I sat in the waiting room.
By myself.
I had no one to call.
I'd called Josh, but he was MIA since last night with the guy's.
And there was nobody else to call.
Dad was in with mom and I had no idea what was going on.
I looked at my phone, I had it turned off but I turned it on to try and call Josh again.
God I wanted to call Matt but I'd told Brian I wouldn't, that I'd leave him alone for awhile.
I dialed Josh again but it went straight to voicemail.
I felt like crying.
I wiped my face, I was not going to sit here, in this stupid waiting room and cry.
My phone buzzed, I looked down.
I'd missed a call from Matt.
He'd left a message.
I played it and closed my eyes.
Hey it's me, we need to talk.
Great timing, I thought bitterly, I could really use you and you wanna talk.
I felt angry and hurt.
Oh Ana stop, I thought.
I needed to find Josh, but where?
I decided to phone Jimmy, maybe he knew.
Thankgod he answered.
"Hey Ana, what's up."
"Jimmy I really need to find Josh and he's not answering, have you seen him?" I asked hopefully.
"Nah not since last night." he said "Everything ok."
I swallowed back tears because no doubt Jimmy knew how much pressure I'd put on Matt as well.
"Mom's in hospital, well she's not good and he needs to be here."
"Christ Ana, can I do anything?" he asked.
"Find Josh." I suggested
"Alright, I'll call the guy's, maybe one of them knows where he is."
I thanked him and hung up.
Now I had nothing to do but wait, alone.
