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꒰ ͜͡➸ rain <3
꒰ ͜͡➸ kinda a lot
angsty
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i grumbled to myself as i stared up at the ceiling of my room.
ghost was on a three month tour.
a three month tour that didn't allow any breaks for the ghouls. they couldn't come home. i couldn't see rain.
of course there was always face time and texting, but he was always tired from the shows and traveling.
knock knock knock
"y/n you can't hole up in your room for the last two weeks of their tour. you've been doing so well." ifrit's voice called.
"i can and i am." i stated, feeling shallow.
this had never happened before and ghost had been on much longer tours than three months with the same acceptions.
"y/n.. come on.. let me take you out to the town, you haven't been outside in a week." ifrit tried to persuade me. "no." i stated bluntly.
something about this tour just really ripped my heart from my chest and i couldn't figure out what it was.
"y/n if you don't come out i'm coming in." ifrit told me, determination clear in his tone.
i groaned, rolling onto my side and facing the wall.
i heard a defeated sigh come from behind the door and ifrit's footsteps faded away.
i sadly picked up my phone, going to tiktok and scrolling through my for you page. most of the videos were edits of the ghouls, but rain plagued all the videos in some way.
"swept away i'm stolen..." the edit audio played, the screen fading to show rain looking down at the camera. the video slowed when rain held up his hand, signing 'i love you,' his pinky, index and thumb extended as he tilted his head and waved his hand back and fourth slightly.
it was our little motion we did from across the room whenever we were hanging out with everyone.
i sniffled, tears welling in my eyes as i watched the edit over and over. i looked down to the caption,
'i wonder who he's saying i love you to'
i quickly saved the video, scrolling and hoping the next one would be happier.
'don't want to leave you anymore..." the audio played as a clip of rain and i reuniting from the last super long tour faded in.
i was waiting at the airport next to ifrit, strangers giving us looks due to ifrit's silver mask.
omega was recording me standing on my toes trying to find rain in the flood of people coming from the gate.
after a second or two, ifrit pointed and i began running, both the previous generation's ghouls running after me.
rain came into view, dropping all of his stuff with the rest of ghost and running at me as well.
'oh darling all of the city lights...' the video turned to color as rain and i collided in a bone crushing hug.
'never shine as bright as your eyes..' the video transitioned slightly to show rain gently pushing my hair out of my eyes and kissing me.
suddenly, my phone was taken from my hand and turned off. i looked over my shoulder, seeing ifrit staring down at me with a sad look in his eye.
i huffed, turning back to the wall and burying myself away from the ghoul.
"y/n this isn't healthy.." ifrit sighed, putting my phone down.
"you always tell me to let my emotions out." i stated. ifrit chuckled softly, "i do.."
after a few moments ifrit gently rolled me over, tilting his head as he looked down at me.
"what can i do for you?" the ghoul asked. "bring rain back." i sniffled. ifrit sighed, nodding. "you have to do something for me first, though." ifrit told me. i nodded, holding the ghoul's arm close to me as a grounding tool. "come out with alpha, omega, papa and i for dinner. we're going down to that one place that you love.." ifrit offered, maneuvering so he was laying down next to me, our eyes level.
i just stared at the ghoul, thinking things over.
"please? it'll be good for you.." ifrit whispered, desperation in his eyes. i sighed after a moment, nodding.
ifrit grinned, jumping up out of my bed, bringing me with him into a big hug.
a small smile graced my face as i hugged ifrit back, giggling as he jumped up and down with me.
my happiness was short lived as i looked down at the meal rain and i always share at this restaurant.
my hands rested in my lap as i looked at the food, picking out all the things that rain ate for me and that i ate for him, whether we were allergic or we didn't like it.
"are you going to eat?" omega asked, his head tilted as he looked at me. i looked up at him then back down at the food, shrugging.
ifrit was quick to pick up his phone, typing something before turning it off and setting it face up on the table.
"y/n, you've gotta eat, love.." alpha sighed, resting his hand on my shoulder. i looked up, an empty pit in my stomach. papa's eyes softened as he grabbed my hand from under the table.
i looked over at him, my heart aching at his sympathetic eyes.
ifrit picked up his phone as papa glanced behind me, a small smile on both of their faces.
"can you hear me say your name forever?" papa sang softly as the restaurant quieted down. "what..?" i whispered.
