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Noah's Pov:
I push Demi away and she looks at me confused and says "what's wrong?" I say "what's wrong with you? You are engaged to Wilmer" she looks at me confused and says "Alex what is wrong with you we already talked about this" she continues kissing my neck and rubbing my crotch and I close my eyes because I can't help but actually be enjoying this she is making me hard, but I can't help but question myself have Demi and I been hooking up behind Wilmer's back this whole time? I push Demi away and I say "Demi stop this isn't right" she says "what? Alex you were the one that started this remember you seduced me and everything you made me fall in love with you, you can't just leave me now like this" I sigh and say "no Demi I'm sorry we can't do this anymore" she says "Alex what the hell are you talking about you do not get to call quits on me ok what about the baby" I make a confused face and say "baby? What baby" she looks at me and says "unbelievable what the hell has gotten into you? You know your son James" my eyes widen holy shit James is my son too? "What do you mean he is my son?" She says "Are you serious are you like playing me or something? Of course he is your son we talked about this already you got me pregnant and I had to pretend that James is Wilmer's but he's actually yours, what's wrong Alex why are you acting like this?" She rubs my chest I am so confused how the hell did we get here? Who knows that we are doing this? So I say "I'm sorry I just I think I hit my head or something and I forgot a couple of things" she pouts and rubs my cheek and says "aww my poor baby, do you want to go to the doctor and get that checked out?" "No no no I think I'll be fine" she rubs my cheek and says "I love you sooo much Alex" I give her a small smile and say "I love you too Demi I really do" and that was the truth I really do love Demi and no matter what Demi and I will always hurt the people that we love and care about us and honestly I feel really bad that we are doing this behind Taylor and Wilmer's back so I say "Demi how um did we get here to this?" She sighs and says "well um I remember the first time we met was at the pool party that Austin threw for you and well honestly it like love at first sight for me because even though I knew you were a player and acted all tough and everything I was attracted to you right away and It took me one conversation to have to fall in love with you" I smile.
Then I say "after that I honestly couldn't stop thinking about you even though I was with Wilmer and when I saw you again we shared our first kiss and it just made me fall in love even more but I knew that we couldn't be together because I was with Wilmer at that time and well you eventually asked Taylor to be your girlfriend" I nod understanding and she says "it broke my heart when I found out that you guys were together but then I understood that we couldn't be with other but eventually we gave in and well when you seduced me I gave in because I knew that you loved me and I knew that I loved you and so we began to have this secret relationship I mean no one knows up to this day, but of course eventually I became pregnant with James and well I knew that it was your son and well we had to pretend that it was Wilmer's and then we also find out that Wilmer is actually your father and it made things worse but we still continued and agreed that one day we would have to tell both Taylor and Wilmer the truth and we know that it's going to hurt them but they deserve the truth but then the day we were going to do it Taylor also became pregnant and it was just all a mess but we were and are still in love with each other but we just now don't know what or when we should tell them" I sigh and rub the back of my neck and say "man we really fucked up" she sighs and says "yeah I mean obviously what we are doing is horrible but I mean we can't help it because we are in love with each other and we can't help it" I sigh again and say "I don't know I don't think we should keep this going on anymore" she says "Alex you can't do that to me you can't leave me behind with our son James" "I know I don't want to but I think I have to do it and I think that we should tell Taylor and Wilmer but we can't be together" tears begin to build up in her eyes and she says "no no no we can't tell them Alex because if we tell Wilmer he is going to kill you Alex" I look at her with a confused face and say "what do you mean?" "Alex, your father is still a drug lord and he will have you killed he will forget that you are his son and he will send someone to kill you" I knew it, it was too good to be truth that he was a good person so I say "Demi he can't kill me trust me he can't ok I will take care of it" she nods her head tears are coming out of her eyes and says "No Alex please don't do it don't tell him he's even capable of killing James and Lucas" I frown because both of my sons would be killed by my own father and she says "Alex he will also kill me" I look at her "he won't do that Demi I'll protect you and my sons and even Taylor because I know that he will try to hurt her" she nods her head "no Alex I can't let you tell him you don't understand" I cup her cheeks and say "yes I do baby I understand everything now trust me in order for us to be happy we have to face our mistakes" she looks into my eyes and says "even if it involves us getting killed?" I look down and she says "Alex" I look into her eyes and say "even if it involves me getting killed and you my sons and Taylor living" she cries onto my chest and says "I can't live without you Alex I can't I need you in my life I love you soooo much I can't loose you if you die the I will die" "no you won't baby girl because you are a warrior" "No Alex, Jenny told me that I would've died if you would've died when you had that car accident and you saw her" I look at her confused and say "what how do you know that?" "She told me Alex".
