Heroes Need Saving Too (BNHAxReader)

Chapter 52: Everything's my fault

I walked to the nearest mall and walked around for a little bit. I found some cool things that I wanted to get but they were a little too spendy. I found some clothes that were on sale though. I got two more hoodies. One was ramen themed while the other was black and covered in pink cat paws. On the way home I started to feel even better as if my mental state was getting better. I think that Midoriya's mental state that I obtained was wearing off; I just hope that it wasn't going back to him.

When I got back to the apartment my phone buzzed as soon as I unlocked the door. I pulled it out of my pocket as I opened the door.

Aizawa: Where are you?

I didn't text back since I was now in the apartment. I quietly closed the door and took off my shoes. I walked in and saw them standing by the table with both of them looking at their phones.

"I'm right here." I said with a slight smile.

With worry receding from his voice, Aizawa asked, "Where did you go?"

"I went for a walk and found myself at the mall in the end. I got two hoodies." I finished as I held up the bag that carried both of my hoodies.

"At least she's feeling better, Sho, that's all that matters." Yamada said to Aizawa.

I could tell that Aizawa was angry at me for some reason, "Don't go off like that again. What if that figure came back and took you? Hmm?! You still aren't in the best of shape; you still look a little paler than usual. You could have gotten hurt!" With him starting to yell at me, I started to walk backwards ever so slowly; a slow single step at a time. I put my hands that were balled up into fists up towards my chest as if I was trying to protect myself from someone hitting me. He still continued reprimanding me, "Then asking if you could go to class? No, I'm not going to let you go to class and sleep! Stay here at the apartment if you aren't feeling well! Also, don't go out if you aren't feeling well! You could have-"

Yamada tried to stop him by saying calmly and putting his hand on Aizawa's shoulder, "Sho, calm down. Look at her...stop."

With him yelling, which was very unnatural of him, he triggered this memory of mine which made me view him as my father. Out of reflexes, I was backing up and putting my arms up so then I could protect myself if he started to hit me. I truly thought of my father when he was yelling at me.

Aizawa stopped when he heard Yamada say 'look at her...'. He looked at me and saw how I was reacting. His expression went from near rage to being sorry. He took a step towards me with his hand out as he said, "Y/N, I'm so sorry." I took a step back as he took one towards me. He stopped moving, then said, "I-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have raised my voice."

I took more slow steps backwards in the direction of the hall as I said, "N-no, it's fine...it-it's my fault. I sh-shouldn't have gone out on my own w-without telling you guys; especially if-f I'm not feeling a hundred percent."

"Y/N..." Aizawa said with regret in his voice.

I kept walking backwards, "It's f-fine. I l-learned m-my lesson." Once I went in the entrance of the hallway, I turned around and walked to my room. Once I closed the door, I had a panic attack. When I finished my panic attack, I found myself curled up in the corner.

'Man, I haven't had one of those that bad in a long time.'

I stood up and gathered the rest of my composure as I was standing by the door. After I felt I was ready, I opened it and walked out and down to the living-room where Aizawa and Yamada were sitting on the sofa. When I got closer to them I heard that Aizawa was beating himself up.

"It's not your fault. It was mine, I should have known better than to go off. I'm sorry." I said as I got closer to the sofa.

"No, Y/N, I shouldn't have blown up over nothing." Aizawa said, "I'm not having the best day today. I'm sorry."

"It's fine." I paused, looked down, then back up to them, "So, what did they do in class today? What do I have to make up?"

Aizawa looked up as if he was thinking what they did, "We went over more skills, there was a test and they had time to work on that paper. I suppose you have to make up that test, which you can make up during their work time tomorrow since they are getting one more day to work on their paper; I imagine that you already finished it."

I nodded my head, "Yeah, I finished it."

"Then you have nothing to worry about. Go to your room and relax until tomorrow; and go to sleep early tonight too." Aizawa said.

"Yes, sir." I said, accepting the order.

I then walked to my room and watched TV. I couldn't find anything that tickled my fancy, so I just watched mindless things until I felt tired enough that I could go to bed.