"Y/N." I sighed out as she kissed my neck while I gripped her shirt.
"I have a plane to catch." I giggled deeply as she lightly scraped her teeth against my pulse point.
"Don't go." She suddenly groaned as she closed her eyes.
"There's FaceTime for a reason babe." I muffled a giggle as as her breath tickled my ear.
"I get that but I want you." She whispered as her eyes fluttered shut again while her lips started to press against mine.
Hot.
"Yeah?" I teased lightly as I let her kiss my lips.
"You have no idea." Her voice like silk, so soft and I fell into her spell then and there.
She had something over me, she could do one simple thing, say anything in a certain way and I'd be a puddle. I wanted her to take me in all ways possible, I wanted her love. It was almost as if it was a need. Like, I needed her, I needed something that was missing from within. She had me. And that was the biggest understatement of the century.
I leaned up on my knees on my mattress across her lap as I tilted her chin up, "Take it." I whispered without thinking so clearly and I bit my lip.
A breath blew from her mouth as her throat made a noise and I watched her neck flex as she leaned up to attack my lips. I moaned softly as I felt the aggressive passion she was putting out. Fuck, I loved this.
My heart started to hammer against my chest when I felt her hands start to comfortably fall down. She gripped my hips and I couldn't help but let out a sound that only spurred her on. I let her explore my mouth as my hands started to trail up her own neck. I felt a very foreign but familiar feeling of simply just yearning for her. I let my body weight go and grounded my hips against her.
On top of my twin bed when Shawn could walk in at any given moment. Her slender fingers taking ahold of my backside firmly which made me feel so light. I was on a strong high and I never wanted this to stop. She pushed me softly until I was fully laying against my bed; my head at the foot of the mattress. I wrapped my arms around her neck as I felt how prominent her package was becoming.
I breathed deeply from my nose while I kissed her heavily and our tongues tangled. Her hands trailed up my body underneath my shirt while I tried to calm my heartbeat. She was obviously much more comfortable since she told me about herself. Only problem now was the fact that I was a terrified virgin who liked heavy make out sessions. She didn't understand that just yet and I was afraid I'd panic. I just had to let it happen, go with the flow. It was just sex-
"Oh my-" I suddenly gasped as she sucked right underneath my ear while her hand snaked itself into my bra.
I closed my eyes at the feel and sighed softly into her ear as she continued her affection. My hands subconsciously gripped at the bottom of her shirt and tugged. Her hand on one side of my small chest and I tugged on her earlobe with my lips. Her pelvic pressed against mine and I really couldn't help but let out a whimper.
I'd definitely have to change before I left for Miami. My heart was racing as my mind was wrapped up in wanting to pull her closer. But it was almost as if my subconscious knew it would be a bad idea. The panic was rising too fast all the while I had the urge to buck my hips for more friction.
She softly groaned into my neck when my hand trailed from her back to her lap. She was thick. I squeezed my eyes shut at the thought as I felt an overwhelming sense of lust. My heart pounded as my mind started to unravel and thought of stripping her clothes away. I tried to grasp at her sides as her hand slid down my stomach hotly, her lips connecting to mine. Her tongue sexily swiping against my bottom lip and sucking it.
That's when her hand made it's way down to my core over my panties. No one had ever touched me there, only myself and I was going insane. Heated breaths as my cheeks felt as if they were on fire. She kissed my lips deeply and as she started to slide her fingers into the last article of clothing, my body went into high alert. I couldn't. I couldn't.
"Okay, wait-" My voice shook as I moved my head to the side so our lips would disconnect.
Her hand slid out gently as she softly kissed up my neck again, she then stopped all together when she noticed I did. I wanted to hit myself. It wasn't like I never tried on myself; it wasn't like she was gonna immediately whip it out and take the relationship to the next level. This was the closest thing I had ever gotten to sex with anyone. I've felt a clothed hard on but I had never let anyone come near my chamber of secrets.
"You okay? I'm sorry." She whispered as she looked at me with those puppy eyes.
I then sighed, "It's not you, baby." I mumbled while I closed my eyes in embarrassment.
"It's not? Are we going too fast?" She asked me and I let out another sigh.
"I'm a virgin." I informed her for the first time in a low voice and her breathing faltered.
"O-Oh... ." She replied shortly and I opened my eyes as she started to lean up.
"Deal breaker?" I lightly joked and she shook her head as she sat up.
