Eternally Yours

I'm so sorry

Chris
I stared at the ring and started crying. I said she actually hates me. Ricky said she hates all of us. We lied to her. How are you gonna fix this? I said I don't think I can fix this. I sat the ring on the table and said this sucks, the only woman I've ever wanted to marry just gave me her ring back. I called Damon.

Damon: yeah

Me: why the hell did you give me a ring you tried to get her to wear?

Damon: I forgot about that

Me: well she just broke up with me for good and I can't fix this

Damon: I'm sorry man

Me: whatever

Hung up
I threw my phone at the wall and screamed. Ryan said don't have a mental breakdown. I said I'm so upset right now. I went to my bunk and finished writing a song.

3 hours later
I haven't seen Emily and we we're getting ready to go on stage. She walked over. Ryan said there you are. Emily rolled her eyes. Ricky said Emily were so sorry. Emily said fuck you. The lights went out. Emily walked on stage. I said Jesus Christ. We walked on stage and started preforming disguise.

45 minutes later
I said I wanna play a new song I just finished writing today. The guys looked at me confused. Emily said uh how are we supposed to play it if we don't know the music. I said I'll just do vocals. Are you guys cool if I just do vocals? Everyone cheered. I said It's a new song off of our new album scoring the end of the world. I've been working on it for a while now and I hope you like it. It's called masterpiece.

All the stupid lies and the stupid games
Left a vacancy in this picture frame
A prisoner by my own hands
'Cause if I can't have me then no one can

I need to heal what I inflict
But I'll burn that bridge when I get to it
As I play roulette with a broken gun
I confess these sins with a sharp and spiteful tongue

I looked at Emily.

So how do I apologize
And put the tears back in your eyes?
When every canvas that I paint
Is a masterpiece made of my mistakes

Outlined in guilt, my portrait stares
In a gallery where the walls lie bare
As I modernize my antique ways
True colors can't escape the brush of fate

I walked over to her and stared at her.

So how do I apologize
And put the tears back in your eyes?
On every canvas that I paint
Is a masterpiece made of my mistakes

Illustrate all my pain
And set it all ablaze
Burn
And set it all ablaze

So how do I apologize
And put the tears back in your eyes?
When every canvas that I paint
Is a masterpiece of my mistakes

And in the light of my demise
I see my failures in your eyes
Every canvas that I paint
Is a masterpiece made of my mistakes

The fans were crying. I said goodnight everyone. We walked off stage. Emily ran to the bus. Vinny said damn did I teared up during that. I said well I've been working on it every time I upset her. Ryan said do you think that helped. I said I hope so. Can y'all give me 10 minutes alone with her. Ricky said of course. I ran to the bus. I heard Emily on the phone.

Emily: HOW COULD YOU OFFER TO DO THAT TO CHRIS?!

Emily: I DON'T CARE IF HE WANTED IT!

Emily: YOU MADE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE A MURDERER!

Emily: YOU TRAINED HIM DAMON! HE KILLED A 21 YEAR OLD A FEW DAYS AGO! YOU DIDN'T EVEN TEACH HIM COMPULSION! ALL HE KNOWS HOW TO DO IS DRINK BLOOD!

Emily: DON'T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN WHEN THE ONLY MAN IVE EVER LOVED IS A VAMPIRE!

