Him ; J.D.

Chapter Fivë: Tears and A Drummer

"W-what?" She asked. Zoey and Lily were huge fans of tøp but Zoey had never paid much attention to what they look like. She saw them once on some article years ago. The rest they had masks on. "You're lying." Zoey pushed her. "No I'm not!!" Lily pulled up google images and searched for "josh dun". She showed Zoey and she nearly passed out. "Oh my god. I-i had no idea. H-he's really in my living room?" Zoey sat on top of the counter. "Yes! Go talk to him!" Lily pushed her out.

"Sorry about that." Zoey said walking over to Josh. "It's alright" he laughed. "He's just a guy. He's the same guy you met." Zoey thought. "So wanna get back to the show?" She asked. "Yeah. Sure." He smiled. They sat back down and Zoey unpaused the show. Josh looked over at Zoe. He noticed her playing with her fingers. "He's also one of the guys who saved your life." "Zoe, areee you ok?" Josh looked concerned. "Yeah yeah I'm sorry." She was quiet. "He's just a guy." Zoey smiled. "Hey Josh?" "Yep?" "You wanna go get something to eat?" "This late?" He chuckled. "Why not? Just you and me. Like an adventure." She smiled. "Adventure huh? Come on. I know where to go." Josh grabbed her hand and pulled her to the door smiling. "Go grab a jacket incase it's cold and anything else you need. I'll be here waiting." "Alright" she laughed and ran upstairs. 5 minutes later Zoey came down with her grey jacket and zipped it up. "Kay, i'm ready." She smiled. Lily walked into the living room and winked at her mouthing "good luck girl". Zoey rolled her eyes and smiled. Josh grabbed her hand and they left.

In the car
"So where to Spooky?" She patted her leg. "To eat and then a surprise." He smiled. "Alrighty jishwa." "Jishwa?" He laughed. "Yep. I have an endless amount of names I can call you." She stuck her tongue out. Josh did it back as he paid attention to the road. "Where's your cell?" He asked. "In my pocket, why?" She asked curiously. "Plug that cord into your headphone slot." He made a turn. "Why?" She laughed. "Because you got to listen to what I like last night. Now I wanna know what you like." He smiled. "You're a dork but alright." She plugged it in and put her music on shuffle. Girls/girls/boys by Panic! At The Disco starting playing. "Nice, you like them too." He smiled at her. "Why of course." She started drumming on her legs to the beat as Josh was tapping the steering wheel to the beat. He noticed her doing it and smirked. "So you like drumming?" He asked. "Yeah I think it's cool." She smiled. "Plus I can't stay still." They both laughed. "Sick." Josh smiled the way he does where he bites his tongue. Before you know it they were both singing to the song. "Girls love girls and boys! And never did I think that I, would be caught in the way you got me!" They sang. "But girls love girls and boys!" They pointed at each other. "Love is not a choice." They finished. "Good music taste so far." Josh laughed. Zoey smiled and then the next song came on. Migraine by twenty-one pilots.

Josh looked surprised and Zoey blushed. "Oh sick! I love twenty-one pilots." Josh exclaimed excitedly. "You don't say" Zoey laughed. "I love them too. " "So when did you find out who I was?" Josh laughed. "Lily." She looked away. "So your never knew what I looked like?" Josh asked. "Nope. I only saw you both once and that was so long ago. I'm sorry I didn't recognize you sooner." "Why are you sorry?" He laughed. "I think its pretty cool you like me." He blushed. "W-wait! I mean like the band, my band, cause I drum and all and me and" his face went red as he tightened his grip on the steering wheel. Zoey put her hand on his shoulder. "Well I do like drummers." She laughed immediately regretting what she just said. "Oh really? Well lucky for you I am one." He smirked. Zoey blushed. "Were here." Josh parked the car. "Oh how you know me so well." Zoey laughed. They got out to walk inside Taco Bell.