"Of course not, gorgeous. I want you to be ready when you feel like you are. I'll wait, I don't care. I've went seventeen years without sex, I'm okay." She leaned up causing me to lean up on my elbows still feeling heated.
"It's not like I don't want to though." I hinted, "I want to. I just get nervous."
"I honestly had no idea you were. I mean, I had an idea but you're such a great kisser it seemed like you knew what you were doing." She started to ramble as she covered her lap with her hands.
"I have ideas." I mumbled as I looked up at her through my eyelashes.
I was curious at heart.
Then I had a thought... . It was probably my raging hormones talking but I needed some relief. I took in my bottom lip and bit it as I looked her up and down. I wanted to be at that point where I could just blurt anything out and ask her whatever. I took a deep breath and hooked my fingers into the hem of her shirt. I wasn't afraid of her or what she could do to me, I wanted her.
"You wanna show me a couple things?" I asked lowly and she slowly looked down my body.
That sexy little smirk appeared on her face again and she softly laughed, "Like what?" She inquired as she started to lean into me.
"Give me something to think about while I'm gone." I husked and pulled her into me so our lips would connect again.
She expertly kissed my lips as if I was the tastiest thing she had experienced and I bit her lip.
"What do you want me to do?" She whispered in between kisses and I smiled.
"You know what to do." I let out a seductive laugh and pressed my hands against her shoulders.
She tugged on my bottom lip while she laid me down again; she adjusted herself as she crawled over me. I closed my eyes as her lips left a trail of heated kisses down my body. Her hands sliding up my thighs and leaving a burning trail up my sides. Her lips leaving me breathless and my own hands softly tangled into her locks.
This was normal. It had to be. Oh God, it had to be-
"Keep going." I bit my lip as I felt her tongue swirl around my navel.
My breathing got deep and hot as I was anticipating to be touched and she started to pull down my jeans slowly. I kept my head up looking at the ceiling as she leaned back to pull my jeans away. I wanted her to hurry, my heart was gonna bear out of my chest. I wanted it, there were many different variations of "virginity" , this could just mean practice in my book, right? I just needed some sort of sexual activity in my life. She had teased me way too long throughout the time she was keeping her "secret" away. I personally deserved this. It wasn't too fast. I knew what I wanted.
She continued her kisses and featherlight touches against my skin. The way she marked me as if I were a blank canvas- God, she was really gonna drive me to the brink of insanity.
I squeezed my eyes shut when I felt her fingers fiddle with my underwear again, "Are you sure though?"
"Baby." I silently begged and she looked up at me as she wet her lips then complied to my wishes.
I felt her face get closer and closer to my covered center while her mouth nipped and sucked at my inner thighs. I whimpered lowly as I felt my own wetness against the fabric of my underwear. It was so uncomfortable, I wanted her to take them off of me. She was making me crazy and she hadn't even done anything. Her finger hooked into my panties and her mouth latched onto my pelvic. Her hands smoothly started to pull down my underwear.
But, I had previously jinxed myself and when the last piece of clothing started to slide over my knees; while her lips ghosted against my wetness the door opened.
My moan was stolen from me and a gasp replaced it while I jumped to pull my underwear up. Y/N shot up from my body while Shawn screeched loudly. He closed the door quickly as I heard him start to spit out his distaste of what he just saw. I groaned loudly as I covered my face with my hands feeling incredibly embarrassed. I wanted to cry.
I was so sexually frustrated and I couldn't get what I wanted now. I was so close at achieving my goal of getting her to do something to me. I was taking the next step in my own damn life and it still fucked up.
"Oh my God." I whispered and I leaned up quickly.
My pent up sexual desire got the best of me and I felt angry at Shawn for walking in. I was so close! I snatched my pants from my pillow ignoring Y/N's dilated eyes and tight jeans. I walked into the bathroom with a slam of the door.
"Fuck!" I looked down at myself seeing my stomach marked along with my thighs.
I then felt like I wanted to cry at how much I was throbbing, I needed to relieve myself, "I fucking hate you sometimes." I softly cried at an invisible Shawn and turned on the shower.
"Can I come in now?" Shawn's voice muffled from outside the dorm room.
"Uh.. yeah, she's in the shower." Y/N cleared her voice and I took it that she was gonna be in the exact same spot that she was in.
