'The pain, oh god, so much pain' i thought as i felt like i was drowning from my own sadness. My sadness is overwhelming, i guess i shouldn't have hold it in for as long as i did. My sadness that I've had since before my parents death, before my older sister's death. The sad pain of loneliness, I've never really had friends of any age when i was young. They all thought i was strange or that i was kind of a demon or something. I never really understood why parent's would look the other way when i was bullied, or when i got hurt. They always pulled their children away from me, glaring at me. I never really understood since i was too young to understand anything like that. All i knew was that i was hated, but i didn't know why. I mean why hate a five year old? I felt isolated, trapped in my own despair. 'I couldn't get out' i realized. So why bother trying when all i get was hateful looks? Why bother trying when i could get hurt trying? Why should i try and make friends when i could get hurt and Betrayed? No thank you, that would probably hurt me even more. I'm tired of all the pain i feel, why can't i just be happy for once in my life? I can feel the overwhelming pain of suffering dragging me. It felt like i was suffocating, like drowning and never being able to brake free from this everlasting prison of agony. Why can't i just be free? Not being dragged and suffocate would be nice. I'm lost in my own despair.
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who is karma
FanfictionOne day a new girl went to kunugigaoka junior high, and went to E class. karma almost immediately found out her intentions on killing everyone in his class. Later after school contorted her and she tried to kill him. He ran to warn the others, prete...