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XXXIV - Thirty four

•Duri•

It was another day of school, I could've just stayed home but it was like the devil was staring down at me. Maybe I was becoming crazy, I honestly wasn't sure. I could easily lie to my dad like I did yesterday but I didn't have the guts to do it again. Picking up the pace I kept my head tilted down and walked onto the school's campus, I felt eyes wander to me. I didn't stop trembling from the first step I took out of my house. Lifting my head a bit and I tapped my fingertips on my thigh grabbing my backpack strap with my free hand. "It's Duri, they say he and JaeBum had sex or sum'.", I shudder, my mind racing without any doubt that this was real. They knew a truth that was heavily sugarcoated. I felt my eyes water but I don't cry, looking around myself to avoid the stares I got but before I could do anything a hand grasped my arm.
I look up expecting it to be anybody, anybody but JaeBum who glares down at me. I felt my heart break through my ribs and scratch my skin. I couldn't speak a word and before anyone could see the person who wore a black mask he dragged me, turning around to face the school his pace started to go fast. I didn't say anything and before I could even choke out a "wait" I started to sob continuously, it was going too fast again and losing track of time started to be my biggest fear. "What's your problem?!" He shouts in a whisper till we reach a place that wasn't populated, it was a small alleyway that had nothing of noise. He turns me to face him, holding my shoulders tightly, I wince. He took off his mask and yelled, "You told him didn't you?! - no, of course, you did! Stupid bitch!" Spitting with no regret, his eyes dark with a pointed glare that hurt to look into. "You know what I said if you tell anyone, right?!"
I hesitate to do anything. Holding my breath as anxiety ate me up till I was a small crumb, he groans and rolls his eyes. "I-I'm s-", "That wasn't the fucking answer!" My body twitches and I try to pull back but the more I do JaeBum's grip gets tighter and tighter. "I was going to expose you. I swear to fucking god I was going to fuck up your life but you had to play the reverse card, didn't you?", I didn't have an answer for that, biting my quivering lip hard enough it'll bleed I didn't expect his hands to let go of me and suddenly hit me. Stumbling on my feet I tried taking my balance back but my backpack made it hard. "What are you going to do? Nothing right? So shut the fuck up next time!" I could hear him get closer, pulling my arms in front of me to defend myself he stops. It makes me worried. I look up from my arms and saw as he stared at them with a blank expression and sudden he speaks up, "Was it that bad you slit your wrists? Yeah okay, you're just taking it too far." My eyes widened, I looked at my arms and quickly flipped them to my sides.
"I-I...", I stutter but it was no use to argue about something I did. I let my head fall onto the ground hearing a spitting noise come from in front of me, I could feel my bangs get suddenly heavy on my forehead. My hand reaches for my hair and I felt a warm, wet liquid. My eyes started to get watery and I started to feel tears run down my cheeks, "I-I-it's my fault... I-I'm so sorry..." I gave out a heavy, suffocating sigh, I could hear him scoff and step away, "Bye.", Maybe he whispered something else under his breath but I didn't really want to care. Before I knew it I rubbed my tears away and sniffled up my stuffy nose, and grabbed my phone, starting to text Yugyeom quickly.

Pick me up, I'll wait for you at your studio.

I shoved my phone into my pocket and kept my head low, I began to walk further and further down the street trying to remember the streets I passed to get to the dance studio, the first time I went. Every now and then I rubbed my eyes harshly hoping my crying has ended and hoping my cheek didn't bruise up quickly although it was a painful hit.
I heard my phone buzz but I don't answer it. Forcing my legs forward I finally stopped at a big white building that had the big words, Kim.Y dance studio, I felt relief stir me as I sat onto the steps and exhaustion hit me straight in the face. I sat there silently waiting for Yugyeom to come, closing my eyes I didn't think someone will sudden wrap their arms around me. Jolting from his grip I tried pushing him off me, my eyes going wide and my body started to get shaky like before, "S-Sorry!" I heard Yugyeom's childlike voice squeal and let me go.
We stare at each other, a long glaze between him and I. He doesn't speak while we look at each other, in the eye. His brown pupils burning worry into mine till he looks over my face, his eyes widen and he grabs my shoulders lightly but it doesn't stop me from trembling under his touch. Maybe he let go but I was over that. "What happened to your face?!", Worry coating his tone, "Nothing really...", I try to play it off but it's like he could see right through me, or maybe the words were written onto my forehead. His gaze stung, "Duri, what happened?", this time more serious, "Just want to hang out...-", "That explains the bruise on your cheek?", I've never heard Yugyeom speak with such seriousness, he tapped his foot onto the ground as he fiddled with his hands, "Someone pushed by me and their bag hit me.", "You aren't lying right?", "Yup.", I couldn't tell the truth, he was like a baby I couldn't tell him what death was. "Can we hug?"
His question struck me like lightning, I watched as his arms moved near me as if I said yes but I hold his arms in place, his face close to mine, his breath caressing my face, I don't think I was thinking at all when I did this. I lean in close his skin near my lips, it felt hot all a sudden. Bliss washing over me, I leaned closer till my lips touched him. I heard his breath hitch and so does mine, we both were about to pull back but it was like we were chained together.

To be continued.....