Amari in the media (Might change)
Add me on snapchat yall: Eriee_renee
"Not a lame or a scrub, no that ain't what it was. Knew this girl is somebody else's, I think I'm in love. She know she bad, but what's new
Maybe the baddest, I want you girl. I gotta have it, what it do, girl? You cool girl, play by the rules girl." - Sy Ari Da Kid
JESSICA
Montana and I just got to his house. We walk in. "Where are they?" I ask. "Tae ass should be in the bed. I didn't tell you he pushed a lil girl down the stairs?" he asks. "No, you didn't. When and why did he do that?" I ask, shocked. Before he can answer, Tae runs straight into his arms. He stares at Montana wide eyed. "Why you out the bed and why you running in the house? Didn't I say stay in that bed? And go get my belt, I didn't forget." Montana calmly says, staring down at him. Tae looks at me for help. As much as I want to help him, I can't because he was wrong. "Don't look at yo momma. I'm over here. Why you think you can do what you wanna do?" Montana asks. Tae smacks his lips. "I'm just a real nigga comin' through, daddy." he dryly says, making my mouth drop. "Huh?" Montana asks, staring at him in disbelief. "You heard me. I'm a grown man. Excuse me, Disney Channel is on." Tae says, then walks away.
I stare at him in shock. Montana starts laughing. "Grown man? Real nigga comin' through, huh?" he asks Tae. He snatches Tae to him by his shirt then hangs him upside down. I watch as Tae screams and cries while Montana holds him upside down, whooping his ass. "I'm sorry! Momma, help me!" Tae screams at the top of his lungs, sobbing. "Shut up! Shut ya mouth!" Montana snaps at him, laying him on the floor. He lifts him up by his shirt. "Say that shit again, I dare you!" Montana snaps in his face. Tae starts looking down, crying loudly. Montana snatches his head up by his chin. "Hell is you doin' lil man? Why you looking down?" Montana asks. "I don't know." Tae sobs. "Look at me." Montana says. Tae starts staring in his eyes. "Always look a nigga dead in the eyes. Are we weak niggas or real men around here?" Montana asks. "Real men." Tae mumbles. "Speak up." Montana demands, still holding Tae's chin. "Real men." Tae says louder. "Aight then, so we gone act like it. Always look niggas in the eyes. Only bitches look everywhere but in the eyes. Go clean yourself up then go ahead and watch TV. You hungry lil man?" Montana asks him. "No, sir. Reign made me a sandwich." he answers. Montana nods his head. "Say hello to yo momma then go ahead. And I'm only on you so hard cause I love you, aight?" Montana asks. "Yes, sir." Tae says.
I smile as I hug Tae. "I love you." I say, then kiss all over his face. He starts laughing. "Mommy, is that called a hickup?" he asks, pointing at the hickey on my neck. "Go clean yourself up." Montana demands before I can answer. Tae nods his head then walks out.
"You so hard on him." I mumble to Montana. "So, you mad?" Montana asks. "No... but I think you should lighten up. You were hitting him too hard." I say. "No, the problem is you don't hit him hard enough. That's why he be thinking the shit he do is okay. You need to start beating his lil ass when he acting up instead of laughing at the bad shit he doing cause it ain't gone do nothing but make him think it's okay. That is not okay. And you need to control yo husband or whatever he is when he with my son. I do not like the bullshit he do around him." he says. I narrow my eyes at him. "Don't be a hypocrite. How you gone do all this talking about Ant but you a paid killer?" I ask. "Here yo ass go. Don't try to pull that on me, Jessica, real talk. Cause me and that nigga ain't the same. I never said I'm a saint and I never once said I don't have my own demons I'm fighting. But I ain't ever disrespected him by doing things I shouldn't in front of his kids." he says.
"Whatever." I say, then head to Reign's bedroom he has here. "See, here you go being petty and childish." he says. "Leave me alone. I didn't even say or do shit to you. Like, damn, shut up." I say. He smacks his lips. "Before I end up hurting yo feelings, imma go to my room." he calmly says, then walks away.
I sigh then walk in Reign's room. Her and Noble are knocked out sleep. I walk over to Noble then kiss his cheek. He opens his eyes then hugs me tight. "Ma... I love you." he sleepily says with his eyes closed. "I love you more." I say, smiling.
His eyes widen as he stares at my neck. "That's why Montana didn't come back like he said he would last night. Yall had a good night, huh?" he asks, smirking. "Boy, shut the hell up." I say, making him laugh harder. "I love my dad but he gotta come harder, mane. I mean... I don't be trying to compare em or nothin' but come on... my dad got a lot of work to do." he says. "Noble... your dad ended it yesterday." I tell him. "I heard from Majesty. I saw the picture." he says. "What picture?" I ask, confused, making his eyes widen.
"It was a picture of him with some strippers in his man cave, that's it. Majesty recorded him crying over you while he was getting danced on." he answers. I shake my head. "I'll be back." I say, then walk out.
