A/N:
hope everyones doing alright:))
dear cass,
come take me away
in your white van pls😁
-a person wanting to be kidnapped
OKAY ON WITH THE STORY!!!!
TW// MENTIONS!!! of EDs, alcoholism, suicidal thoughts and self harm
anyways this chapter is actually happy, with the small but of sadness. ENJOY:)
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present day
august 12th 2014- no pov
he was driving alone, he was free all day. until seven in the evening. they had to meet up with one more artist(s).
he stopped at a red light before pulling out his phone and clicking on one of the two pinned contacts in his list.
harry x : 'be there soon, miss you'
with that he closed his phone and waited for the red light to turn green. the once busy highway turned into a small lonesome road, trees passing by, some cattle to be seen as well.
the bad had been in such a rush getting this 'celebration concert' put together for niall that they had stopped organizing everything for court.
in less than a minute all the tickets were sold out for this 'one night only' concert. seeing how the band was seen with five seconds of summer just a week prior- everyone had their speculations of a collab or something.
luckily none of the fans have been getting the idea of a court trial. although the larry rumours were stronger than ever, but simon didnt have the time to try and hide it as he was getting ready for court as well.
all hes done is send eleanor on pap walks with louis. even el had given up, she just wanted the money and attention.
there was always this awful feeling harry had. what if they lost? what if what they had wasnt enough? because then all these months would go to waste and they wouldnt be free.
although they would be dead if they didnt try. if the five boys hadnt all finally opened up to one another.
zayn wouldnt have started the day program for his eating disorder. liam wouldnt be apart of AA meetings. niall would still be hiding the fact he has leukaemia. harry wouldnt have stopped self harming with out the boys knowing... hes a month clean now!! and louis well... louis wouldnt even be here.
along with all of that... both louis and harry might not have talked about everything.
it hurts the youngest knowing what couldve happened and what might happen. but they will continue to fight for it.
his green eyes laid upon a very familiar house. his home... to him a person can have more than one home.
as to harry home means a place you feel yourself, somewhere you feel safe... happy, content, stress free. plus it doesnt have to be a place...
louis is his home.
wherever that doncaster accent is- thats where his home is. but harry also feels safe inside his childhood home. old yet happy memories live within the walls.
a small sigh was let out of his mouth as he took the keys out of the ignition and opened the car door. with the wind, it accidentally slammed shut.
he stumbled up the front path and opened the brown wooden door. the air smelled of pasta and a familiar perfume "im here!" his british accent carried through the house.
"my boy!" the mother gasped running into the entrance as harry slid off his boots "oh how are you" she pulled him into a hug in which he gladly accepted.
"ive missed you too mum" he smiled "wheres robin? and smells wonderful"
"your favourite" anne pulled back "itll be ready shortly and he should be back soon from work" she left the hall with a wife smile. so he took it upon himself to head up stairs.
he say on his childhood bed, feeling nostalgic. a picture of his old band was on his small desk. a lot of traces of his past life- well its still the same life just a different era you could say- was in the room.
of course he misses the feeling of walking outside and not getting noticed every few seconds. but he wouldnt change it for the world.
"wheres this baby brother of mine" another voice called through out the house. he smiled before laughing to himself.
how did she know i was here?
"up stairs about to trash your room!" he laughed running down the hall. foot steps were heard speeding up the staircase "you better not be styles"
"watch me" he blocked the door with his large body, his sister tried to push passed him "aw you might be older but im stronger" he cackled.
with that he turned around and started to pick at things in her childhood room "ooo maybe i could-"
"LUNCH" their mum called, making then roll their eyes at each other then race down the stairs. anne turned around to see her kids out of breath "you are both in your twenties, yet you act like you are five"
she set out plates on the kitchen table, homemade pasta always being harrys favourite meal "harry started it"
he gasped holding a fork full of food "did not!" gemma back panned "did too!"
"not!"
"too!
"not!"
"too!
"no-"
"both of you shut it!" anne interfered "now, before i kick you both out. tell me everything im missing out on" she sat next to them smiling.
***
the door opened then closed. shuffling heard from the hall to the living room "hi love" the man spoke kissing his wife on the cheek before turning to his step kids "harry! gem! when did you get in?"
"hi robin" harry smiled pulling him into a hug "around one, you havent missed much" his sister nodded along hugging the man as well.
they all caught up, harry checking the time- it being only five in the evening. so he had decided to stay for dinner.
"hows niall doing?" robin immediately asked as he was setting the table. gemma was helping anne with dinner prep.
he placed down the third plate and looked back up to his step father with a smile "hes actually better than he has been in a long time"
"he still crushing over lover girl?" gemma placed a salad on the table with a smirk plastered on her face.
a light laugh escaped harrys lips "i think its more than crushing at this point gem"
"ohh! so they are like the straight version of you and louis? is that it?"
his mouth dropped and his hand made its way to her shoulder- pushing her back. his sister just shrugged turning away "im right though baby bro"
no answer.
soon enough dinner was ready "steak and fried potatoes" anne spoke grabbing the plates off the table and heading back to the stove to grab everyones servings.
"smells wonderful mum, thank you"
"god youre such a mummas boy" gemma leaned back in her chair causing anne to nudge her "im sorry i appreciate our mum" harry stared at her.