"can you see me longing for you forever..?" papa continued. i looked at the ghouls, focusing on ifrit recording me. "what are you doing?" i asked. "would you let me touch your soul forever?" papa grinned. "you guys are confusing me.." i stated, looking between the four of them.
"can you feel me longing for you forever.." a new voice sang from the stage that was behind me. i froze.
papa iv..?
"forever..." another new voice joined. i whipped around, a soft chord being played on a piano.
my eyes widened as i made eye contact with a smiling rain, the ghouls and papa behind him as the water ghoul gripped the mic in his hand.
my breathing staggered along with my legs as i stumbled to get out of my seat.
papa iv grabbed a mic from swiss, "i know.. the light grows darker down below.."
i crumbled to the ground slightly, alpha reacting quickly and catching me as rain handed his mic to aether.
"but in.. your eyes.. it's gone before you know.." papa continued as i got my feet underneath me, rain jumping down from the stage as we ran at each other.
"this is the moment of just letting go.. she said.. if you had life eternal.." papa grinned, aether and sodo getting down from the stage as mountain got ready to start.
time felt like it froze as mountain hit a few drums, rain and i making contact in an emotional hug.
"can you hear me say your name forever?" papa and swiss sang.
i let out a sob, clutching onto rain and blocking out everything around us.
rain brought one of his hands to the back of my head, holding me close as he let me sob into the crook of his neck, staggered breaths escaping him as he held me tightly.
rain's shoulders shook after a moment of hugging. i sniffled, pulling away slightly and looking up at him. tears were streaming from rain's eyes, being soaked up by the black fabric under his mask.
"oh don't cry, you're gonna make me cry," i laughed, sniffling after. "you're already crying," rain chuckled, tears continuing to stream from us eyes. "yeah i am.." i whispered, pressing my forehead to his. rain let out a shaky sigh, holding onto me tightly.
papa and the ghouls had since stopped singing and playing their instruments, surrounding rain and i to give us some privacy from the restaurant.
i heard quiet cries and a few 'awe's from outside of the hell-circle.
i smiled, leaning against rain as we all walked into the ministry. immediately, the ghouls and the two papa's forced us to go upstairs to spend some time alone together.
rain held me close to him as we laid in my bed under the covers, running his clawed hands through my hair as his heartbeat relieved all stress i had in my body.
"rain..?" i questioned after a few minutes of peaceful, loving silence. "hm?" rain hummed. i paused, rain noticing. "what's wrong, dove?" rain whispered, pulling away from our cuddling and looking down at me.
"why was this time so hard..? it was way shorter but way worse being away from you.." i whispered, tearing up as i remembered some of the nights where one of either alpha, omega, ifrit or papa iii had to hold me as i sobbed.
rain stared at me sadly, frowning.
"there's a reason.. isn't there..?" i asked. rain nodded, keeping quiet for a moment.
"usually around this time of year, connections between ghouls and their mates get extremely strong. the tour had bad timing. i tried talking to papa, i wanted someone to replace me for this tour because i knew it would be hard on you, but we couldn't find anyone." rain sighed.
"but wouldn't it just affect you? i didn't know humans felt what ghouls did.. these past few weeks have been awful.." i mumbled. rain hummed, nodding, "yes and no.. it's only after a certain amount of time.." rain explained briefly. "so did it affect you more? or was it just me?" i questioned. "a connection has two sides, right?" rain smiled sadly.
i frowned, pulling rain close again, burying my face into his neck. rain sighed, holding onto me tightly.
"you can ask any one of the guys.. every night was terrible. i could barely go on stage i was so wired and anxious.." rain mumbled. my heart tightened, pain twinging in my chest.
"is that why you're back early?" i asked. rain nodded into my shoulder. "papa managed to get one of the older ghouls to come.. i'm gonna stay.." rain whispered.
i quickly pulled away from rain, "really?" i asked. rain smiled, nodding. a big smile lit up my face as i hugged rain again.
"is this connection or whatever going to stay this powerful?" i whispered. "it shouldn't. we might be a bit more clingy but otherwise everything should go back to normal.." rain kissed my head, hugging me tightly. i hummed happily, settling into rain's body.
"i love you, dove.." rain whispered.
"i love you too, rain.."
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