.... am I that bad to be loved, wanted.
I am an unwanted daughter, now i will be an unwanted wife.
God what's your problem. Why am i so unwanted in this universe.
kya likha hain apne meri kismat mein..
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Jaanvi mittal
A girl who has only seen pai...
"No dad i am not marrying him, " Jaanvi mittal declared.
"Your opinion is not needed here jahnvi" her dad harish mittal spatted back .
" Oh I forgot i was never needed here , i was never a needed daughter then how will my opinion matter" she said holding her tears.
"No janvi you can't break right now , you have to stay strong" she said in her mind.
"You are getting married and that's final, no more further argues are wanted" Harish mittal announced. Jhanvi ran to her room and broke down in tears which she was holding for so many day's.
She cried and said to herself:
"Why "
"why "
" why am i an unwanted person, why can't i ever be loved, why can't anyone love me or care for me, am i that bad to be loved.
You said everyone in this world is your child then why are you not listening to your child just get me away from this hell. I hate myself for being born in this family".
She cried and cried because there's nothing she can do. She let her tears flow down which she was holding from days. • • •
Jaanvi mittal, 20 years old, 2nd daughter of harish and kavita mittal. MITTAL'S a big name in India. They are leading jewelers of the country and obviously"RICH".
It's been quite some time since jhanvi was in her room but no body cared to Even ask her for dinner. Skipping meals had become a habbit for her , while no one bothered about her meals or health even she ignored it. Although she belongs to a rich family she never had a family to give her love.
Jaanvi
I sat on my table, opened my diary and started writing. I have a habit of maintain a dairy . I know writing/maintaining a diary in a brown household is probably not the best thing , but in that case I am lucky because my family is not at all interested in me let alone my stuff. so I am safe till now.
Dear Diary,
dad asked me to marry someone who I don't know even a bit . no one asked for my opinion . my concern is
what if he sees me as burden too
", what if he is just like them ", what if he also wants to get rid of me ,
please god my whole life I have been a burden to my family I don't want to live like this .with that a tears escaped from her eyes and fell on the paper. I am just 19 years old turning 20 in few months ,even my studies are incomplete .
yeah they cut of my studies I mean why will someone spent money on an unwanted child. But good for them they will be finally getting rid of me the bad omen . Life is not at all amazing , its a burden which a human has to carry till he/she lie on the death bed. its said that dead gets more flower than alive because regret is deeper. I am sure I will not even have that kind of luck to get flowers on my death day.
what do I do ? I cant figure out whats written in my faith , GOD PLEASE BE GENTLE ON ME
