it's like two in the morning for me right now bear with me. (i spent an hour writing this praise me bitch)
okay so i consider myself a softcore/on the verge of hardcore feminist bc why the fukc not but sometimes boys can become a part of my life which is bad bc i need to be studying for finals rn lolol maybe not at two am but the possibilities!
okay so yEAH, i know and realize that a girl/women's life does not and will never 'live on' what boys think of them, what boys like, etc. like u know when people are like:
"guys don't like it when you swear."
and then i'm like: "oh guys don't like it when i swear? *ahem* fuckshitassholedickdamnmotherfuckerassbitchputafuckerjackass. whew, do guys still not like me? lol!"
yeah and when girls aren't paying attention in my latin class my latin teacher is like: "boys like girls who are smart and do their work." like okaay, is my education now only supposed to be for boys?
anyway's gonna do a couple mini-rants that are mostly about boys and liking boys etc etc. oh and some topics that might make y'all uncomfortable but it's not abt sex or anything so(hol up scratch tht they are literally almost all about sex/sexual stuff).
k leggo!
1 - boys and jokes vs boys and harassment!
so remember when i was talking about spanish boys and i was telling you about my friend who asks me and other people out as jokes? yeah, so i know that he's joking and i also know i'm super ugly so who tf is gonna crush on me but i'm pretty sure he likes me bc he used to act like my bitch whenever he saw me. he'd be like: "omg hi zuzu!" and shit like that and get all excited and crap.
but i think on thursday i was getting ice cream from the ice cream truck that comes to my school after school and i was waiting to get my ice cream and the guy, we'll call him jasen, comes over and he's like: "hey babe" so only i can hear and i'm like "ew" to him as he walks by.
so after jasen did that i was like, "okay this hoe does stuff like that a lot and it makes me uncomfortable.." so let's go through a few scenariooos. (unwanted nicknames/pet names)
- he fuckin always brushes against me intentionally and he's usually like "ughh zuzu." or "damn zuzu." and i'm like umm okay then but i didn't take it seriously i guess? ("Intentionally brushed up against in a sexual way.")
- and then the other day i blocked him on snapchat bc at first we added each other and then a few days later after posting selfies(where i wasn't asking for it even tho i know my ass is great) he's says something like (and i can't exactly remember): "*something about me and then* and you have a hot body like damn." or something along the lines of my body which i didn't ask to get a very creepy 'compliment' on. and i just laughed because idk i was uncomfortable but i laughed lol k. ("sexual comments about parts of your body; what type of sex you'd be good at; your clothing; or your looks")
- repeatedly asks me & others out: so idk if y'all know this but i'm p sure asking people out even when they say no multiple times is kinda considered harassment. obviously he does it as a joke but :///
so the next time i feel uncomfortable i will yell at him like i have before because he was moaning sexually during ela class while sitting next to me while i was fookin trying to focus and he woULDN'T STOP WHNE I ASKED HIM TO WHAT A LITTLE FUCKER
anyways u guys should be on the watch for this in people, it can be girls or guys but if you ever feel too uncomfortable, go talk to someone about it please: ( https://mainweb-v.musc.edu/vawprevention/research/sexharass.shtml )
2 - fuckboys that u got feelings for/ that are hot
okayyyy so u know the fuckboys aka boys with shitty personalities that are actually so attractive or that you had/have a crush on? yeah me too!
like fml all the fuckboi rants i've written have been about a fuckboi i used to have a crush on (woah there i accidentally wrote "i used to love" wats goin on)
anywaysss so i realized with him i was a real victim of his harassment bc he always moaned in my ear but ngl it was pretty hot lol k
but it's still harassment so it's like...
you don't know what to choose ugh.
and he's brazilian honestly fucK ME UP (not in that way)
anyways all these outwardly attractive yet inwardly disgusting boys got me feeling some type of way
3 - the it girl
okay so you know how in novels and movies and television shows, there's usually some girl that all the boys are head over heels "in love with"?
like the girl that's super hot and all the boys are like damnn mami and like you know they're all bothered.
SO SOMETIMES DESPITE BEING A FEMINIST I THINK ABOUT BEING THAT GIRL and I start acting like I'm hella fierce or something hahaha.
but anyways, boys aren't' everything, in fact boys are pretty shitty but if i like a boy, being an it girl would be a solution to getting him to like me back anyways.
4 - my ass
sO my ass is a pretty controversial topic.
no i'm joking it's really not it's actually not that big but believe me a bitch is working on it.
anYWAYS i've gotten many "compliments" (notice the quotation marks) on my ass i guess.
so it's like once i was walking out of one of the theater rooms and as i was walking out, one of the boys behind me hIT MY BUTT WITH A CROWN(this ass is the queen) and i like yelped/giggled bc i thought it was on my back and then he was like, "you have the biggest ass" and then i was like bruh wtf.
and so another thing was i was barking orders to a boy and he wasn't listening and he looks down at my bosom(lmAO IM LAUGHING BOSOM) and he's like "lemme feel your tits." and i heard what he said but i was like: "whaa?" like i was so confused i've never been caught that off guard.
and he looked up after that and he was like, "oh my god i'm so sorry."
and i said: "it's okay."
cuz i'm pretty sure he meant to keep that to himself.
5 - boys being horny
so some boys are like overly-horny and have too much of a sex drive which is fine because it's their "sex life" but when their sexual comments are directed to me it's even worse because i'm so upbeat and i'm just like: "are you joking or what like do you want me or something?" (lmfaoo) like i can't tell which is pretty bad sucks for me.
so i'm gonna rewind on a few scenarios.
- so a couple weeks ago i was editing a project with one of the people in my humanities class and the same guy that thought it was okay to hit my butt with a crown was literally blowing on my neck and i was like no wtf and when i got home i looked it up and yahoo said it was a sign that the boy likes you or something. and i was like lol k now i'm fucked up bc idk if he likes me or not nice.
and then there was another boy on that day and he was like "zuzu's all alone" bc he didn't see my partner and then hE SAID, "i hope she masturb8s" UM WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK LEAVE MY PSUSY OUT OF THIS BROTHER.
- once i was talking to a boy and he literally physically hurt me (but not like on purpose or in a really bad way) and i was like (we'll call him harold), "ow harold."
and the same guy that talked about masturbation and me leaned into me and whispered in my ear, "ow harold ow" like in a sexual tone so it sounded like harold was doing more than hitting me by accident.
- and then once the same guy who whispered in my ear, let's call him lucifer, was like "suck my cock" at least twice and when i said no once he was like "please" i'm so
- so then lucifer was walking through the halls with his squad and there i was, chillin' with my peeps and he yells: "ZUZU FUCK ME" and then starts moaning afterwards it was so pathetic.
(i'm not even lying on any of these no matter how much it sounds like i am this is literally how disgusting the boys at my school are.
- and then once i was talking about how i loved miranda sings so it went like.
me - i love miranda
lucifer - in a like, lesbian kind of way? (boys and their lesbian kink things what kind of fuckery is this?)
me - sure
lucifer - that's hot *laughs*
and then we had oneee last situation with the guy that asked to feel my tittays:
- i was talking to a friend and this whore decided to join in and so i said,
"why are you not minding ur business?" or something along the lines of that.
then he was like, "i can hear you."
i'm like, "wtf how?"
he's like, "'cuz you have big lips."
and ya know that comes in handy ^ ;)
i hate boys once this girl everyone hates spread a rumor that i was a lesbian lmao nice!
#zuzaf