Lost Without YUZHOU

It's Okay Now

"Tell me now..."

"It's not that big but you can't be stressed so..."

"Just tell me...."

"ZhouZhou you see I can't just tell...."

"JUST FUCKING TELL ME!!!" Wei Zhou can't hold his anger anymore. He knows why Chen Wen was stalling but he desperately wanted to know what happened.

"Ok.... Listen Chen Wen! If you don't tell me, I will leave this hospital and find out for myself!" Wei Zhou looked at Chen Wen seriously and he also knows Wei Zhou would never bluff like that.

"Ok ok....Feng, give him the pictures."

"But what about the...."

"Trust me. If you don't give it to him he will just get himself hurt again trying to steal it from you." Feng Song looked at Chen Wen and Wei Zhou hesitantly. But he trusted Chen Wen and he knows Wei Zhou would do exactly that, so he slowly handed the pictures in his hand to Wei Zhou.

Wei Zhou felt everything crumble right in front of him. The pictures in his hands were the reason why Jingyu got mad at him. He felt a wave of anger, frustration, sorrow and a hint of guilt just by looking at it.

The pictures where all telling the same story and this time he doesn't blame Jingyu for getting angry at him. He felt like his insides were eating him. He can't stomach the feeling of anger and disgust that's been on his mind.

"Wei Zhou.... I know that...." Chen Wen slowly reached out to touch Wei Zhou's shoulders to comfort him but Wei Zhou flinched just by the tips of Chen Wen's finger touching him.

"Leave me...." Wei Zhou spoke with such sorrow in his voice. He didn't bother to even look at them. He simply stared at the pictures scattered in front of him.

"Wei Zhou it's..."

"WenWen, just give him time...." Feng Song spoke softly looking at Chen Wen with worry. Wei Zhou can't help but feel his heart ache when he heard how Feng Song spoke to Chen Wen.

"We'll buy some food for you when we get back...." Chen Wen gently stated still looking worried because he felt like the Wei Zhou in front of him looked like a different person. It was a very strange sight to see because this was the first time he ever saw Wei Zhou looking so broken and yet he had the feeling that this was real Wei Zhou he had been hiding for so long.

When Wei Zhou heard the door closed he felt everything finally sunk in....

Why did this happen....

Why didn't I know....

Why can't I remember....

Why didn't I wake up....

I fucking ruined everything....

If only I woke up....

If only I didn't sleep....

If only I had known....

It was my fault....