TAEKOOK ONE SHOTS

For the 2nd time💔

This is not related to any stories you read in this book but i want to share it with you. This is my story of love. Im sorry to tell you but im slowly breaking. Breaking that in some point of my life i dont know what to do. The person who breaks me for the first time did it again for the 2nd time. It was heartbreaking for me, because i already build my trust and love. But time didn't let me. Im sorry~

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Being broken means you truly love the person who left you for a reason. It was a crime for me to be in love. It was a serious illness that breaks me emotionally and mentally. It was like a cancer that keeps spreading in my entire body. I thought we are in best venue of our relationship. I want to say i love you and I miss you. But those words keep whispering in my ears that was being trapped with betrayal and  heartbreaks.

Yes. Im despirate. Im despirate to be with you. Im despirate to make you love me again. Im trying my best to make you happy but the instrument of nature didn't let me. There are times i want to cry, but I keep smiling like no tomorrow. I want to find a life that is full of gladness and away from sadness. Smile was being my shoulder. The smile that hides a millions of stories, that you cannot  understand and absorb each words written on it because you are in the midst of sorrow and despair.

I feel like useless. That is what i look myself infront of the mirror. I want to change for the better, for you. But my past and myself keep chasing me in my nightmare. It was hard to let go of someone I dearly love. It was hard to accept the fact that you have fall out of love. It was hard to face the new tomorrow when I know to myself that I  am incomplete without you. I tried to be happy even with the absence of yours, but it was like a pitch black, it was dull and dark.

It's not new for a heartbroken person to cry, mourn, and being prone to the fear of abandonment. Anxiety and insomnia, they are the  demons in you're night time, that keep bragging inside you're mind. 

But at the end of the day, we will just realize that all of this experiences is just part of knowing ourself. Knowing the fragile side of you're existence. Me as the victim of broken glass telling you to let go and try to search for the betterment of yours. It's not the end yet, always instill in your mind, you will find someone that can adore, cherish, and love you, more than what you feel before. And that someone is taking the same path as yours. And that path leads you to each other to complete the broken you.

-MJ💔