KICK IT - HAECHAN

32 | I'LL LET YOU GO

⚠️ TW // SUICIDE ATTEMPT
— if you are uncomfortable about this please skip until the end of flashback.

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FLASHBACK

he never thought that his life would be this shitty. but it happened. and he can't turn back time.

haechan put down his glass of water as he walked to the balcony, leaning against the railing,

he looked down.

the world is beautiful.

yet, so evil.

when he looked back at what he had done all these years, everything that he decided, everything that he went for,

what would happen if he chose another path?

would he still live like this? a life full of despair, madness, anger and pain?

or he will live a life full of colours, happiness, laughter and calmness?

what would happen,

if he didn't take that person's hand?

haechan looked down to the world from him balcony, looked at every single person who walked along the street,

and he saw a guy with a group of friends hanging out with each other.

they were 7 of them.

all of them laughed, smacked each other playfully and some of them even chased each other. they even took out lots of snacks to eat, as if they were having some kind of a party across the street.

haechan just looked at one of them screaming when they saw their friend stole their food as the others tried to calm them down.

how painful it is,

to see other people living your dream.

can he even get that phase in his life?

a phase where he didn't have to worry about how cruel the world is anymore, a phase where all he can do was enjoy his life to the fullest.

when will he go through that?

actually, can he?

can he even smile happily right now,

when every time he looked at the mirror,

he only saw the most disgusting human to ever exist in this world.

he had done bad things.

he hurted people.

he threaten people.

he killed people.

and he also hurted the girl who he loved to death.

from everything he had done in the past,

does the future ever wanted to welcome him and let him breathe peacefully?

will people in the future treat him nicely? will society in the future become better than society right now?