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JIMIN'S POV
Hoseok and I were sitting at the table closest to the window at Kim's Cafe. We talked about dance and the music we liked while waiting for our drinks to come.
I've been coming here a lot more often. Not without Hoseok though.
I like hanging out with him. Its not like I have anything else to do. All I do is sleep, eat, work and now occasionally hangout with Hoseokie.
We stopped talking when we saw Jin coming towards our table with a smile. A tray with our drinks and Hoseok's muffin in his hand.
It was a relief when Hoseok asked me to come with him to the cafe, since I was having a really bad day already. I woke up late so I was nagged at by the Librarian. Later a few visitors at the library complained about me because I was "lazy" and "not helpful" even though I tried my best to help them. So this meet up is the only bit of sunshine I've received all day.
"Hey guys-" He smiled but stopped as he tripped over his own foot.
All the drinks on tray he was holding went flying on to me. Both our coffees fell into my shirt and pants.
"Seokjin what the FUCK." I snapped at him.
"J-Jimin I'm so sorry!" Jin stuttered, obviously scared from my quick change in attitude.
"Shut the fuck up! This is all your fucking fault! This happened because you're such a fucking clutz!" I shouted.
"Jimin calm down-" Hoseok tried but I cut him off.
"No you can shut your god damn mouth Hoseok. This doesn't involve you!" I shouted.
"You peice of shit" I cursed towards Jin as I turned back to him.
"Jimin I said I'm-" Jin started but I stopped him.
"You know what? Fuck this I'm leaving." I hissed before standing up and storming out of the cafe.
I didn't know where to go after I left the cafe so I went home. I was receiving weird looks from people because I had a coffee stain on my shirt and pants.
As soon as I reached home I changed into a new set of clothes and fell onto my bed. I looked at my phone to see a a few text from Hoseok.
Hoseokie❤:
Are you okay?
Jin says he's really sorry.
What's wrong?
I know that Jin spilling coffee on you wouldn't make you that mad.
Something else is wrong.
Maybe you were having a bad day?
You can tell me.
He's right.
I was just having a bad day today.
Shit.
I just thought about all those horrible things I said to Jin. It wasn't his fault. I was just having a bad day and when the drinks spilled on me I guess my anger just boiled over.
He probably thinks I'm more of an asshole than he already thinks I am and he might hate me now.
I regret everything.
I can't face him again, I feel to bad about it.
I decided I would just eat away my problems today and leave them for tomorrow.
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2 days later:
I still haven't done anything about it. All I've done is avoid Jin.
Hoseok keeps asking me to go to Kim's Cafe with him but I just leave him on read.
I dont know what to do about it.
I guess I'm just going to leave the problem, it can fix itself.
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Another 3 days:
Hoseok keeps insisting that I should hang out with him. But I still don't reply.
The only times I've left my apartment was when I have to go to work or go grocery shopping. I still use the Emotion Register every time I have a shift at the library, it's a just a rutine I have.
I was reading a random book I borrowed from the library when I heard a notification from my phone. It was probably from Hoseok.
I put a bookmark at the page I was at, walk over to the kitchen to grab my phone from the counter and walk back to the couch.
I unlock my phone and press on messages.
Hoseokie❤:
Hey.
Are we gonna go to the cafe or not?
Are you go in to answer me?
I can see that you're reading this.
Jimin answer me.
No.
Hoseokie❤:
Why not?
I don't wanna.
Hoseokie❤:
Please~
No.
Hoseokie❤:
Oh well.
Oh well?
Okay then.
Whatever.
I continued reading my book in silence until I heard a knock at my door.
I wasn't expecting anyone.
I walked over to the door, unlocked and opened it to be face to face with Hoseok.
I quickly went to close the door but a foot was in the way.
"Hoseok why are you here?" I say with a sigh as I slowly re-open the door.
"I just want to know what's wrong." He replied.
"Okay. Come in."
With that a smile came across Hoseok's face as he stepped into my apartment. He took his shoes off, looked around for a few seconds before sitting down on my couch.
I went and sat next to him.
"So are you going to tell me what's wrong?" Hoseok said with a smile.
"Yes." I said with a deep exhale. There no point trying to avoid him now, he is literally in my apartment.
"I just feel really bad. I regret everything I said to Jin, I was just having a bad day and I let it all out on him. Now he hates me. I just want to avoid him for the rest of my life. Thats what I do when I have problems, I just avoid them."
