OFFICERS SERIES #1: Detaining Him [COMPLETED]

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It's really easy to imagine saying that I don't have any intentions of talking with him again, but very difficult to do and say when he's already in front of me. I don't know... I don't really know. I just found myself wanting to watch him until he melted. I'm in total shocked. I can't even moved my body. He totally made me stilled.

How come I didn't recognized him at first? How come I became so foolish on the day I saw him on that party? Oh God! It's because of that mask and those unique pair of eyes of him! But still... myself is the only one to blame this time.

I swallowed hard as I took my second step backwards. Wanting to turn back and wanting to stay for more.

Why would I turn my back anyway? It will just make him think that I am pretending to not know him when in fact it is now too obvious to do so. But... but my body wanted to stay more.

Crap! Snap back to your senses! Gusto mo pa bang balikan ang taong nagpaiyak at sumira sa iyo noon?! May asawa na iyan at parang gusto mo pang hawakan! Huwag na huwag mong susubukang sumunod sa puso mo kung ayaw mong bumalik ang lahat ng nangyari sa'yo noon! Keep in mind na masaya ka na sa buhay mo ngayong nasa opisina lang at minamahal ang panghabang-buhay mong propesyon! Huwag na huwag kang magkakamali Phoebe! Amputa! Ba't ko ba kinakausap sarili ko?

Tss. But what should I do now? Should I... be casual? Should I greet him casually like there's no painful thing happened between us back then? That's more cringe. Hayst. Ano ba ang gagawin ko?

"Hi."

I gasped so shockingly at his cold icy voice! But his eyes... it's smiling. It's not... It's not his cheerful and energetic voice that I always dream to hear again. His hair, his eyes, his bodybuilt, does his attitude change too? He became more mature. He became more masculine. Ang layo na niya sa dating si Chrispher. No. How could he change this big for just one an a half year?

By the way... What should I reply to that?!

"Phob! Is everything okay?" Napakurap ako ng marinig ko ang humahangos na boses ni Andrew sa aking tabi, pero hindi lamang iyon, napasinghap at napatalon pa ako sa gulat nang maramdaman ko ang dahan-dahang paglapat ng kaniyang mainit na kamay sa aking baywang!

Anong ginagawa niya?!

"A-Andrew..." Kinakabahan at maang labi akong napatingin kay Chrispher. Ewan ko... pakiramdam ko lang ay may masama akong nagawa sa hindi ko alam na dahilan!

I saw how Chrispher clenched his jaw and folded his fist firmly like he wanted to punch someone right here and now. His eyes are now turning violent! My heart beated so crazily inside me. Anong nangyayari sa kaniya?! But before I could moved away from Andrew he turn his back fixing his cap and mask and walk fast across the pedestrian.

"Phob..." Tawag ni Andrew pero hindi ko na siya napakinggan. Nanatili ang nanlulumo kong titig sa papalayong si Chrispher. Bagsak ang balikat akong napalunok dahil sa panlulumong nararamdaman.

Hay. Ano ba itong nangyayari sa akin? Bakit hindi ko mapigilan ang mga emosyon ko? Palagi akong natatalo ng sarili ko!

"Phob..."

"Andrew?" I replied tiredly at him. Napasuklay ako ng buhok at kuyom ang kaliwang kamao na pinahinga sa aking hita. My hands are still shaking and the excruciating feeling within me didn't change! I can't even think properly! Mayroon sa aking gusto siyang sundan at pigilan, mayroon din namang pabayaan na lang dahil para saan naman kung susundan ko siya 'di ba? Chrispher... ano ba itong ginawa mo sa akin?