What how does Demi know this, this was all part of the dream that dream that I had or is it a dream or is this a dream? I am so confused now I don't know what is actually real and what isn't real did Demi and I ever get together or did we not? What the hell happened to me? Am I in some sort of coma and I am just dreaming that I was never with Demi? I don't understand I really don't, but I was pulled out of my thoughts when I see Wilmer standing there with anger in his eyes and then he takes out a gun and points it at Demi and I he is yelling many things but it's like I am lost and I blocked the sound and I can't hear anything I look at Demi and fear is running through her face tears are falling from her eyes and she is looking at me knowing that we are not going to make it out next thing you know he shoots Demi and my eyes widen, Demi falls into my arms and I say "no no no Demi" she isn't moving I check her pulse but I don't feel anything and I say "no no no baby come back please, please come back please don't leave please wake up" I keep trying and hoping that she would wake up but she doesn't I can't loose her she needs to wake up "Demi please don't leave me please wake up please I love you so much I'm sorry I'm sorry that I let you down in sorry don't leave please" I try waking her up but she just wouldn't I look up and I see Wilmer smirking at me while pointing the gun and he says "I knew all along you know I knew that you and Demi were sleeping together behind my back all along, I knew that James wasn't my son but your and you both deserve to die and now that I've handled this bitch it's your turn to die Alex" everything happened so fast and next thing I know is that he shoots me.....
Well this is the end of the chapter you guys j hope you enjoyed it! :D
Hahaha Just kidding it's not the end just yet! ;) so don't have a heart attack lol
Suddenly I wake up and I look around and I see that I am in Lauren's guest room again oh no not again and I look to my left but instead of seeing Taylor I see Isabella sleeping peacefully and I can see tear tracks that had dried up on her face, it was all a dream none of it happened I don't have 2 sons and I am not having an affair with Demi it was all just a dream, I take a deep breath and smile I'm glad it was a dream because that means that Demi never died and neither did I, I need to get Demi we belong together I love her she is the only one that I will ever love I love Isabella but my love for Demi is stronger and I know that I am going to move on from Isabella I wake up and she sees me and sits down immediately and says "Noah are you ok? Oh my god I am so glad you are awake I was so scared" I say "what happened to me?" "You um had an anxiety attack and then out of no where you just passed out we called the doctor and he said that you would sleep for a few hours but that you were ok you just needed some rest because you over did your heart" I sigh and say "oh ok" she says "I was so scared Noah I thought you were" she pauses and I look at her and she starts crying I pull her onto my chest and she begins to cry and say "hey it's ok it's ok" she nods her head and say "I really thought I was going to lose you Noah I really did" why is she making this harder for me I want to just end things with her but I can't she thought that she was about to lose me and she was just about to lose me but I just can't bring myself to break her heart I can't do it I love Demi sooo much but I can't hurt Isabella I can't do that to her she has been there for me so many times and I can't just do that to her I have to hold my feelings in for Demi and it just breaks my heart I honestly don't know what to do but what I do have to do it tell Isabella the truth and I'll let her decide what she wants to do after that, I swear though I am super Bipolar or something's because one moment I am saying how much I love Demi and how I should be with her and I should tell Isabella the truth and then here I am holding back in Telling Isabella because I don't want to hurt her I seriously need to go and talk to the doctor about this because I feel like I am going crazy and I also feel like I am going to lose it again I need to get my shit together, so I look up at her and I say "Isabella I need to tell you something" she looks up at me and says "ok what is it?" I take a deep breath and I say "I cheated on you with Demi" she looks at me and I can see just from her eyes that I just broke her she looks down at her hand since she is now sitting down and I try to rub her shoulder but she pulls away immediately and says "don't" I say "Isabella" she nods her head no and gets up and says "when did this happen?" I say "last night" she gets close to me and slaps me and says "how could you do this to me Noah how could you after everything we've been through after everything that she has done to you how can you just do that?" I stay quiet because I honestly did not mean to hurt her it just happened she says "answer me Noah"
I say "I don't know why I did it Isabella I honestly don't know we were fighting and then out nowhere we just started kissing and it led to other things" she nods her head and says "I can't believe it Noah I seriously can't I can't believe you would hurt me like this Noah all I have done to you is love you and honestly I thought you felt the same way but I guess you don't because you went and had sex with someone who cheated on you not only once but for a whole month you out of all people should know how it feels to have been cheated on” “I know and trust me I regret it because I know that you didn’t deserve that and I am sorry that I did it” she scoffs “are you really sorry Noah? Are cheaters sorry because I never heard Demi call you to apologize” I get angry and say “she never apologized because I never gave her a chance ok I never gave her a chance to explain, she never had a chance to give me a really as to why she did what she did ok so stop bringing her into this” she rolls her eyes and says “well that is not my fault is it since you were the one that made that decision and I will bring her into this because she is the reason that this happened” “it is not only her fault ok I had fault in it too and you know what I was the one that kissed her ok” she stays silent and says “I kissed her first and I want to say that it didn’t mean nothing and that happened last night didn’t mean nothing but I can’t keep on lying to myself and to you because it did mean something ok it mean everything to me because I am still in love with her Isabella I still love her I thought that I was going to be able to move on but the more I kept telling myself that I didn’t love her the more I fell in love with her and I am sorry that I hurt I didn’t mean to because I love you Isabella and you have always been there for me and I know it was as stupid move that I made and I know that I am the worst person ever and I know that I should’ve never let what happened last night happen because I know how it feels to be cheated on but I don’t know what happened” honestly after I said that I felt slightly better and the reason why I know that I don’t feel like I could completely breathe is because I haven’t told Demi the truth.
