Nowhere

XIII - Thirteen

•Duri•

I sat there silently. My hand fiddling with my shirt as Yugyeom was out getting us food. But I tried to deny, I wasn't hungry, my body hurt again and everything was just getting worse. JaeBum was inside my home. He had sex with my frozen body and left until he left, I guess I 'woke up' and started to take everything in. I should've told Yugyeom but then fear just swallowed me whole. I backed into my couch and started to breathe in and out with some kind of belief that everything will be okay... everything was going so quickly it was hard to piece out what was going on. I rubbed my eyes with my sleeves seeing a tickling feeling run down my cheek. Maybe trying to get over it didn't help. People did drugs and hurt themselves when something bad happened. It was just something they turned to right? It wouldn't be a problem if I did the same... right? But I couldn't get up. I didn't want to. I chewed on my lip a bit thinking of what to do. But it wasn't long till my vision was covered in black. My body soon just relaxed and tears slipped down my face without an end to it. I let it happen this time. I didn't put up a fight,
I didn't do anything.
"I'm back~" I jumped up, Opening my eyes and looking towards the front door, Yugyeom stood there with bags of food and drinks in his other hand. He frowned when he caught my eyes in his gaze. "Hey... what happened when I was gone?" He questioned, I didn't want to answer his stupid questions again, it was always the same thing. "Nothing." But when I looked at him thinking he was going to drop it like always he just hurried to my side like best friends and placed the things on the coffee table. I started to cry, I punched him on his arm and pushed him away but all he did was move a few inches from me. "U-ugh...- d-d-does it look like I'm c-c-comfortable w-with you?!", I said the same excuse again. 'We aren't friend', 'We don't know each other' but it was true. I didn't know his middle name, I didn't know his favorite color but then again I never told him mine. I felt like a kid. "Fine."
He sighs.
"I'm Yugyeom Kim. I like the colors Yellow and black although my room is red and black. I don't have pets, though I really want one. I'm taller than my older brother, I like making people happy. I have pretty much mean friends but they think I fit in perfectly. When I was a kid I loved to dance and now I do. I can sing, I'm pretty bad at English. I think I have a crush on someone. I like to hang out. People think I do drugs since I'm so 'high up there' but I don't, I'm very against it. My parents are rarely home but it's okay. I'm a very bubbly person, I like meeting new people, I embarrass myself every day. I'm into guys but I guess I had feelings for one girl way back when. I have an ideal type but I guess it doesn't count for the person I like.." I blushed, he actually told me almost everything. I sighed, "Maybe one day." Is all I answer with. He smiled, "That's better, how about you? Like normal stuff I guess." I looked at him for a moment, it felt like being on a date or something. "I'm... Duri Jun. I like any color as long as it looks good on my clothes... " I mutter. "I don't like a lot of people because they are loud... I just don't want to be around a lot of people. It's overwhelming. I um never dated anyone so I never thought of my sexuality. I think I'm straight- but I'm not sure. My dad works a lot and loves to talk about school."
And it continued. It felt nice to be listened to. I felt my heart soon pace its normal way and my breathing turned easy. "Oh... I-I remember this time when I was a kid... I was walking to school and these middle schoolers thought of picking up a fight with a fifth grader. So I got jumped for standing for the little boy. It didn't hurt though, they didn't punch hard but they left a few cuts because of their rings..." I told him, Yugyeom frowned, "Assholes..", I nodded, "It's cool." Yugyeom gave out a sigh as he grabbed the packed food and gave me a plastic plate, "You have no idea how much I was in a rush to not get caught in public," he smiled, maybe I did the same but I don't really know. My eyes wandered onto the food that was warm and looked pretty good but I wasn't hungry. I looked at him with a soft gaze, "Good thing your stuttering stopped." I agreed with a small giggle, "Yeah..." but then he grabbed a plastic fork and sat next to me, sitting another fork onto my hand. "Eat up okay?" I gave out a sigh, "I'm not hungry.." he looks at me and points at my food, "But you need to eat. It's for
your health."
I roll my eyes, "health my ass..." I mutter, 'health' was bullshit. At least for now, it was. I throw the fork onto the food and curl up in a small ball with my knees to my chest, "Oh c'mon!" Yugyeom said with food in his mouth, "If you won't eat than just save it for later-", "I'm not gonna eat later either.", "Are you serious, Duri?" How he said my name... it made my heart flutter, I looked away and gave out a pout, "I'm sure.", Is all I respond with but it wasn't over, apparently before I could lay down he grabbed my fork and caught a few pieces of food slowly making it's a way to my mouth, "Just open your mouth.", "this is embarrassing..." I say but he only chuckles, I slowly open my mouth and eat the food. It tasted good, the chicken was juicy while the rice had a good, sticky texture to it. I swallowed it and saw as he smiled, "Tasty right?" I didn't want to respond but I nodded and felt my stomach rumble for more. "Ah! So you're actually hungry!"
"I guess..."

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It all felt so warm with him. Like nothing was going to happen if I was with him. I wanted to feel like this but the pain that ran through my body was uncomfortable, I wanted it to go away but nothing really worked. Eating food with someone who was the complete opposite of me felt chill. It felt like I was released from everything but it didn't last long till I had a quick realization of why he was here. Because I was just raped and I called him over. It made my nerves twist. I stared at my food, acting as if I were fine will let me survive for a while longer.

To be continued.....