I gave him a look. He looked at me.
"Why are you so nice to me?" I narrowed my eyes at him.
"Because I love you." He straight faced. "And I mean it." I moved my hand and started rubbing my arm. He looked bothered. It hurts me that it bothers me when he's bothered. Why should I care.
"You okay?..." I asked, not knowing what else to say. He nodded. "I'm just tired.." he told me.
"......."
"I really want you to kiss me right now, Jay." He face palmed. I frowned a little. "....."
"Can you please tell me how you feel?" He asked.
"I can't... to be honest, I don't even know how I feel." I admitted.
"Do you like me?" He asked.
I fumbled with my ring and let out a shaky exhale. "Yes."
"Are you afraid of me?" he asked, now looking at me.
"When you're violent..."
He stayed quiet. I stayed quiet. He got up and walked to the door. When he opened it, the boys caught their balance and smiled politely, then dashed into the living room. Jake looked at me and closed the door, leaving me in the room alone. Windows boarded, ac blowing. I turned the light off and got underneath the covers and thought about my situation. Maybe I don't like him. Maybe I'm just sexually attracted to him. Yeah. That's it. The bad things that he's done to me started slowly turning into sweet things in my mind. Then dirty things. It was dark and he had made me horny without even being there anymore. 😐
I closed my eyes and shifted on the bed to get comfortable. I had always thought about how weird and nasty masturbating was... but shit, it wouldn't hurt to get myself together once I suppose. 😳
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