Isabella and I are quiet for a moment and then she says “you never loved me did you Noah?” I look at her and I say “I did love I honestly did those 3 years that we were together and even before when we met and after we came back to LA and I saw Demi I did love you I still did but I feel like that love that we had went away after we lost our daughter and you left me Isabella you left me here” she says “so what you are saying is that this is my fault? That it is my fault that you are not in love with me anymore that it is my fault that we lost our baby is that what you are saying?” I look at her and say “honestly yes I am blaming you for leaving me behind I am not blaming you because we lost out daughter but I am blaming you for leaving me behind” she says “how is it my fault Noah I was heartbroken we had just lost our daughter” I yell “I was heartbroken too Isabella” she stays quiet and says “I was heartbroken too ok you weren’t the only on that had a loss she was my daughter too” tears where falling from my eyes and from Isabella’s eyes, she says “I am sorry noah I am sorry for leaving you behind I just I felt like I needed time away from you because I felt like I couldn’t breathe when it was you, Demi, and I, I felt like I was never going to be able to move on from our daughters dead if I stuck around I felt like you didn’t care about how I felt, I felt like it was just about you and Demi because Demi was there to console you and nobody was there to console me” “I was there Isabella I told you let’s go somewhere” she nods her head and says “no you didn’t Noah no you didn’t I was the one that suggested for us to have a break” she’s right it was her she was the one that said that we needed time apart, we stay quiet again.
She looks at me and says “we were never supposed to say I do were we?” I look down and I nod my head no and she says “why did you propose to me Noah if you knew that you were still I love with Demi?” I sigh and say “because I thought that we could work our relationship I thought that maybe if we were to get married we could fix ourselves again and begin to do all the things that we always wanted to do and dreamed of like start a family” she plays with the ring around her finger and says “this doesn’t belong to me Noah you know it doesn’t” I stay quiet and she says “what you did with Demi was wrong it really was and it hurts me sooo much that you did that to me because even though I left you behind I don’t think I deserved that because I was there for you when she cheated on you, I just wish that you would’ve just told me the moment you realized that you stopped loving me instead of hurting me the way that you did” I nod my head understanding and I say “I’m really sorry Isabella I really am and I know that after this our relationship is over and I respect that” she takes the ring off from her finger and she walks over to me and says “I’m sorry Noah but I can’t marry someone that doesn’t love me or that can’t say I do to me” she puts the ring on my palm and I say “I understand and I really am sorry Isabella I really am” she gives me a small smile and says “I wish I could say ok but I just I need time so I think it would be best for me to just pack my things go to Texas and pack the rest of my stuff and go back to Brazil” I nod my head and say “ok I know that things between us are going to be weird after this but I really do hope that you can forgive me one day and that we could be friends” she gives me a small smile and she says “baby steps Noah baby steps, but I will always love you ok” I nod my head and she leans in and kisses my cheek and walks over to the door and before she walks out she says “you need to tell her the truth Noah she deserves to know the truth” I nod my head knowing who she is talking and with that she walks out and I have officially lost one of the girls that I really did once love and loved me back and now it’s time to go and lose another girl that I really do love and that isn’t going to love me after I tell her the truth..……
No more Isabella and Noah….
How do you guys think Demi is going to react when Noah tells her?
Will Demi stop loving Noah?
Should Isabella come back later on?
Hey guys sooooo I finally updated I apologize once again for taking forever to update but this week was just really busy for me, but on the Brightside my spring break is coming up pretty soon which means that I will be able to make it up to you guys! And thank you guys sooo much for sticking around and continuing to read my story I hope you guys liked this update by the way and if you did please vote/ comment below and let me know what you guys think is going to happen next! =)
P.S-Next update will be Friday!