Heroes Need Saving Too (BNHAxReader)

Chapter 70: I'm awake

"Four days." Aizawa answered.

"That was longer than usual." I said in a calm manner.

"Y/N..." Aizawa started, sounding troubled, "...why?"

I was silent for the longest time. "I...I didn't want to be here any-"

"Does it have to do with that case?" Yamada cut me off to ask.

I paused, not sure what to say. "Partially." I said quietly, sounding defeated.

"Y/N, you really have to tell us what happened and why you don't want to do it. I'm sorry if it's too soon, but we need to know; and if it will help with the case, I really do think you could save more children if you say it now rather than hold onto it." Aizawa said, trying to get me to explain my actions.

"Sho, shouldn't we give her some time considering what all happened?" Yamada said quietly to Aizawa.

I stared at the ceiling, afraid to see their expressions, "You found my note...didn't you."

I heard Aizawa spin around on the stool so he was facing the other way, which made me look over to them. I was correct; Aizawa now had his back to me and was slightly slouched over while Yamada had his hand in Aizawa's as he looked down. I looked back at the ceiling.

'Fuck! Why! Why did it have to be them! Why couldn't it have been some lost wanderer who found me. Seriously, I was in a huge ass prairie, and yet they were able to find me.'

You mess things up so much that you can't even kill yourself correctly or find a decent enough place to end it all.

'No shit, Sherlock!'

"I found you." Yamada said solemnly. I looked over to him and saw that he had his head up so he was looking at me. "Sho and I split up to cover more ground as we looked for you. When I found you, I had to prepare myself to call Sho and tell him that I found you. When he answered, I could tell that he was excited to see that I had found you...I didn't want to break his heart over the phone, so I tried to sound as calm as I could." He paused and looked up for a minute, then looked back to me. "As I waited there, I thought about how fast someone could become nothing within a split second...how humanity could tear a person apart to the point that they start to tear themselves apart too...how fragile people really are even though they can be the toughest person that you know...how dark the world truly is."

I started to get this feeling in my throat as if I was being choked. "D-don't say that...it-it's..." I stopped talking to try and piece my thoughts into words.

Sounding stuffed, Aizawa said, "In class yesterday, I realized that no one asked me about your whereabouts. It made me think of a sentence from your note; that you didn't want people to think of you being gone as in passed away, you rather wanted them to think of it as you being gone as in on patrol...it pained me that they're used to you being gone so much that they don't bother to ask me about you."

"I..." I closed my eyes tight.

"Y/N, please don't do this ever again." Yamada begged as he leaned forwards.

That same feeling of being choked up came back. "I won't." There was silence for a while before I asked, "How did you guys know to find me there?"

"The painting." Yamada said.

Aizawa then explained why it was about that. "The painting reminded me of how you wanted to build a house in that field and look at its view until you died. That made me realize that you must have gone there."

"Damn painting, I knew I should have thrown it out." I muttered to myself.

"Why? It's quite beautiful. You have a talent in painting and in so many other categories." Yamada said.

"I didn't want to be found and I didn't want to wake up, that's why I tried to erase my own quirks, but I messed that up too." I said, sounding disappointed in myself.

Aizawa turned back around on the stool, "Think how the media would have reacted."

"Who cares, they're always up my ass and pestering me about something. I wish I wasn't a hero already at times." I said, admitting something that I truly felt.

Aizawa stood up and walked closer to me. "Think about all of the people that you have saved, all of the families that you've kept together. You are preventing those from the same pain of how you feel. I don't know any other hero who is as brave, selfless, and caring as you are." he said in a very serious tone.

I looked away from him as I said, "I'm sorry for being such a waste of time and a burden with all of this."

"You did something that was triggered because of your past and you took the opportunity to carry out something that you weren't able to finish. I have tried before too, except mine wasn't an easy comeback like your's is." Aizawa admitted. "I want you to know that you really are someone who is inspirational to those who also have a bad past. I may not know your whole past and all of its events, but I do know that through all of that, a magnificent person was formed through all of the pain." I looked over to him, clearly showing him that I was fighting back tears. He crouched down so he was near level with my bed and rubbed my shoulder, causing me to look away from them as tears started to uncontrollably fall.

"We won't pester you about the case, you can tell us when you're ready. Just please, know that you are needed and wanted." Yamada said as he stood up.

Aizawa chuckled, "Nezu told me that you said to him that you think of us as a family."

'Ahh fuck, now he's going to say that he thinks that it's a bunch of bull shit.'

"We too think of you as a part of our little family; you do belong somewhere, and that is here." Aizawa said with a smile.

I clenched my eyes shut, trying to stop the tears. Who knew that such a happy moment for me could have sprouted from something that could have changed everything.