𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃

82 | coming full circle

Jimin

Present

The days came and went like clockwork. We spent the rest of our stay, going skiing and trying out snowboarding then going back at the cabin to make something to eat. We'd sit in the living room right next to the fireplace, playing drinking games until we passed out. Nox refrained from getting too fucked up because she didn't want to end up vomiting in our bathroom like last time.

Life was fucking amazing. We woke up at noon unless we had a plan to go out skiing, and while Namjoon and Cassie took off early in the morning to venture out in town to go to museums and with Dylan and Yoongi asleep, the place was pretty much our little kingdom. We fucked on every piece of furniture in that cabin; I swear we left no surface untouched. We even fucked on the carpet until burns would appear all over Nox's back and mine as she rode me to fucking oblivion. Then we cuddled, slept then fucked some more.

I didn't want this vacation to ever come to an end. I wanted to stay like this for a little while longer. But our time was running up and none of us can obviously afford to stay here another day, much less another week so we packed our shit and went back home. Besides, we'd spent Christmas here, so it was good that we'd spend New Year's back at Sunleth.

I don't think I've ever seen her smile so brightly when we were back home. Seeing her smile somehow felt like I had accomplished everything that I ever wanted. It cleared my mind from all the dark thoughts clouding it and ripped away every bad thing in the world.

There were also times when she'd sit alone in the room with her feet curled up and her head leaned against the window. Nox would just sit there for minutes sometimes an hour, peering at the hundred-acre woods spread in the horizon; she wouldn't even notice I'm next to her until I pat her shoulder.

Twin jades would look into my eyes confused and then the corners of her lips would tilt up in a smile as I asked her if everything is okay. Her mouth was completely capable of mimicking the act of a smile, but her eyes lacked warmth. They traveled someplace far away; a place I couldn't reach. A foreign place where she didn't let me explore and venture out with her.

That stirred some worry in me.

What made me even more concerned is the fact that she didn't admit it. I don't want to push past her boundaries if she doesn't give me the green light to enter uncharted territory. Thinking back when I was having trouble with Evelyn, Nox would always manage to crack open my shell; she'd find a way to make me talk to her even when I wasn't in the mood, so perhaps using her own tactics against her might work.

"Yo, Earth to Wherever the Hell You're Lost Sev." Yoongi's voice suddenly warps me out of my trail of thought, and I turn to him.

For some unknown reason, Yoongi wanted to go apartment hunting a week before fucking New Years, just to mark down a few places. I tried to convince him to go after New Year's or at least after the semester's over and when spring break arrives, but no; Yoongi has to be Yoongi and choose to go fulfill his duties at the worst time of the day. We've been out all goddamn day and I feel like my knees are going to snap in half. If Nox were here with us, she'd shit on me for being so weak.

"I don't like this place." He snorts as soon as the landlord walks into the other room to give us privacy.

"Why? It has a nice view." I say, pulling the curtain. This apartment is really small. A one-bedroom apartment where the living room and the kitchen are in the same space. The powder room is right next to the front door and from the looks of it, the doorknob has fallen off. At this point, I just want him to sign the goddamn lease for shithole so that I can go back home to Nox.