I was the only one other than her roommates that knew about her buddy downtown. She probably wasn't gonna let anyone else know about it either. So, I got into the cold shower so I could relieve myself from this sexual pain. But, I just ended up leaning against the shower wall and thought deeply. She was so fucking addicting. It was two pm and we'd literally been on my bed for about two hours. If something wasn't gonna go down then something was actually wrong with one of us.
Who keeps their hands to themselves for over an hour of a heavy make out session? I may be a virgin but I wasn't stupid. I knew what I wanted and I was gonna take that next step. I wanted to. But-
"Fuck you!" I yelled and I heard Y/N let out an abrupt giggle.
My dorm was too small and I could hear everything; I wish Shawn could've just went out the entire day like he usually does. Shit, no wonder I stay over at Y/N's a lot. I had more privacy over there with her four roommate than I did with Shawn.
I breathed in deep, I could still feel her breath against the most confidential part of my body. It was something so small to the real world since everyone I knew had done multiple sexual acts I haven't even heard of. But this was gonna stick by me for life and now I had the fucking memory of Shawn's scream instead of Y/N's tongue.
But I tried to shake my anger and when I got out after a few long minutes I walked into the room. My body wrapped up in the towel, I didn't really give two shits. Shawn has walked in on a lot and Y/N was gonna see me anyway so why would I care if they saw me in a towel? Due to my overworking brain I didn't really notice the tense atmosphere. Y/N looked a little upset while Shawn looked a little smug. She tried to keep her prying eyes to herself and I heard Shawn snort.
"I just wanted to come back and say goodbye. You're my favorite person and you're leaving." Shawn spoke up from his side of the room.
"Not forever, Shawn." I mumbled as I sat down, my back facing Y/N.
I stripped the towel from my body and continued to get dressed, I could see the dark hickey against my inner thigh. I glanced over my shoulder to look at her and she was staring straight at the bathroom door. She wanted to look my way and I could see that she was trying to contain herself.
"Hook me." I mumbled as I bent down to grab the jeans I was wearing before.
Y/N cleared her throat and her hands grabbed the unconnected straps. I sat up still as she hooked my bra and once she did she softly kissed the back of my neck.
"We have plenty of time, don't rush yourself." She kissed the side of my neck afterwards and I turned my head to kiss her lips.
"Trust me, I'm not rushing." I reassured her as well and she nodded while I stood up to slip on a shirt.
She sat there with puppy eyes and I just wanted to hop her bones- wow, I don't think I'd ever been this frustrated before. I checked the time on my phone and my eyes almost bugged out.
"Oh shit, I gotta go." I hopped to slip on my shoes and I grabbed my bag.
"Can I hug you goodbye or are you gonna hit me?" Shawn asked as he crossed his arms and I marched over to him.
I wrapped my arms around his strong body and let him slightly pick me up. He chuckled softly as I pinched and hit his back, "You..." i grumbled, "I'm gonna get you a schedule." I joked and he smiled softly.
"Mhm, it still won't work." He lightly bounced as he wrapped an arm around me.
Y/N stood back by my door as she watched the exchange, her teeth lightly nibbling at her bottom lip. She crossed her own arms and I turned over to her as happy as can be. I finally can get to see my mama. I was never the type of person to dwell on one thing for a long time unless it was really serious. When I got depressed? That shit was horrendous.
"I love you, Cuba." Shawn yelled out and I smiled as Y/N opened up the door.
"Your actions speak otherwise, Canada." I squinted my eyes at him, my best friend should want me to get laid finally.
"Be safe, Camila." He mumbled and I walked out of the dorm.
I was only gonna be gone for about four days maybe, I was gonna have my first New Year's kiss with Y/N. We both planned on that. As Y/N closed the door she looked at Shawn one last time while Shawn's smile disappeared when he looked at her. I then looked at my girlfriend when she turned to me ready to grab my bag from my hands.
"You two okay?" I asked lightly and I watched her jaw clench a bit.
"Yeah, of course." She gave me a tight smile and she leaned down kissing my cheek.
"Let's get you on that plane." She wet her lips and I wondered what was up with them.
They still were kinda iffy since he jumped on us that one night- aw, look how far we've come.
I then smiled up at her and let her lead the way as my heart fluttered.
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"Please, be safe, okay? I'll call you tonight." She said in a worried tone knowing I was feeling nervous.
