Bright and early. Jacob, Ray, Roc, Ej, and I are all in the living room getting ready for the game. Connor, Honest, Sincere, and Trina are also in the living room. Connor is cuddled up on Jacob's lap, waiting for the game. Honest and Sincere are holding conversation on the floor and Trina and Ej are messing around as usual. Ray is fucking up a bowl of cereal and Roc is laid across the floor. Jay just woke up and walked out of the room. She looked at me. I looked down at my fingers. She pushed her hair behind her ear and walked out on the porch. She looks like she hadn't gotten any sleep. Hell, I didn't either. Who cares...
"You know you love that girl....You don't even gotta act like that." Connor narrowed her eyes at me. I said nothing. She got up and went outside with Jay.
JAY
"Make a run for it!" Connor joked.
"There's nowhere to go..."
"Why aren't you eating?" She asked, taking a seat beside me.
"I'm not hungry."
"So........how ya feelin'?"
"Irrelevant..." I told her, pulling my knees up to my chest and holding onto my feet. Connor got quiet.
"He doesn't love me anymore..."
CONNOR
She started to cry. I don't like seeing my baby like this. She looks like shit right now. She's supposed to be a thug. Thug's don't cry. 😐 Right now I gotta be here for my bitch, but she's gonna have to cut this crying shit out. She's not supposed to let him see her cry. She's letting him see her pain. The best answer for her right now is to act like he's not phasing her.
"Jay..."
"Nothing is important anymore... nothing. I didn't tell Roc to kiss me. Jake just spazzed on me....He won't talk to me. He told me he didn't care." She put her head down on her knees and wrapped her arms around them.
The hell? Roc kissed her? I should've known... His ass always fucking something up. When Roc wants something, he don't give a damn what it is, he's going to get it.
"He's lying to you. Jay, you know he fucking cares."
"He's not acting like it...C I just love him so much...."
I nodded.
"Maybe I should just jump off of the railing to end all of this bullshit." She said. I looked over at her.
"Are you fucking crazy?" I asked. She chuckled.
"I'm playing." She sniffled, pulling her hair into a bun with a ponytail holder that was around her wrist. She wiped her face dry with the back of her hands and returned her hands to her feet. She then let out a heavy sigh. Jake came out and grabbed the broom (Lord knows what it was doing outside), and he looked at her the whole time, damn near bumping into the glass trying to focus on being mad at her. Mhmm.... I see right through that shit. He isn't fooling me.
"Jake." I said, scratching the back of my head. He turned around.
"What.."
"Can you warm my chair? Please? I'm anemic and I need to use the restroom. I'm gonna go grab my sweater and I'll be right back... its cold as shit out here." I lied. He saw through it, squinting his eyes at me.
"Yes baby?!" I got up and ran in the house. Jake put up a fight with me to keep the door open but I closed and locked him out 😏. Now he's stuck with Jay.
"Imma fucking kill you when I get in there!" He mouthed, hitting the door. I nodded and closed the blinds. Give it an hour. I won't be surprised if I find them out there fucking on the patio. Jake opened the other side and walked in. 😐 I should've remembered to lock that too. He closed the door behind him and crossed his arms while looking at me. We stood there for a second. I glanced at the kitchen entrance and made a run for it. He beat me to it, taking my hand and leading me to the basement. He locked the door.
"Jake! I don't like being in basements! I'm scared, open this damn door!"