I walk into Montana's room then look down, biting my lip as he does push ups. Why is he such a turn on to me? I close the door. "Montana, I'm sorry for getting an attitude. I know you only want the best for our son so I'm sorry, I was wrong." I admit. He stands up. "K." he says, making my eyes widen. "You know I fucking hate that K bullshit." I say. "K." he says.
"Whatever, bye." I say, turning to walk out. I roll my eyes as he pulls me to him from behind. "I'm just playin'. I ain't mad." he says, then kisses me on my neck. I pull away. "What's wrong?" he asks. "I'm starting to feel guilty. Like... I can't explain the feeling." I admit.
He leans in my face then kisses me on my lips while laying me back on the bed. "For real, I don't give a damn about yo nigga." he says, kissing my chest. "Why should I?" he asks, chuckling as he puts his hand up my shirt. I bite my lip then sit up. "Stop it... I think I should go get help, Montana. My attitude is so disrespectful sometimes. That's probably why Ant don't love me anymore. And it's like every time I'm hurting, I never deal with it. I just go for sex and it's becoming unhealthy." I say, taking a deep breath. He gets off me, then extends his hand. I grab it then stand. "We gone get yo help then. Pass me my phone, I'm finna find some professionals you can talk to. And I'm sorry for coming on to you like that, aight? But I'm finna find you somebody." he says.
I swallow hard then shake my head. "I depend on you way too much. Let me do this by myself." I say. "What type of person would I be to leave you on yo own to figure this whole thing out? Ain't finna happen, Jessica." he says. "No, Montana. At least let me try first. I promise I'll tell you when I need your help with it." I say. He leans in then kisses my forhead. "Aight. I'm here always, aight?" he asks. I nod my head then hug him. I'm so thankful for him. I've honestly learned so much from him since he's been in my life and that's real.
-
I just got to my house with Noble and Reign. Tae's visiting his cousins on Montana's side so Montana's bringing him here tonight. As expected, my house smells like nothing but weed. I walk up the my bedroom then sigh. I don't know when Ant had time to get the glass fixed but it is and it's red and pink balloons and shopping bags and gifts from some of my favorite stars all over the room.
Ant walks out the bathroom. "Where is Amari?" I ask. "With KeKe." he answers, smiling extra wide. I stare at him in confusion. I don't know what it is but this nigga looking different, like he just found a billion dollars or something. His eyes are wide as hell and he can't stop blushing and laugh. "I said ooh yaya, bitch, back up off me." he raps, dying laughing.
"You high?" I ask. "I took my medicine. I feel happy as fuck, real shit." he says. I laugh as he climbs on top of the dresser. "I think I can fly, Jessica. I grew wings and they'll only come out if you tell me you love me." he says, blushing at me.
"Ant, chill. What is all this?" I ask, pointing around the room at the balloons and gifts. "And why are you back at home when you're supposed to be getting help?" I add. "It's yours, duh. And I don't wanna be there. Imma continue to go to my regular sessions which you gotta come to with me today. And imma take my medicine like I'm supposed to." he says. "Ant, your are not a damn child, okay? You a grown ass man with responsibilities and you know damn well you ain't stable enough right now. So, you cannot afford to not take your medicine, understand?" I ask in all seriousness. He nods his head.
"Ay, go ahead look at the stuff I bought you cause we gotta be at our first session of the day in an hour." he says. "Why you acting like nothing happened yesterday?" I ask. "Ion fuck with the past, mane. We finna fuck with the future the strong way though." he says. I look at him crazy as he does a back bend.
"Whatever. What session are you talking about?" I ask. "To talk with my therapist about how you feel and shit." he answers. "I'll go but I'm going for me, not for you. And you can't buy me this time, Ant, so you can keep the gifts or give em to yo bitches." I say.
He smacks his lips. "Them hoes didn't mean nothing. I'm sure the nigga you fucked meant a lot to you though." he says, touching the hickey Montana put on my chest. "You told me our marriage was over, Ant. So, what's the point in this?" I ask. He pulls me in his arms then leans in to kiss me. I turn my head so he can't kiss me. "Stop playing." he mumbles. "Ant, you don't wanna kiss me. I sucked the shit out Montana's dıck last night, honestly." I say.
He picks me up then rushes to the bathroom. "What the fuck are you doing?" I ask as he grabs a bottle of peroxide. "Open up." he demands, pulling my lips apart. My eyes widen as he pours peroxide in my mouth. I spit it out then look at him crazy. "What the fuck? Nigga, chill." I say, putting toothpaste on my toothbrush. I brush my teeth then rinse my mouth with mouthwash. Ant starts laughing. "Now that we deep cleaned yo mouth, give me a kiss." he says, pulling me in his arms.
"Get off me. Get out so I can take a shower." I say. My phone vibrates in my pocket. I quickly respond to Quan's text, telling him hello, then put my phone back in my pocket. "Hurry up. We gotta go." he says. I push him out the bathroom then close and lock to the door. I finally realized how bad I need help and I'm gonna take it seriously.
COMMENT 35
VOTE
GOODNIGHT/MORNING