My only possession (chanlix)

Passing

"You okay?"

I looked up at him and when our eyes met I felt my heart quake.

"O-oh yeah.. I guess I zoned out.."

Chan chuckled as he playfully ruffled my hair. I watched as he got up and went to the kitchen. I kept my eye on him as he rubbed his neck.

I was about turn back to the Tv screen however just before I did I noticed chan smile and softly at his phone screen...

Is he texting someone?

I know I shouldn't be jealous.. but I am. I feel jealously building up inside me.

"Felix you want a drink?"

"Uhhh.. yeah. Just water."

But it's odd because I like this new chan... he's caring, gentle...

But I also miss his touch and the way he used to talk to me.

"Here you go bro."

"Oh.. thanks.."

Now all he does is treat me like a brother.

"I'm meeting someone later, so I'll be back late tonight"

"Huh? Who? Do I know them?"

I just blurted out without any thought.

"Woah.. why are you acting so weird, but it's no one important and you don't know them.."

Chan just chuckled slight as I felt embarrassed at my outbreak.

"Oh... d-do you like them?"

I fiddled with my fingers as I asked the slightly risky question.

"I don't know that's what I'm going to figure out."

...

"Ah..."

Don't cry Felix... don't cry.. this is your fault he can move on. He can find someone else. We are just...

"Well I should get ready."

But in my head we aren't... I can't look at him and believe we are just roommates.

Chan:

I got up from playing games with Felix to grab a drink. As I got up a sharp pain in my neck occurred. After the pain I recollected my memories from last night...

I got a drink and as I opened a cabinet the cabinet door swung into my neck and bruised it.

Stupid... I should've put some ice on it. I didn't think it would get this bad.

*ding~*

| memories from 6 months ago |