Heroes Need Saving Too (BNHAxReader)

Chapter 105: I'm sorry

I woke up the next morning with more strength than what I had imagined I would. I got out of bed, stumbled about for a few paces before getting it under control and going down to the bathroom to get ready for school. Just as I made it to the sofa down in the living room, the both of them just walked out of their room. I stood up and turned around to walk to the door.

"You're going to stay home today." Aizawa said.

I disagreed, "I strangely have enough strength, so I think I'll be just fine."

"You are going to stay home today." he repeated sternly.

"But I don't feel like I usually do. I'm not weak, I'm able to walk around and do other things like normal, so I'm sure I will do alright." I said, justifying that I am in good enough shape that I can attend school.

He thought about it as Yamada finished up in the kitchen, "Fine, but you better not fall asleep in class or else I'm going to send you straight back here. Got it?" he said with a little anger in his voice.

"Yes, sir." I said quietly.

I went to the door, put on my shoes, and left the apartment to sit out on the stoop with my bag as I waited for them to come out.

'They're already pissed at me and I haven't even been back here for that long. I'm such a disappointment. Why must I be one?'

I don't know, maybe you're just that stupid and don't think things through? Maybe your solution to everything is to kill yourself? Maybe you are just that much of a horrible human that you just think about yourself all the time and not about those around you?

'But you keep on telling me to kill myself.'

Doesn't mean you should listen to me.

'You're my inner voice that I don't control. How am I supposed to not listen to you?'

I don't know, it's your problem though, not mine.

'...'

Anyways, back to what you were saying earlier; (ahem), kill yourself as a way of saying sorry. You won't have to cause pain to others; just this once though.

'...But if I keep on trying to do that and I end up failing, aren't I just causing more and more pain each time I fail? I mean, ever since I got back the other day they have been, like, angry at me...I have angered them...it's going to turn out to be like that dream I had...'

That dream will happen if you keep on failing! Do it right for once and that worry will be over.

'But no matter how many times I try and I think it will be the last time, it just won't work.'

*Sigh* Just...just leave it to me. I'll figure something out.

'If you say so.'

I then heard the doorknob turn, so I stood up and dusted my pants off as they walked out of the apartment. I looked down at the concrete steps as they slid past me before I followed behind them to the car. I sat behind the passenger seat, which was unusual since I tend to sit in the middle of the back seat, but since I knew that they were angry at me I knew that I should try and hide behind a seat. When we rolled up to a stop sign, Yamada put a little bento box on the center console.

"Here, take it and have it for lunch." Yamada said as we turned onto a busier road.

I took it as I said, "Thank you."

I held onto the boxed lunch as I started out the window. After holding onto the box for a few minutes, I looked down to it and noticed that it was a new one. The one that I was usually given was a sky blue with white dots and a smaller dark blue within the white dots. If you were to glance at it you'd think that it was a flower pattern, though it wasn't. This one that I was holding onto was prettier than the one that I have used for so long. The bottom was black while the lid was a pastel pink with cherry blossoms on it, colored in white and darker pink. As I looked at it, I noticed that the lid had hinges on it and a flap on the other side. I opened the compartment and found that it held a fork, a spoon, and a pair of chopsticks that were a complimenting color to the box; a pastel pink with the handle half in gold. I began to wonder where it came from since I never owned a bento box of my own. I mean, I knew that Aizawa and Yamada must have gotten it; but why though? They're mad at me, so why should they get me something like that? I was also fine with the blue one that I had been using, so what was the purpose of getting a new one?