Emily: When I get home I'm literally gonna kill you, Stefan and Elena

Emily screamed. I walked in and said Em can we please talk. Emily said the song was beautiful. I said thank you, I wrote it every time I hurt you and I finished it today. I held the ring up and said after you gave me this. I'm so sorry I did this because Damon told me I'd eventually kill you and that this is the only solution besides leaving you. I wouldn't be able to live without you. I just want to be with you forever. I know I shouldn't have gone behind your back. I didn't wanna scare you by telling you this. But for the past 2 months every time I look at you all I wanted to do was choke you to death and I just wanted the feeling of wanting you dead to go away. It sucked knowing that I'd eventually try to kill you. Emily I don't want to live without you. I know I really fucked up by doing this. If I could take it back I would. I'm so sorry I ruined your happy ending. I was about to cry. Emily held my face and said I'm gonna give you one more chance. If you fuck it up we are definitely done, I'm leaving the band and I won't talk to you again, got it? I hugged her and said got it. I kissed her. We made out. I sat on the couch and pulled her down on my lap. She said ahh! I laughed. She held my shoulders and said I could get used to this. I said oh really? She kissed my neck and said yeah. It's the only good thing about you being a vampire. I laughed and said was I not good before? She said you were but you'll be able to match my pain tolerance so I'm about to have fun. I kissed her and we made out. She took off my shirt. I took off hers and kissed her chest. The door open. Vinny said can y'all makeup without sex? I said nope. I gave her my shirt. She put it on and got off of my lap. She said I'm still mad that y'all lied to me. Ryan said we didn't wanna get involved. When Chris told us he was gonna do it-. Emily said you consulted with them. I'm sorry I love y'all but them. I said they tried to talk me out of it. But like I said I didn't want to attempt to kill you. I didn't have a choice. Emily said yeah ya did. You're an unhinged vampire Chris. I said I can control myself! Emily said oh really explain the dead body you left behind a dumpster a few days ago! You really know how to control yourself. I said Damon trained me! Emily said that's very reassuring! Damon kills for fun! He finds enjoyment in killing people! You realize he only did this so you wouldn't kill him, right? I said what? Emily said yeah! Damon wouldn't have turned you if you didn't have the ability to kill vampires. He did this for his own personal reason. I don't know what image you have of Damon in your head. But take it from someone whose known him longer then you, your parents and grandparents have been alive. Damon doesn't do anything unless it benefits him in someway. He's a bad guy Chris and you let him turn and train you! I said see this is why I didn't wanna tell you! Emily said did you think I would go years without finding out! What if I got the cure and was normal and you were stuck a vampire! What would you do then?! Emily's phone rang.

Emily: what?

Emily: I'm about to commit mass murder. This better be good news.

Emily: really?

Emily: how much of it?

Emily looked at me.

Emily: cause Chris is a dumb ass and had Damon turn him

Emily: yeah

Emily: Damon told him he'd eventually kill me. When he knows I could easily kick his ass. But I don't really have a choice here. He's gonna get himself killed eventually. So yeah bring it we'll be in Brooklyn tomorrow.

Emily: okay bye

Hung up
I said what was that? Emily said I can't do this anymore. I said what? Emily said I've sacrificed so much for everyone I've ever cared about. Nobody's ever sacrificed anything for me. I've given up being human twice now. Because I'm giving you the cure Andrew found. I said why? Emily said because I love you Chris and if one of us gets to have it. I want it to be you. I said why does this sound like you're leaving me. Emily said because I am, after you take the cure tomorrow I'm leaving. I don't want to see or speak to any of you again. Ricky said Emily were sorry. Emily said all of you can go to hell. I said em don't leave. I only did this because I love you and I don't wanna kill you. I'm not taking that cure. Emily said you're taking it even if I have to shove it down your throat. Vinny said Emily please don't leave. Emily said y'all literally shattered my heart. I've never lied to any of you. Not even when you found out I was a vampire. Then y'all turn around and lie to me about something as serious as Chris being a vampire. I can't do this anymore. She was about to cry. I said Emily I'm so sorry. Emily said stop apologizing! You knew I didnt want you to be a vampire and then you do it anyways! And you have Damon do it! Out of everyone else. I said Please don't blame them it's all on me. Emily said I need a minute. She walked out. Ricky said damn we really hurt her. I said I know this sucks. I sat down and said god I hate myself for doing this. I've only brought her pain and misery. Ricky said no you haven't. She just needs a little bit of space. I said I know....