Chapter 33: Collapse
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Your POV
I laid down my bed, looking at the ceiling, contemplating whether or not I should go outside this room.
"Damn it." I muttered, snatching my phone from the white desk. I opened it and typed in the password. I wonder if someone messaged me today- Hah! What a joke, no one even knows my number. No one alive anyways.
*beep* *beep*
My phone just vibrated in front of me, did I speak too soon?
Eyy biatch, I faund you're nambeerrrrr.
-Unknown Number
wtf?
*beep* *beep*
WheepepepepepepsssSSsssss. Rong namber. Whoever you're r, I bet u we're like 'omffgghhh, sam1 txted me' well biatch u tot.
-Unknown Number
Ookayy?
Suddenly, two knocks came from the door. Interrupting my loading brain which wasn't good enough to comprehend what the hell just happened and why people are just so random.
I jolted up from the white comfy bed, my phone immediately slipped from my hand and thankfully it didn't kiss the floor. I ran 'quietly' to the door and peeked in the little hole it had.
THANK EVERY LIVING UNICORN THAT IT WASN'T NEAR.
You see, when I oh-so-gracefully and amazingly said that I wasn't entirely human to the one and only Near, I was greeted by a set of aamaaazzinnggg reactions.
His eyes widened in surprise, before smiling. A rare sight, as mine widened too.
"Then that makes you even more fabulously perfect." He stated, before flashing yet another smile as my lips met a pair of cold and soft ones.
Okay. Yeah. That didn't happen, instead, I ran away like a coward. Scared of what was to come. It was terrifying, and very humiliating.
I just made a fool out of myself , humiliated myself out of L's successor. Out of Near.
"OPEN THE GODDAMNED DOOR DAMMIT!"
Woops, I totally forgot that Mello was here.
I pulled open the door, facing a pissed off blonde before me.
"Why the hell does Near seem so much more... I don't know, weird? I was trying to annoy him but then it's like he can't even see me. WTF is happening?"
"Well."
"Well what?"
I sighed, rubbing my head. "He knows my secret. My glorious mouth accidentally told him."
"What secret?"
"Oh crap. Dammit mouth!"
Mello narrowed his eyes, grabbing a chocolate bar out of nowhere and shoving a piece in his mouth.
"What secret was it?" He asked. Oh no, now he's too nosy.
"Hush it, curiosity killed the cat."
"But, satisfaction brought it back."
"Just no. If I told you, it wouldn't be a secret now, would it?"
"Please refrain from blocking the doorway, Mello. Some people needs to pass and your fat excuse of a figure isn't helping." A harsh yet blank voice spoke up, making me sigh in relief for interrupting Mello's curiosity, but then I realized who it was.
"What the f*ck Near?" Was Mello's response, before his hand was raised and he picked up Near by his collar.
"Okie dokie that's enough!" I said, trying to pry his hands away from Near.
Mello glared at Near before he made his dramatic exit.
I sighed, well that's out of the way. Next up, dealing with the awkwardness! Yay!
Near's aura felt different, and that's when I realized the unusual sadness creeping up to his face. The mask had cracked, and the true persona was itching to get out.
His arms wrapped around me so suddenly, my breath hitched. This is truly a weird day, what the hell is happening? Where's his disgust to me? Where's his reaction to my supposed to be 'deep dark secret'? Where is everything?
I heard sobs. Sobs from someone I never knew would cry in front of me.
"Near? What's wrong?" I whispered, hugging him back as I heard him sobbing a little more louder.
"I-i c-can't." He tried saying as if he was breaking. My heart was breaking into a million pieces. I have never seen or even imagined Near like this, I don't think somebody had.
"P-please help me. D-don't think ill of me either..." He muttered.
"If anyone, it's you who should think ill of me. Remember earlier? Or do you not believe me?" I replied back softly, 'trying' to comfort him. I don't know what to do, crap.
"I trust your words, it's just that... it makes you even more perfect. Being farther from humans like that, it doesn't bother me. Why is it that you chose to tell me? or blurt it out? Why is it that you're stepping into the boundary of mine? I'm growing attached (Y/N), I'm starting to grow attached to you. It's... so scary."
"You don't want to be fond of me?" I asked, my emotions kept bursting out of their bubbles one by one. Near was having a break down, and my mind doesn't know what to do.
"It isn't like that. It's just, I'm not good enough for you. You're so much better than me. And I- I don't know what to with these feelings. I don't know how I'm supposed to act, how I'm supposed to be. I'm just a blank sheet of paper, just a boring specimen."
I pulled away from the hug and my hands landed on his shoulders. My eyes looked straight to his steel-grey ones.
"Near, don't think lowly of yourself. You're not supposed to be acting, you should be doing what you feel like doing, even if it doesn't meet the standards of society, nor the standards of normality. You shouldn't be doing what L is supposed to be doing, you shouldn't be trying to act like someone you're not-"
"I don't understand." Near cut me off. "Why do you stick with me? Why are you so determined to prove that I'm something?"
"Because you are something, and with the bond we shared through the Kira Case, it seemed like I am now fond of you."
A very small happy smile came up to his face. His tears had stopped, and his eyes were shining with a different emotion.
"Thank you. I'm very thankful." Near said, shyly leaning in, crashing his lips into mine.
So cold, yet so warm.
"It's Nate. Nate River." He said quietly, looking down to his feet.
"A pleasure to meet you. I'm (Y/N) (L/N)."
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Exactly 1000 words, without this little A/N of course.
-/potatomalfoy\