RULE NO. 12 NO INCEST (Part Two; Ongoing)

Chapter 11

"DJ Sam, salamat sa programa mo, kaharap ko na ngayon ang pinaka mamahal ko." And I ended the call. Hinawakan ko siya sa kamay at tumingin ako sa mga mata niya. Her eyes show how tired she is, I feel so bad to see sadness in her eyes.

"Alli, I love you. Sorry, sorry sa mga pag dududa ko sayo. Sorry sa mga nasabi ko." Maluha luha kong sabi sa kanya. She brushed my hair with her one hand while the other hugged me in the waist.

"Wala yon. Okay na ko, na miss kita, Ray... please wag na tayong mag away ng ganito katagal."

"Promise."

"I love you so much."

And we sealed it with a kiss. A long, passionate, kiss that seems to be washing the bad moments away. This past week is the heaviest and longest week. I cannot believe that I'm still alive without this girl by my side. After a moment, we returned to my apartment. Jasmine claps her hand. Habang binubuksan ko yung pintuan ko, nagulat kami dahil biglang nalakasan ni Jasmine yung radio.

"We have a comment from Marco - papaano po kung mahal ko pa din ang girlfriend ng kaibigan ko?” Alli was taken aback. She stiffed when she heard that comment. That can't be right. That can't be fucking Marco. I covered her ears even though I want to clench my fist in annoyance. How he fucking dares ruin this night?

Nabitawan ni Alli yung bouquet, tears began to fall from her eyes. Then I heard soft sobs. It frustrates me more seeing her crying especially that I'm clueless why.

"Raymond..." She called my name between her sobs. I hate that I have this bad feeling. My eyes started to cry.

"Shh... Bae, don't cry... Just stay still..." Sabi ko sa kanya. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit na mahigpit. She continued to cry and it keeps on getting louder. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya ganyan kung makaiyak. Is it because Marco is still in love with her? Is she in love with Marco still?

- ALLISANDRA'S POV -

I badly want to be back with Raymond. Hindi ko kayang magkahiwalay kami ulit. Ayoko ng maulit pa kung anong nangyari saamin noon. Those past mistakes should be buried more than twenty feet below. But I have no idea why I started to shake when I heard Marco on the radio. I know it was him. I know his voice, if it's not him it would be impossible to feel shivers in my skin.

Simula noong nagkaayos kami ni Raymond noon, araw araw niyang pinapatunayan na mahal niya ko. Ganoon din naman ako sa kanya bilang, may parte din naman ako ng pag kakamali. Wala akong masabi sa efforts niya, wala akong reklamo sa kung anong meron kami. Hindi naman ganon ka-perfect ang relasyon namin, we still have small arguments and such, but he is always the one who is sorry even if it's not his fault entirely.

But I don't know why, when I saw Marco and had a chat with him, it pains me. I hated seeing him lose weight, lose the brightness in his eyes, I hate to see him so down. He was completely different.

I continued to cry while thinking of these things. Gulong-gulo ang isip ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano na ang tama sa mali. Hindi ko na alam kung si Marco o si Raymond o dapat bang piliin ko muna ang sarili ko.

"Bae, sorry... Mahal na mahal kita, pero kailangan kong ng space." Sabi ko. Agad kong sinabi yan sa kanya na parang mabilisang pagtanggal ng Band-aid sa sugat. He pulled me away from his hug and leveled his head so he could see me straight in the eye.

"No..." He answered in almost nothing voice can be heard. He repeats the same answer while weeping, shaking his head until he is down to his knees.

"Alli, please... We're not going back to square one..." I could not utter any word. All I can do is cry. I joined him on the ground and hugged him. He tightly wrapped his arms around me, as if he is not letting me go somewhere. But I had to break it. I need some time to think. I need to straighten my head, for me, us, and Marco.

I need to clear everything with Marco so I could be sure that I am worthy of Ray. I genuinely love him, but I hate to see him worry that one day Marco would have me.

"I need space, bae. I promise I will find my way back to you..." At saka ako bumalik sa apartment ko. Mabuti nalang nasa loob na ng kwarto si Jasmine. Humiga ako kaagad sa kama ko at pinagpatuloy ang pag iyak.

Kinabukasan, nauna akong pumasok sa school. Wala pang tao halos kaya dumiretso ako sa headquarters. Bubuksan ko sana gamit ang susi ko pero hindi na nakalock. Pumasok na lang ako at saka dumiretso sa mga pinag uutos ni coach. Hindi ko pa man din nailalapag ang mga gamit ko nag simula na kong mag trabaho. Nagulat na lang ako ng may nasipa ako sa ilalim ng mesa.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito?!" Sigaw ko. Hindi ko din namalayang napalakas ang sigaw ko.

"Alli, ikaw pala yan." Nag unat siya ng katawan niya at may nasipa siyang mga bote ng alak. Tumingin ako sa paligid, may mga take out boxes pa ng pagkain. His hair is messy, he is still wearing the same shirt from yesterday, his eyes are swollen and his hand is covered in a bandage with a stain of blood.

Sabay kaming napalingon sa labas ng makarinig kami pareho ng yapak palayo ng headquarters.

It was Raymond's back. I attempted to follow him but he was walking fast, and Marco got sick.