She's Rich, He's Richer

Chapter 4

She's Rich, He's Richer : Chapter 4 
~Believing in the Power and Art of LOVE...

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Mag-iisang buwan ng ang nakalipas and I must say improving ang friendship namin ni Mico. Friendship nga ba? Haha ang landi ko. 

Seriously, kahit masungit pa rin si Mico na-e-enjoy ko talaga ang oras kapag kasama ko siya. Kahit na pinagtitinginan kami tuwing naglalakad, syempre kasi nga ang gwapo niya plus kadalasan parang hinuhubaran na siya sa titig ng mga babae na nakakainis talaga at hindi naman maiiwasan. 

Minsan nga gusto kong isako siya para akin lang siya. Ang selfish ko ba? Pero naisip ko, hah! Mainggit sila kasi kahit na on the way at on the process palang na nahuhulog sa akin si Mico, at least mas malaki ang chance ko compared sa kanila.

I guess maghanap nalang sila ng kagaya ni Mico to keep for themselves. Pero sorry sila mahirap kaya maghanap at magpa-ibig (naks for the term) ng kagaya niya. It takes time and effort. Daig pa ang babae. 

On the other hand next month na din yung evaluation ko at hindi ko alam kung papaano yun. First time lang namang may pinaganito sila. I guess I'm that rule breaker enough. Kinakabahan tuloy ako sa kung anumang ipapagawa nila sa akin by next month.

"You're spacing out. Mind sharing your thoughts?"

"Wala naman."

"Or maybe you're thinking about me."

"Kapal mo talaga Mico. Kumain ka na nga lang." 

He just shrugged and continued eating. 

"Ahhh Mico, hindi ka ba kinakabahan next month sa evaluation kuno ko?"

"I trust you enough."

"P-pero what if masira ko yung reputation mo or madisappoint sila sa akin?"

Yumoko ako as sign of frustration. He held my chin at tinaas yung mukha ko to level his eyes from mine. 

Dug. Dug. Dug.

"Look at me."

Tinanggal ko kasi ang tingin ko sa kanya. Masyadong bumibilis kasi ang tibok ng puso ko na feeling ko magkakaheart attact ko. 

"Come on look at me."

Dahan dahan ko siyang tiningnan. When our eyes finally met he said the words that I, again, didn't expect na sasabihin niya at this moment. 

"I love you. Now will that make you more confident?" 

Is he d-amn serious? My heart beats faster than ever. I'm happy but a part of me still doubts that. Kasi baka sinasabi niya lang yan para mapagaan ang loob ko. I don't want to hear it kung hindi naman pala totoo pa. 

Pero am I just over thinking? 

"I-if you're just saying that to make me more confident then plea---" he cut me off. 

The usual Mico. 

"I'm dead serious. I've undergone sleepless nights just to realize what I feel for you and you're not believing me?" 

Mahal niya ba talaga ako? I can't just believe it that easily. Don't get me wrong, I have reasons behind my doubts. First, una akong umamin sa kanya at pwedeng nadala lang siya ng damdamin ko para sa kanya. Ayoko naman ng ganun. Sorry but I need to be cautious this time. Ewan, ang gulo ko. 

"It's not like that, malay mo naguguluhan ka lang. Or may be nagpapadalos dalos ka lang para hindi mawala ang trust ko sa sarili ko. Para mag gain ako ng confidence. Mico kung hindi mo pa ako mahal, don't say those three words."

"So you're not believing me?"

Am I? 

"Hindi naman pero kasi---"

Pero kasi paano kung hindi naman niya talagang planong lumabas yun sa bibig niya? Tapos hindi niya lang mabawi kasi nga nasabi niya na diba? Okay ano bang pinaglalaban ako? Ang akin lang baka hindi niya pa dapat sasabihin yun.

Or is it just me? 

Ano ba Kane andyan na yan oh! You've worked for it for months tapos mag gaganyan ka? My goodness nakakabaliw. 

"You don't trust me?"

Of course I trust him pero I don't trust myself. I still have issues. Ang dami pang what ifs sa utak ko. 

"It's not that, ka---"

"You think my feelings are just some kind of joke?"

"I---"

"Can't you just be happy? Or you're not at all?" he's getting frustrated. 

I wanted to say sorry for making him feel frustrated. Bakit ba humantong pa ito sa ganito? I should have just shut my mouth and accept that fact may be he really meant it. Pero kasi aish! I must be really stupid this time. Ugh!

Maybe I just don't know how to react kanina. Dapat hindi ko na hinayaang dumating pa sa ganito. 

Ang gulo gulo ko talaga! Ughhhh!

"It's not ----" I'm trying to defend myself but he really was annoyed this time. 

"Fine!" 

He stood up and walks out. Nice Kane, you played pretty well this time. Waaaaaaah Mico my loves I'm so sorry. Gusto kong isagaw yan pero wala na, ang layo niya na. 

Sana hindi nalang ako nag over think. Sa huli talaga ang pagsisisi. Haay. Hands up for your stupidity Kane. You did a good job and you deserved a high five on the face. 

Overthinking is stupidity remember that.