She's That Paltry

Chapter 37

Party

Nang magkolehiyo kami ay akala ko malinaw na ang lahat kay Oscar. Nakapasa rin ako sa parehong university kung saan sila nakapasa ni Cara. Nahuli lamang ang sa akin dahil malayo ang agwat ng apelyido sa sorting.

Hindi ko akalain na hindi pa rin siya naliliwanagan kahit pa sa inamin ko sa kaniyang dahilan. Sinabi ko na sa kaniya ang dapat niyang malaman. Lalo na't sa tingin ko ay 'yun ang magpaparealize sa kaniya na wala talagang pag-asa. Pero mali pala ako.

He was still persistent, sa loob ng apat na taon namin sa kolehiyo. Hindi niya man sabihin, alam ko ang layon niya. Maski ang mga kaibigan namin ay napapansin iyon. Kahit sina Joshua at Jishel na malayo sa amin ay 'yun ang nakikita.

Sometimes, I feel really bad for him. Na hindi dapat ganoon dahil wala naman akong maibibigay na kapalit. But I know that I should not give him a chance just because I feel bad for him. Hindi ganoon ang pagmamahal.

For the past years, mas pinahalagahan ko ang mga tao sa paligid ko. I've learned the value of time and promise. Lalo na't mga college students na kami. Sometimes we make plans that we can't really keep. But we still make them in the hopes that maybe things will turn out okay for us and will let us meet even just for a fleeting moment.

I've learned that my time is not everyone's time. We now have different schedules. Sa tuwing nagkikita-kita kami ay mas naaappreciate ko ang oras. Mabagal man o mabilis. Mahaba man o maikli. Basta't masaya ako na kasama ang mga kaibigan ko.

I hope for the time to slow down even just for a moment. I want to watch my friends while the world is not moving. Gusto ko silang makitang masaya dahil 'yun ang deserve nila. I wish for the world to grant my wish. I wish for my friend's happiness cause I saw how they struggled. They deserve the best.

Kahit ang tawagan namin ni Athena ay hindi na kagaya noon. Tumatawag na lamang kami sa isa't isa kapag naaabutang online kaming pareho. Pero isa lang naman ang hindi nagbago, kung paano kami noon ay ganoon pa rin kami ngayon. How we talked and how we say each other's name. It remained the same. She's still that wonderful Athena.

College is that period where you realize so many things. Where you miss so many things. And you realize so many things.

I sometimes wonder if going back time will make everything better than how it is now. But, if I would do that there is a possibility that I won't learn what I learned today. My experiences are part of me. My past is part of me. I should acknowledge them cause they're the roots of my tree.

I am standing by myself against the wind and the storm. That's because of everything I have experienced. My experienced with my family, how I became independent while they're away. How I learned to fight for myself, especially when I only have me.