My One and Only ?

Chapter 32

Chapter 32:

Ryan's POV:

SHIT.

Sharon cannot break up with me.

Not yet.

Melissa had told Sharon about the kiss, there had to be a reason behind doing so, right? She wont just do that out of loyalty.

Knowing Sharon, she must have obviously told Melissa what a darling boyfriend I had been these past few days. But was it strange that I enjoyed doing the little things 

I did for her? 

I had started enjoying her company, of this I was sure.

So the thought that arose next put me in a puddle of curiosity, confusion and bewilderment.

Was I upset because the plan to make Mel jealous had failed or because this had led to a fight between Sharon and me?

I didnt really want to breka up with Sharon, I liked having her around.

"But wasnt Melissa more important?" I asked myself.

The answer was clear.

I had started falling for Sharon, as much as I had not wanted to initially.

The way she always stuck her tongue out to annoy me, the way she kissed me on the cheek everytime we parted, the way she interwined her fingers in mine, whenever she 

had a chance, the way she said 'Ryan' and the way she stretched the 'n' so much in her childish tone, but also the maturity with which she wiselt left me alone when 

thoughts of my sister haunted me, or the images of her lying dead in the bathroom in a pool of blood took over my train of thoughts.

These memories made the hair on the back of my neck stand and turned my hands icy cold.

Even though I'd been with Sharon only for a little less than two months I had grown quite accustomed to her.

While earlier I was oblivious to her friendship with Melissa, now that had become a major deciding factor. While earlier I wanted to date her only to make Mel jealous, 

now I wanted to date her for her, for the person she was and for the person she brought out od me when I was with her.

Her eyes had a certain kind of ease in them, they were calm and playful at the same time. The best part was that her eyes radiated life and a willingness to live life.

No matter how dull the day might appear, Sharon could always bring a smile on my face.

My previous motive of making Mel jealous seemed to be so trifle in front of the feelings which were soon developing for her. None of my other flings had made me feel 

this way, and we hadnt really connected.

Telling Sharon everything had been a big step and I was glad I had done that. Her eyes had not shwon pity but had understanding, support and strength in them. She had 

simply hugged me without saying she was sorry or without any comforting words. That's exactly what I had been needing since a long time.

Cursing myself under my breadth I paced around the house trying to decide what I valued more.

Now when I thought about it, I realized that even though I thought I liked Melissa, in reality I was only jealous of the kind of relationship that Melissa and Daniel 

shared. I was doing nothing but trying to compete with Daniel, for no reason at all.

Even though I wont admit it to anyone but me, I had some male ego issues which brought the worst out of me, causing this instability in my life.