"im just saying!" she sipped her water "but yes, thank you mummy" she then smiled and started to eat.
it was silent for a moment before robin looked over to the curly haired lad "you look a little on edge h, you alright?"
right. he was supposed to ask his mum... without telling her what she would be asked.
his leg was shaking really bad- he needed a cigarette. but that could wait... he thinks it could at least.
"right um" deep breathes styles... come on "so you all uh... fuck- i mean uh sorry i didnt mean to swe-"
"harry, sweetie are you okay?" his mum got up and rushed to his side, crouching down "do you need to step outside?"
she was worried, which made his even more guilty somehow. he quickly shook his head "no, i can say this. i can" to be fair he said it more to himself.
i can do this, just tell them about court... they dont need to know abou-
"take your time h" gemma reached across the table, stopping his thoughts and taking his hand. his stress lifted very slightly off his shoulders....
slightly.
"um- so we are... we are" deep breaths "we are finally going to court against simon..."
there... we said- nope still have to...
"really? harry thats amazing!" robin cheered "that dick deserves to be thrown behind bars-"
"robin" anne shot him a look "language!"
the man mumbled a 'sorry' before staying quiet "its not all is it baby bro?" the young- yet still older than him- girl spoke, hands still in his.
with a shake of the head he turn his eye sight to his mum, a worried smile formed on her lips "the lawyers- adam and christine want y-you to uh... go up on the stand- answer some questions..."
"honey, i would do it in a heartbeat..."
your heart would break when that one question would hit you mum...
"i- theres just a lot happened and i feel like i cant control anything anymore..." tears built up in his eyes " 'm sorry"
gemma stood up "nope you dont get to be bloody sorry... come on. brother sister talk upstairs, right now"
its not like he could protest, he quickly excused himself- gemma grabbed his hand pulling him uo the stairs and into her room.
she went to open the window, his brows furrowed questioning his odd sister. she then climbed onto the roof "well come on, you need a smoke and mum would never let you smoke in the house- let alone ever"
"howd you know i-"
"saw them in your coat pocket months back, now get your ass on the roof and we can split one"
he crawled out the window and made his way up to the very top of the roof- luckily it was flat but you needed to be careful not to slip on the way up.
"tell me baby bro, everything"
harry nodded, knowing he would be late to meet uo with the boys but at this rate he needed this. just like old times when he or gemma got stressed, they would climb up to the roof and let out all their worries.
the lit cigarette in his mouth let smoke escape to his lungs as he handed it to his older sister "since when did you smoke?"
"dont do it often, only with other people. now dont change the subject. i want to know everything in that stupidly successful brain of yours yeah?" he inhale the smoke as well.
where do i start?
once the first word left his mouth he couldnt stop speaking "...ut like, its just all so much. between everyone getting the help they need and trying not to fall a part because of stress- i havent had time for me i guess. obviously lou and i have time alone but-"
"you focus more on him in those moments than you do on yourself?" she inhaled their second shared cigarette.
the green eyed brother nodded shyly "thats it, thats all on my mind" he took the white, rolled, burning, paper from her and bringing it to his lips.
"no its not"
his eyes met her "what?" he was caught off guard "listen, harry. you are my younger brother. do you really think i cant tell there isnt more?"
"i- gem" tears met his pupils once again "um- he... i... shit" he dropped the cigarette off the roof.
"if you cant tell me yet, then leave it... okay?" once again he nodded "come here, hug time"
and thats what they did.
hug.
a very much needed brother, sister hug.
***
"yeah im here sorry im late-" harry mustered out, making his way to the living room which held four girls and his four bandmates.
louis smiled over to him"its alright love, we only just got here too"
they all sat in a circle on the floor- around a glass coffee table "harry!" the blonde girl stood up, came over to hug him.
"hi perrie" he smiled, returning the hug. louis immediately wrapped his arms around harry when he sat down.
"hows your mum?" louis whispered in his ear, which made the younger boy smile "shes doing good" he replied before turn towards the other band.
"right boys" jesy started "you said you are going to court am i right?" the five of them nodded.
liam took a sip off water "we wanted to ask you if you would testify, you know- get up on the stand"
"the aussies are already doing it, other artists dont want to as they are scared of what would come. but we wanted to ask our second favourite band" niall spoke.
the girls laughed "second?"
"we are obviously first"
"alright irish" jade stared "were in" everyone smiled going over how it would work- texting their lawyers.
they had a few drinks- sadly not niall before they left the mix house. louis split off with harry in his car as the other lads drove the one they arrived in.
it was a silent drive. no music, no talking.
he looked over to the sleeping blue eyed boy next to him. all his thoughts went away and a new one came to mind that made his heart and stomach do backflips.
i wanna be his again...
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A/N:
SO!!! im taking like a week break! theres been a lot going on in my life. maybe i will update if i write to get away from my problems.
anyways, this chapter was a happy chapter for ya:)
next chapter (30) is also gonna be happy! and then chapter 31 will be heavy!
AND!!!! so i changed something within the plot. there was supposed to be an album that came out before MITAM but i realized now it wont fit in with the plot!
RIGHT STAY SLUTTY MY FRIENDS XX -L