ 🎵: Slow Goodbye ]
saranghadaga miwohago
mibdagado geuriwohago
apeun banbok soge
jichin neowa na
urin aju cheoncheonhi
gyeolgugeneun cheoncheonhi
neurige neurige ireoke
ibyeolhago itna bwa
saranghaeseo bonae
jundaneun mal
soseol gateun geora mideotjiman
ijeneun al geot gata
neol saranghanikka
nan juji mothan
neoye haengbogeul
wihae tteonaya hae
saranghadaga miwohago
mibdagado geuriwohago
apeun banbok soge
jichin neowa na
urin aju cheoncheonhi
gyeolgugeneun cheoncheonhi
neurige neurige neurige
ibyeolhaeya haetna bwa
~
He let go when he heard footsteps closer but still carefully caressing both of my cheeks with his hands.
That was my first kiss and I dont know if first kisses are meant to feel both loving, longing...and sad.
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Pagkatapos.
Ang mga sumunod na umaga...hindi ko na sya nakita.
At ang mga sumunod pa.
Parang lalong gumulo ang buong bahay dahil tinamad na akong mag-linis. Mas maraming oras na rin akong nasa school.
Natuto akong magluto para sa sarili ko. Sa canteen na rin ako kumakain madalas. Inaaya naman ako ni Sik kapag hindi sya busy, ganun rin yung mga kapitbahay kong sina Byung at Subin pag nagkikita kami sa school. Nagkakasabay rin kami minsan sa pag-uwi.
Pero mas madalas mag isa ako.
Palagi syang hinahanap sakin ng mga ka-team nya. Lalo na si Kuhn na kaibigan pero kakompetensya nya.
Sinasabi ko nalang na lumipat na sya ng Seongnam because of his brother's enlistment. Kahit hindi pa naman talaga na-enlist si kuya Jun.
Why did he leave? Dahil ba kaya ko na ang sarili ko?
No. He knew I cannot...without him.
Sinadya nyang umalis. Sinadya nyang makita ni kuya Jun yung halik na yon. Para ilayo sya sa akin.
I lost contact of him. But he never distant himself to his friend...sa akin lang.
He wanted to forget the feelings.
Fine. Be it. I was 17. But did he has to do that? Kiss me and tell me he loved me and then leave.
Nagsimula at natapos ang 2nd sem nang wala sya.
Gumraduate na rin sila Sik.
End Of All Flashbacks
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BINABASA MO ANG
Hello, Bloodline • Victon fanfiction✅
Romance"...This is the last time I'll say I love you so much. And I promise I'll be happy for the places where we are now. Hanggang mag-kita tayo ulit. But for now, I'm letting us go."