As they sat down eating, Josh couldn't help but think about her sketchbook again. It bothered him alot. He barely knew Zoey but felt like he has for years. He couldn't stand the thought of her being in pain. "Z-zoey?" "Yeah what's up?" She swallowed. "I have to be honest with you..." Josh started. The smile on her face slowly faded. He took a deep breath. "I looked in your sketchbook." He was quiet then smiled. "You're really talented." "T-thank you." Zoey looked down. Josh grabbed her hand and held it with one hand and put his other on top. "I saw the other drawings too" they were both quiet for a minute. "I want yo-" "Josh dont-" "Zoey. I want you to know I'm here for you." He held her hand tighter. "Are you ok?" He asked Zoey looked down and then back at Josh. She could see his face. His genuine concern. His genuine care for her. It reminded her of...him. Zoey looked into Josh's eyes. She felt...safe... "Zoey? You don't have to talk to me if you don't want. I understand, but I'll always be here for you." And just like that she couldn't hold it in anymore. She started crying and Josh immediately got up and went to her side of the booth. He hugged her tightly and just held her. "I'm sorry. I'm...not okay. I'm just going through alot. Please don't say anything to Lily! She doesn't know. I don't wanna burden her-" Josh grabbed her chin and gently lifted her head up so they made eye contact. "I promise I won't say anything but I dont ever wanna hear you say you're a burden. Ever again. You are not a burden. And so many people care for you. I care about you." He smiled and wiped her tears. "Let's pack up and go head to the surprise. " He hugged her one more time. He got up and started wrapping her stuff for her. "Josh why do you care so much? You barely know me." She questioned. He smiled. "That's where you're wrong. Like, i don't know, it feels like I've known you for years. I've been through some tough times. I don't want you to feel like that." He grinned at her. "You're sick. Never forget that Zoe." She smiled at him. Zoey got up and hugged Josh tight. "Thank you Josh." He kissed her head. "Come on Zoe" he guided her to his car. As Josh opened the car door she brushed his arm by accident. It was like she was struck by this white light inside her. She sat down in the car and buckled up. Josh headed to his door and couldn't stop thinking about what he felt when she touched him. He pulled out of the parking spot and headed north. "I'm sorry i went through it. I know I shouldn't have. It's an invasion of privacy and all. I was just curious." Josh apologized. "It's all good in the hood." Zoey awkwardly laughed. "I can not believe I just said that what the fuck is wrong with me?" Josh eventually pulled up to his house. "Where are we?" Zoey asked getting out. "My place." Josh lifted up his arms. He unlocked the door and let her walk in, he shut the door and said "Welcome Welcome" and threw his keys on his couch. "Nice I like it" she chuckled. "Soooo what's the surprise Spooky?" "The surprise is in this room." He opened the door for Zoey to look in and saw Josh's drumset. "Your drums?" She looked puzzled. "Yeah. You talked about music and drums so I figured we could have a jam session or something." He sat on the drum stool. "Oh I can't play drums too well and I sound terrible at singing." Zoey tried to avoid. "Non sense. I can help you with drums and I heard you in the car, you sing great." He encouraged. "I don't know Josh" "listen there's a microphone right there for when Tyler comes over. Just give it a try? Please? For your taco buddy?" Josh made the puppy dog face. Zoey couldn't resist it and agreed. "What songs do you know by us?" Josh asked messing with the drumsticks. "All of them" "So pick one. You sing it and I'll drum it." He winked. "Uh ok..how about we start off nice I guess? House of Gold ok?" She asked. "Perfect." Josh played the song out loud on his speaker to help her feel more comfortable. And so she began. "She asked me: son when I grow old. Will you buy me a house of gold? And when your father turns to stone. Will you, take care, of me?" She continued. Getting more and more comfortable. Josh was astounded by her beautiful voice. He started to play. Getting more and more into the song, Josh could tell Zoey was smiling and she started rocking back and forth. They ended up doing more and he even convinced her to do heavydirtysoul which by his surprise, she rapped perfectly. Eventually Zoey had to go home and Josh dropped her off.

Josh couldn't stop thinking about how much fun he had. How she opened up to him. He was grateful. Josh plopped onto his bed after getting undressed. He scrolled through his contacts until he got to Zoey's name. A big grin came on and he pulled up her contact picture. Staring at the picture he couldn't get over how beautiful she was and how sweet. He wondered if she felt the same way...and then...he wondered what if she didn't...what if they would always be friends..Josh's smile left his face as he questioned all the what ifs. Eventually falling asleep to the thoughts of Zoey and the sound of Tyler yelling at Mario cart.