FORELSKET ( Inumaki Toge X Reader )

50.

Y/N's POV

I started walking faster when I heard footsteps behind me. I started feeling cold that I can't even hold my room key properly.

Before I could even open my door, someone tapped my shoulder. I turned around to face them.

"I'm sorry for all the trouble that I caused," I immediately said while bowing.

"Y/N, you don't have to say sorry every time. It is okay to get mad or to feel any emotions. Your feelings are valid. But we hope that you will trust us enough to share all your burdens. We are family here," Maki-senpai said.

"We are besties! You can always count on me. Come on, Y/N, stand properly," Nobara added.

I tried forcing a smile and nodded. I want to believe them so bad, but maybe I had too much pain to handle this day that I can't seem to process what they are saying.

"Please, excuse me. I want to be alone for now," I said before turning my back on them.

I heard their footsteps starting to go away.

"Come on, Toge. You heard her. She needs time," Panda-senpai said.

I ignored them. I went inside my room and immediately closed the door.

This is what I want, right? So, why am I feeling sad again? Why am I feeling lonely?

I sighed then went inside the bathroom to take a hot shower. I don't want to get sick. Maybe, I'll get something to eat after taking a shower.

After the shower, I felt refreshed. I decided to go down to the cafeteria to get some food. Nishimiya-san and Mai-san were still there. They immediately saw me and watched what I am doing.

I went to the countertop to get ramen because that was the only thing available at the moment. While waiting for the water to boil, I put some milk in a cup. After a while, I already finished preparing everything, so I grabbed the ramen and the cup of milk.

I decided to face the two ladies. I bow slightly in front of Mai-san.

"Mai-san, I'm sorry for what happened earlier."

She just nodded.

"Scary," I heard Nishimiya-san commented before I can leave.

"Your confidence is scaring me too, Nishimiya-san. With all due respect, I hope you'll stop pushing yourself to my boyfriend," I said, then left afterward.

I am now in front of my room, thinking if how I should open my door since both my hands are occupied. Should I put the food on the floor first? But that's quite... disgusting.

I groaned because of frustration when the door next to my room opened. I immediately look down when my gaze met Toge's eyes.

It looks like I got no choice. I was about to put my food on the floor when he opened my door.

"Uh, thanks," I said awkwardly, then went inside my room.

After placing the food on my table, I went in front of my mirror to blow dry my hair first.

"Y/N, eat first. Your food will get cold," Toge said.

Oh? He's still here? What happened to give me the space that I need?

"I'll get a headache if I don't blow-dry my hair," I explained.

"I'll do it for you. Come on, eat."

I sighed. He grabbed the hairdryer from me.

"Do whatever you want," I said and then sat in front of my table and started eating.

I don't want to start another fight with him.

"I'm sorry for what happened earlier, Y/N."

"No, it's okay. You actually got the point. I realized that I am so sensitive and always overthinking even small things. Don't worry. From now on, I will try to stop bothering all of you at all times," I said firmly.

"Baby, you give a lot of thought to everything since you care so much about it."

I didn't speak.

"I'm sorry for judging you so easily. This time, let me fulfill my promise to you."

I wanted to cry, but my eyes are too tired and dry. I wanted to punch him to show him how angry I am because it feels like he left me hanging alone, but I don't want to hurt him at the same time.

I stayed quiet when my door suddenly opened, showing everyone carrying their pillows.

I just stared at them, afraid of speaking because I might annoy them.

"We will sleep here so that you won't feel alone," Nobara said.