BETTER-HALF( ARDHANGINI)

LOVE HIM OR HATE HIM??

Riddhima's POV

My heart feels heavy. Really heavy. His every word,every taunt Pierce my heart. But he seems unnoticeable. And now this baby thing is making me hurt more.

I got down from the car as soon as he halt it in the parking and went inside thinking he is coming in. I waited for him on the door for sometime then walked out again.

He was standing in the parking with Rahul bhai and glaring as I heard,"jab zindagi ki laat padti hai toh wo Kahi ek se nahi balki har jagah se padti hai.." He held Bhai's t-shirt's collar and fold it again,"aur jitna dard is bat ka hai ki Riddhima me mujhe dhoka diya usse Kahi jyada dukh is baat ka hai ki tune mujhe dhoka diya. In fact hum sab ko.."

It hurts. Why he thinks I am still cheating on him. Can't he see my love. My pain?

And wait,what did bhai did?

How come he cheated on Armaan?

He left bhai and glared at him,"afsos hota hai uss din par jab tujhe maa us orphanage cum boarding school se ghar lai thi qki tu mera best friend tha aur maa ko laga ki tujhe ek parivaar ki jarurat hai. Tu toh RK se bhi jyada kamina nikla.. Usne toh bas paiso se khela tha,tune toh humare dilo ke sath khel khela hai.."

What the hell? Is he out of his mind?

And who the hell is this RK? I have heard this name before, too.

He is not the Armaan I love. My Armaan was loving, caring, possessive and what not,which this man in front of me is not.

He is ruthless, arrogant and heartless.

Did I made him this?

Of course I did.

It makes my heart bleed.

He turn and walked away from bhai and came towards me but stopped and turn to him,"kaash tu samjh pata Rahul ki meri zindagi me Teri kya ehmiyat hai,kaash"

Ohh God. What does he want? People to hate him or people to love him?

He loves our baby and he hates me as he thinks I killed our baby. I don't know if I should love him for loving my baby this much or should I hate him to think that I killed our baby.

And looking at Rahul bhai,he looks hurt yet he has smile on his face.

Hate him or love him? He must be thinking the same.

Armaan walked towards me and stopped as he looked at my wide Eyes. He looked at me glaring as if asking what I am doing there.

Well,hubby dear. The parking lot doesn't belong to you alone.

"You know what Armaan" I glared at at him,"tumhe apne alawa kisi aur ka dard dikhta hi nahi. Apne dard aur takleef me itna gum ho ki tum kya kar rh ho ye tumhe pata bhi nahi hai. Har kisi ki feelings ko hurt kiye jaa rh ho" I paused and look at Rahul bhai who stood behind Armaan with his head down. I look back at him,"mujhe blame karte ho na har kisi se dur ho Jane ke liye. Tumhe lagta hai na ki Maine tumse tumhare apne cheen liye. Well,flash the light Mr Armaan Mallik. You're the only hole and sole responsible person for that. Koi tumse dur nahi jaa raha hai. Tum khud sabko apne se dur kar rh ho. Aur dusro ko takleef de rh ho.." I glared Him really hard while his eyes were firing angrily.

He walked closed to me,really close and my heart skipped a beat. All the anger I was showing flew in the thin air between us and he held my wrist and folded it behind my back.

I banged myself on his hard chest as he held my hand making me winch but he didn't care to loosen his thigh grip over my wrist,"dard? Takleef? Matlab janti ho insab hai? Tumhe kis chiz ka dard hai haa? Tumhe kisne dhoka diya? Tumhare dost ne jise tum apna bhai manti ho ya tumhare Pati ne jiski sari gandi chal ko uski nadaniya soch ke tum maaf karti aai ho? Bolo na kisne dhoka diya hai tumhe Riddhima? Kisi ko sachhe dil se chaha hai tumne? aur tumhare pyar ko kisi kone me band kar ke kya usne tumhe dhoka diya hai? Ya apne bhai jaise dost ki zindagi narak ban rhi hai usne tumse bate chupai hai? Kya tumhari Behan ki zindagi barbad hone pe hai aur ye jante hue bhi tum Kuch nahi kar paa rh ho? Bolo na Riddhima...kya ho rh hai tumhare sath? Kis chiz ka dard hai tumhe?" His voice choke as his eyes filled with tears. He left my hand and laced his long fingers in his hair, "roj sochta hu ki aisa kya karu jisse ye sab khatam Ho jaye? Apne ap ko khatam kar lu ya Kahi dur chala jau? Lekin maa ka kya hoga? Muskaan ko jab sach pata chalega to wo kaise react karegi? Kya beetegi uspe? Agar mai bhi nahi raha toh kaise sambhalegi wo khud ko?"