I never really been on a plane before and I told her that in the truck. She was doing everything in her power to make me feel better. It wasn't a one way flight, I had to get off in Charlotte, North Carolina then transfer to the Miami plane. I had to understand that I would be okay, that it really never really hurt anyone to ask questions. My hypersensitive ass was going insane. From waking up in her arms to almost having her go down on me then this heavy panic settling in my body- I was gonna be so tired tonight.
"I can't go any further obviously, but I'll be here until your plane takes off. Then you can call me when you land in North Carolina and hang up when someone says you have to turn it off. I don't want you to panic." Y/N was basically panicking over me to not panic.
It was a little comforting but I was still dying inside.
"Yeah, I'll be okay." I gulped and she nodded to herself.
"Okay.." She breathed out slowly, "You're fucking amazing, okay?" She randomly complimented and for a small moment my panic stopped.
I giggled at her abruptness and leaned against her shoulder as we stood in line. It was the final line where they checked my ticket to let me onto the plane. She kissed the top of my head and whined, "I don't want you to go, I finally got used to you in my bed." She sighed and I giggled looking up at her from her shoulder.
"I'll be home soon." I reassured her and let it go to my ego, I liked thinking of us living together.
One day. Definitely not today or soon, I wasn't about to trap her for that long. Moving in together was way in the future and a whole different level. That was financial statuses and commitments that we had to agree on. Yeah, no, I liked how we were right now.
"I lo..." She immediately trailed off and my heart hammered harshly.
She coughed as she checked her phone quickly, "I loved today." She looked back at me and I raised my eyebrows at her.
"Oh yeah?" I chuckled in disbelief and she became shy as she hid behind that smile.
"And I love your eyes." She squeezed my hand as we were the next ones up.
"I love yours too." I whispered and she gave me a smile.
I gave the man everything he needed and he cleared me to go forward. I stepped aside as Y/N strongly wrapped her arms around me.
"Don't forget me in the span of four days Karla Camila." She pressed her nose against mine as she stared into my eyes.
I couldn't help but laugh deeply, "I'll bring you with me next year." I smirked playfully and her eyes lit up as she smiled to herself.
"That'd be great." She whispered and I kissed her lips softly.
"Be good." I tapped her butt and she stepped back as she continued to hold my hand.
"Always." She cutely smiled my way and I let go of her hand even though I wanted to pull her in with me.
"You be good."
I couldn't believe my heart could take all this pressure, I was surprised I haven't died yet. A beautiful young woman in front of me while I was gonna get on a big ass plane by myself. I felt like a child and an old lady all at once.
"I'll be good." I mumbled and she nodded when she caught onto that.
She watched me walk into the little tunnel and when I was in the plane a man helped me put my carry-on up above my head. Almost immediately I called Y/N on the phone when I sat down at the window seat. She answered with a laugh and she talked me down from having another emotional break down. I really hated this. Anxiety for no reason at all. I felt so odd. No one on this plane was acting the way I was. Did I look like I was paranoid?
"Baby.. sit back, put some music on and just listen to what the ladies say. You're gonna be okay, I promise, Camila." She softly reassured me and I took a deep breath again.
"I'm so dumb-"
"No, you're not, you have a special extra emotion within you. It's a good thing. You just feel a lot more." She lodged the hypersensitivity into my brain as if it were a good thing.
She supported me and didn't make fun of me. A woman.
"Just stay on the phone, sh." I hoped I could get away with it and people filled the seats.
Christmas season was no joke.
"Do not get in trouble, what did I just say-"
"I'll be good." I stopped her and I breathed in slowly, "I'll be good." I repeated and just listened to her.
To help me through it all, she talked about her classes and her professors. She mentioned Chicago and New York and all the places she wants to visit. All the architecture. She even started to speak about us in the future as if she saw us as a long lasting healthy relationship. Who knew these little things would make me feel normal as hell? Listening to her voice put me in a trance and I felt exhausted due to the stress my body went through today.
The last thing I truly heard was her laughing about how easy I was with her. How glad she was to have my heart. Pure. She was pure.
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I was gonna make the scene into a dream but might as well get this shit out in the open. YALL HAVE NO IDEA WHAT LENGTHS I GO THROUGH FOR THIS STORY I need the visuals to make you feel what the characters feel. Ugh.
I hope y'all enjoyed and if you didn't then your mom should've swallowed you
Have a great day or night beautifuls x
- Maddie
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