Heart Attack (a HeartStopper story)

Nick. Water.

Canción recomendada para el capítulo: Dress. - Reputation. - Taylor Swift.
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Disclaimer:

Warning about sexual scenes.

I think it's worth mentioning that in the next chapter there will be graphic, detailed and erotic descriptions of Nick and Charlie having different types and degrees of sexual relations. Although this is not uncommon in the fanfic world, I think it is important to make it clear that my intention is not to offend anyone or disrespect the original characters. In my fiction, Charlie and Nick are adults with every right to give their enthusiastic consent and enjoy their sexuality extensively. It is in my best interest to remove the taboo surrounding the flashy depiction of homosexual sex, as I feel it has historically been portrayed as depraved or vulgar. Sexuality is beautiful, important, and can be part of the art world if it is treated with affection, consent and enthusiastic affection and respect between the characters who share it.

In this particular chapter there's no sex, but it will come.

Now, if you don't want to read this content you don't have to, just skip those chapters. Heartstopper's focus on everything about love but the sexual act, and that is incredible and important, but I clarify that my intention will be to make several chapters of them exploring their sexuality, in varying degrees of intensity, as I believe this can be entertaining, beautiful and benign to remove the stigma and treat sex as the affectionate exchange of pleasure from a poetic and mutually caring side. Language is diverse and does not have to be vulgar. The use of words like penis, anus, orgasm, semen, masturbation, among others, has nothing wrong with it, and let's consider that my story is intended for adults only.

For a sincere world, without censorship or oppression, affectionate, and free of violence, where we can celebrate our sexuality openly and happily with the people we love and who love us.

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"How about I cook us something, we watch a movie... even if we don't watch anything at all... and you sleep here?"

Nick couldn't help but smile when he saw Charlie's response. Suddenly the weight of the situation fell on him and he understood that weeks of waiting, if not years, would come to an end that night. An immense amount of nerves made him tremble, as he finished setting up things in his office to stop working and go home to get everything ready.

He wanted it to happen, immensely, but it was true that the anxiety that invaded him in the forest was still there. The chemistry between the two of them had always been intense, effervescent... so much so that sometimes it overwhelmed him and the fear of doing something wrong, hurting him or ruining everything was too much. Besides, it had been a long time since he'd had sex with another man, and while that excited him, and more so with Charlie, he was afraid of being disappointing to him or looking awkward and weird in the process.

As he drove home he started listening to one of the many playlists Charlie had made for him, and an immense urge to see and feel him crushed him. He couldn't help but remember their first time together like that...how awkward and tender and pleasurable it was. They had both felt so much fear and had overcome it by the desire and love they felt.

It was still on his list of favorite nights, and forever would be.

But... years had passed. At that time they hadn't been with more people... and that had changed now. They had never had more experiences and evolved more... and that had changed now. Was Charlie hoping for something... different?, maybe a more daring and experienced Nick?