"It's okay. Jin doesn't hate you. All you have to do is apologise and everything will be okay." Soothed Hoseok while patting my back for comfort.
"Well if you don't mind me asking. Why are you normally so... Negative?"
I flinched. I did not expect that. I guess Hoseok felt me shift uncomfortably so he removed his hand from my back. I wanted him to put it back, it was very comforting and it gives me a warm feeling.
"Oh, sorry. You don't have to answer that if it makes you uncomfortable." Hoseok mumbles.
"No its okay." I assured.
"You wouldn't be the first person I told about this but please don't be avoident of me after I tell you." Hoseok just nodded with a small smile.
"Well umm- when I was born, i was born without emotions." I looked down at my feet. "The nurses where so confused why I wasn't crying when I was born. I just had an emotionless face on during the whole process. My parents were surprised and not pleased about it, about me not having emotions. So they left me at an orphanage. I was left to be lonely at the orphanage, I had no friends there. I stayed there for a few years until someone adopted me. Even after all those years I still felt nothing. The first time I got to experience an emotion was when I found the Emotion Register. Since then I could feel emotions but they were all negative, because that was the only thing people donated. Their unwanted negative emotions. But one day someone donated happiness. My first positive emotion I've ever felt." I paused and let out a breath.
"That person was you Hoseok." I looked up and softly smiled at him.
He looked back at me with teary eyes. He was wiping his face with the sleeves of the oversized sweater he had on trying not to cry. He failed though. I could hear his cute little sniffles.
"Awe Hoseokie, what's wrong?" I said with a smile. I was happy I got to tell someone about my problems and them not judging me for it.
Hoseok dived at me and gave me a big hug.
"T-that story was v-very sad." He whined into my shoulder.
He's very warm.
I hugged him back and he tightened his arms around me. He looked very vulnerable in this state.
I never want to see him like this again. I want to take all his negative emotions from him forever so he can always be bright and positive.
So he can always be my sunshine.
We sat there for a while until Hoseok stopped crying and got off me.
"I'm sorry about my little outburst..." He mumbled.
"It's okay." I smiled at him and he smiled back.
Suddenly he stood up, grabbed my arm and started dragging me to the door.
"Where are we going?!?" I shouted as Hoseok struggled to put on his shoes with one hand.
"To fix your problem! We are going to the studio because Jin will be there so you can apologise to him."
I nodded slowly and started putting on my shoes. I followed Hoseok to the bus stop because we were going to the studio by bus.
When we got there I just wanted to leave. I wanted to go back home because I didn't want to see Jin. If I left it would have saved me the embarrassment of seeing him again after yelling at him and regretting it.
But Hoseok pulled me with him before I even decided if I should leave or not.
When we walked in Hoseok greeted everyone with a big smile, but I just shuffled behind him. Hoseok spots Jin sitting on the couch. He turns to me and smiled.
"I dont know what to do." I whispered.
"Apologise."
"I don't know how. I've never really apologised to someone properly before."
"Well... All you have to do is say sorry to him."
"Ah, ok."
I slowly walk over to the couch. I look over Jin's and Namjoon's head to see that they were watching a movie together. I couldn't recognise what movie though.
"U-uh Jin." I say as I tapped him on the shoulder. He and Namjoon turned around and Jin flinched when he saw it was me.
"Can we talk in private for a second?"
"Uh... Sure Jimin."
He got up and followed me to the kitchen.
We stood in an awkward silence for a while until Jin decided to talk first.
"So um-" Jin started.
"I'm sorry!" I blurted with a 90 degrees bow.
"Huh?" He replied obviously confused.
"I'm sorry for what happened at the cafe. When I yelled at you." I explained. " I was having a really bad day before that and when you spilt the coffee on me I just snapped."
"Oh yeah. I'm sorry about tha-"
"It wasn't your fault. You just tripped. It was an accident. I'm sorry for yelling at you." I said with another bow.
"I accept your apology Jimin." Jin comforted. Pulling me into a hug.
I stood still for a second before I hugged him back and rested my head on his shoulder. I looked to the side and saw Hoseok leaning on the kitchen counter with his arms folded, looking at us.
He smiled fondly at me.
That causing me to smile back.
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A/N:
G'day,
Welp. this was a boring chapter.
Sorry.